happy birthday to me.
haha
my birthday wish: tt this yr n the nxt wld b smooth sailing n veri happy.
sigh.
who will wish me happy birthday?
lemme compile a list tmr
but for now:
jia :D
sh thanx!
bock thanx!
my sister haha.
jh thanx dude.
i'm a sad case.. doin such things haha.
sweet seventeen

ooh. information overload.
this was wat happened. i was hunched over my respiration notes at my desk. i was highlighting some stuff. i looked at the stuff i highlighted. pyruvate. phosphorylation. andenosine triphospate blah blah. i started thinking wat to eat for dinner. caught myself in time. hydrogen carriers. kerbs cycle.... i started wondering who were the singapore idol judges. i went back to my respiration notes. then i realised something realli impt. i didnt have a single idea wat i was reading.
ahhh. biology studying.
yesterday's dinner was FAB. went with my family to this noodle shop in chinatown. havent been to tt place in ages. it's much more commercialised now, with OG n shopping centres. infusia of chinese culture n modernisation? it felt weird. but nevertheless there was an air of good clean fun. ppl there were mainly families, none of the mindless materialism u often see in big shopping centres.
wats the best thing to have on a cold drizzly evening? a BIG BOWL OF HOT STEAMING NOODLES! it was one of the best noodles i have eaten. yummy soup. big succulent prawns. leafy vegetables. satisfying no doubt. i sound like i'm writing for some food review. haah. after tt dinner i went out with my sister to bugis. juz walking arnd n shopping. bugis junction is a nice place to walk abt at night!i shld go out with my sis more often! haha.
am taking a break frm all tt studying. sitting at my com. feeling the wind frm the balcony. good weather today. juz the way i like it. cloudy yet with some sunshine. breeze.
how am i supposed to last another 29 days of days like this?? how can i give up all of hrs online, my storybooks, my magazines, my tv shows??

so we are tt different!
amazing.
it's time to give up n walk away.

juz finished packing all of study material. lookin at it gives me a huge headache. how to swallow tt 4 stacks of notes in 1 mth?. sigh.
i'm slpy.
guess i shall go take a nap.

I'm Sorry ok. i realli am.

tmr's my 1st official day of mugging. unfortunately i'm predicting tt it wont go well cuz grandma's coming over apparently to celebrate my bdae. heh. oh yes. many thanx to dear leedya! i love my sky blue nike socks! haha my 2nd pair frm u.. thanx a lot! :D
skill c n d werent as bad as i thot it wld b. hey if i can do the calculations den it shld b pretty damn easy. cuz my CHEM SUCKS! yes ok enough of tt. it's all over n done with n i'm glad. now i can concentrate on studying.
so today's the last day to enjoy myself. i juz love relaxin. lying on my comfy bed. listening to the radio. feeling the cool breeze. not caring abt work. reading my new bk "shopaholic n sister" (thanx to jh n his voucher!) i love the series! haha it's a wonder how anyone can b so bimbotic n amusing. go read the whole series. highly recommended entertainment.
today. a good day. cuz i went back to dhsco! yippee. i'm still so attached! mollie said tt he doesnt have the committment to dhsco anymore. tt made me wonder. am i attached to co or the committee? i guess more of the com, but it was great to go back again.
went back with leedya. silly girl. didnt want to walk the long way back to dhs. wanted to wait for 158 but realised it wld b quite dumb to take juz one bus stop. some ppl shld b happy liao ba! heh :P walked into sch gate, npcc were practicing their drills. the sec1 n 2s look so small! were we ever like this?? we seem so old now. in our jc U. haha leedya pointed out tt our skirts r damn short. dhs skirts r actualli way below the knees! hm. where r ours now? haha.
ahh. the familiar LT. our dazu place. same old noisy LT doors. the red chairs. the steps tt "click" when u walk up them. xyz at the left of the LT. dyb on the right. zheng in the right corner. djy at the top with gy. sigh. i couldnt stop smiling when i went in. it felt SO much like HOME. the smell! the feeling! the music! i'm mad. was sitting in the corner with my good ol' jrs. my ever trusty successor mabel n my ever competent n talented instructor wanying. chatted all the way thru. funny how this 1/2 yr can change ur entire life around. sec sch life seems so far away... they r going on the china trip in abt a few days time. practicing for yuefei for their concert. haha. it's THE song tt nv fails to impress ppl. still remember the times me n jiayin wld b sitting in tt veri corner waiting for ttk or gls to play our song. n more than often not they wld play yuefei over n over n over again, so we are like hearing it all the time, whether we are slping away, doing work or juz plain stoning. i can still remember every part perfectly! powerful piece. i was SO proud to be sitting right there listening to my jrs play. no matter how lousy ttk make us out to be.. we are still the best in singapore.
ahh there goes another one of dhsco rantings.
was having dinner with mollie today. good chance to catch up with tt guy! nv change at all ah i muz say. den was walking with him n sh to ECP for the cco bbq. felt so out of place cuz i didnt noe many seniors. moreover some of them may not even be frm dhs. so walked back to vjc. along the way, ppl were having bbqs, or juz plain hanging out. the smell of roasting drumsticks, the aroma of barbequed prawns, it made me think, this is wat my holidays shld b like! happy. carefree. not mugging my brains out for some horrible mid yr papers! sigh. the life of a typical singapore student.

u can do wat u want. n i can pretend i nv saw a thing. but i cannot pretend to forget

YES half day again today! thanx to our hockey girls. but unfortunately juz as i have predicted, our cricket n badminton both lost to sa n rj respectively. well 2 out of 4 aint bad at all. it wld have been nice to thrash those rafflesians n saints though. :D quite sorry tt i didnt go down to support, but then again i didnt realli want to watch them lose. NOT tt i was so sure they wld lose.. but it sux to see other ppl cheer when ur sch loses.
sch officially ends today. n so officially begins my mugging period. i shall start to worry onli tmr after spa though. i hate chem spa. wats wrong with my chem???
okok i shall not start one of rantings again.
i realise tt i'm no longer feeling anything again. good. good timing. well done girl.
oh yes i shall say hi to some of those i didnt noe were reading my blog. Hi Mollie! Hi dominic! Hi lydia if mollie has told u my blog add n u're reading this!
haha.
oh n more imptly. i got my presents frm the usual ppl today. well.. one of the presents they gave themselves away cuz i saw the picture in jh's phone! but i didnt expect to get TWO more presents! am veri veri touched. thanx guys!!! i noe veri ex.. but realli. THANKS! thanks to cin, sh n jh, jam, mandy bock n jpoh. i LOVE my prezzies! :D
17yrs old soon. i'm gonna get my ears pierced. yes ppl r shocked tt i dun have ear holes. so i'm gonna get them. perhaps 2 on one ear? i shall see. a yr older. perhaps it's time to grow up more? haha. shant get affected too much. SHall TRY.
three more days.

correction: kengyang DID not score the 3rd goal. CJ did! hattrick! he's WAY COOL! too bad he's going back to north korea. wat will b left of our soccer team? anw it's all the SCs fault, made all of us cheer "well done kengyang!", tts we all thot he scored haah.
yes. so after tt terrific thrashing of SA n clinching our champion throphy once again, our hockey girls went on to defend their champions title frm RJ! YiPeE!! 1-0!! HA. see wat the Rafflesians have to say now. Rafflesian spirit bows to the VIctoRiaN spiRit!! WE ROCK. haha ok shall stop this my-sch's-better-den-urs bitchin! tmr's the badminton girls finals against Rj again. well. dun expect too much out of it.Rj shld pull thru. see diplomatic answer!
feelin quite bad tt we didnt go down to catch the hockey match. instead me jam mandy sh jh went to catch troy. i was blown away immediately after the show, cuz it NEARLY managed to move me to tears, but i have to say it's no match for the day after tmr. tt show is a MUST SEE. the effects are so freakin cool n real. i was like "Oh MY GOD" when the gigantic tidal wave came crashing into newyork. i especially love the part when 4 tornadoes swept thru LA n tore this building into half. after tt one of the survivors opened a door n it was like WHOA cuz there was nth left inside the door, juz open air. oh yes n tt part when newyork was in the middle of the vortex of the storm, which caused the whole city to start freezing up. all the buildings, monuments were juz forming ice in seconds, all the windows shattering frm the extreme cold.. realli. it's v difficult to describe the totally awesome effects. u have GOT to catch it to experience it for urself. n it makes u think, continue polluting earth the way we are doing now n one day it may veri well retaliate. Best movie i have seen so far.
IMPT pt: i caught the linkin park vid for 'breakin the habit'. totally COOl video! the whole thing is sth like jap anime.. n it's much darker than all their previous vids. can i say it's the coolest video i have seen so far? haha i'm biased. n i SOOOOOO want to go watch their concert!!!! sigh. no one's willing to spend tt kinda money though. i juz have to comfort myself with the Live in Texas vcd.
fantasia's the new american idol. wellll...sorta expected i muz say. she got quite an interesting character, although i still cant stand her voice. at least it's not diana.. who's still so young! she shld go back to high sch n study properly 1st.
last day of sch tmr. sigh. beginning of my mugging period.

We Are The Champions!
after a TOTALLY thrilling 2hr soccer match against SAJC we have pulled through 4-1!! yes. championships n we still scored 4! can u imagine how good our strikers are??
whoa. this is the 1st time i have experienced such PURe RaW EmoTion, frm the THOUsAnDS of screaming students. everytime a goal is scored frm our side, the sudden surge of PURE adrenaline n happiness juz bursts in you! everybody no longer cares abt their image or watever.. everyone's screaming cheering hugging. whOAaa this is definitely once in a lifetime experience.. i'm so glad i caught this match! We RULE man.. n VJC juz rocks! sajc played an ok game.. but we were obviously dominating throughout. 1st goal in 5 mins! it was scored when the striker (some realli SEH guy!!)managed to break thru the defence n onli had to beat the goalkeeper. COOL. after tt until the 2nd half we had many chances but failed to capitalise on it. 2nd half, sajc soon scored the equaliser thru a freekick/corner?? i forgot. but suddenly the vj side was silenced n we had an omnimous feeling of dread. haha but as always, vj nv fails to live up to expectations! 2nd goal quickly scored barely after the sajc side scored! this was damn hilarious, cuz after sa scored, they were running arnd the stadium with their sch flag, then suddenly we were on top again n 5 of our flag bearers were running in the opposite direction. muz have been so malu for them HahAHa. 3rd goal if i nv forget wrongly, was scored by kengyang, this guy frm dhs! yes, dhs has its soccer talents too. so proud! it was juz in the box. cant realli remember how it was scored, but it was more or less wat secured the championships for us. 4th goal was the MOST COOL. corner? ball fell outside the group of players, one of our players struck it HARD into the back of the net. *SWoOp*. it was like those international goals.. like one of roberto carlos's freekick. damn seh. after tt all the soccer players were hugging n cheering alreadi.. cuz it's juz not possible for sa to score another 3 goals in 5mins.. no matter how strong their fighting spirit is. but i have to hand it to the sa team. they didnt give up till the last min, n were still attacking until the final whistle. well sad to say our defence was juz too strong for them :D when the final whistle was blown. WoHOO! our side erupted with cheers n screams. all of us were like so HIGH! like mr chew once said: "drunk on teen spirit" or sth liddat. my throat's aching like mad n i'm still a little giddy frm all tt crazy atmosphere..
I LOVE VJC!! VJC SOCCER ROCKS

Sometimes
It's wrong to walk away
Though you think it's over
Knowing there's
So much more to say
Suddenly the moment's gone
And all your dreams
Are upside down
And you just
Want to change the way
The world goes round
Tell me
Have you ever loved
And lost somebody
Wished there was a chance
To say I'm sorry
Can't you see
That's the way
I feel about you and me
Have you ever
Felt your heart
Was breaking?
Looking down the road
You should be taking
I should know
'Cause I loved and
Lost the day
I let you go
really want to
Hear you say
That you know
Just how it feels
To have it all and
Let it slip away
Can't you see
I know the moment's gone
I'm still holding on somehow
Wishing I could
Change the way
The world goes round

first day of last wk tmr! terrible man. time realli flies. 4th june dhsco leaving for china trip! i realli gotta hand it to jiayin linli n mollie, they are at HC-the-full-of-muggers-sch n yet they r still goin for the trip! feel kinda bad for not going, but i'm alreadi in the realli-cannot-make-it-will-die-if-i-dun-study state.
felt kinda stupid this morn. thot the gathering was at dhs, instead of jy's hse! went ALL the way back to tanjong rhu. shucks. got scolded by ah tiong, our FaVOURITE sch attendant cum security guard. (sarcasm) but at least i got to take 158! silly huh. juz a bus wat. but it certainly brought back my fav dhs memories. squeezing onto the bus with thousands of ppl after sch. taking it to kallang mrt with my frens. taking it to macpherson if i'm alone or juz want some peace n quiet.. or watever.
i miss dhsco. i realli do. especially after today. every gathering makes me so happy. my senior used to say tt dhs lack sch spirit, bcuz ppl are veri veri bonded to their ccas. so true. i guess this was the main reason y i didnt want to graduate. yes. funny huh? the whole world was in a hurry to grow up, yet i wanted to stay in dhs. in dhsco. my 4 yrs in dhs, n wat do i remember the msot? dhsco. ok n maybe 2j01. guess i can write a book abt all my memories in dhsco alr! haha.

i wan to capture this feeling. the same old rush of adrenaline. feeling of elation everytime after a concert well done. nv ever expected i wld feel this way especially now, but i did, n i'm veri veri glad. n i'm veri veri happy to be in VJCO. who cares wat ppl say abt its once-lousy standard. i'm juz glad to b part of this familiar big family. somewhere i belong? perhaps.
before i forget i better thank a whole lot of ppl. 1st of all to the usual gang of cin sh n jh. thanx for the chocs n for shouting "go minyan!" haha frankly speaking i have nv experienced such stuff. guess ppl dun usually do things liddat at VCH? well anyway it was quite embarrassing..but still touching! thanx! to my dear partner jiayin. thanx for coming back juz for one song! the dhsco power is once again on display. too bad huiwen isnt there? the 4 of us. the superb 4! we rock! to jieying n hsuimm.. thanx for ur chocs n flower respectively. so touched! didnt expect u all to come, much less remember tt i'm performing! to szelang n all those who came. thanx. it was great to see the dhsco family again. all the screams n hugs. think we frightened quite a lot of ppl there. haha.
to b continued. i'm tired.

when u're feeling down. sing. cuz it will chase all ur blues away.
so i'm feeling slightly more positive after tt previous entry. finished studying for chem spa, relatively speaking. guess my mood changes come n blow over veri quickly. typical girlie behavior. yeayea.
realised juz now tt this wk has past by horrifyingly-quickly. why horrifying? cuz it seemed juz a few days ago tt i was mad n pissed off with some ppl. yea but in reality it has been a wk. tmr it wld b one wk since we ate at pizza hut for dinner. yes ONE WEEK. where has all the time gone to this wk?? i guess time juz seems to fly when u spend like 3/4 of ur day in sch.
tmr's the BIG day. VJCO concert. note the irony n contradiction?
i dun hope for any miracles to happen at the last minute. perhaps we wld be able to get thru the pieces without any major bloopers.
wat a contrast frm the concert juz a mere month or so ago.
ppl were busy worrying abt fine-tuning their pieces, n not getting thru them. well no expectations anyway.
think i better slp. my head's starting to throb.

i found his blog. after linking n linking n linking thousands of ppl, i've managed to find his blog. wat can i say. i'm pretty much disgusted. he sounds like a younger version of U-NOE-HU. i guess i can say i expected this. he's no longer the immature guy i used to know back den. now he's all big ambitions, talking lots of crap. ok ppl have their dreams n goals unlike me. i'm still stuck in my kiddie land, my Neverland, still in my little girl mindset. well. this totally changes my impression of him. he is so shockingly different. such a complicated character. y do i feel so disappointed? because the seemingly perfect picture i had painted of him in my heart has been destroyed? or at least perfect in the sense tt i want it to be? so much difference, in juz a matter of two years. y havent i seemed to change? am i still immature? am i not thinking long-term enough? i have no idea y i'm feeling this way too. i'm juz glad tt i'm not harbouring any hopes. n i'm disgusted now. even though i have no right to.
forget it. i have spa tmr. i shldnt b bothered by these stuff again.
i'm so easily affected. tell me WHY do i FEEL so DISAPPOINTED??

dunno wat to think anymore. i'm beat. chem spa tmr. co concert. hw. pw. midyrs. $$ probs. read someone's blog n was rather disturbed. read another person's blog n wondered if she has been lying. heard some stuff frm other ppl tt made me upset momentarily. one whole chunk of problems. realised tt i've become immune to all this s*** for the time being. throw it to the back of my mind. it does not concern me now n i cannot b bothered. yes. take things in my stride.
everybody is so complicated. i used to have the habit of putting myself into the shoes of other ppl. try to find out wat they r thinking. have since given up trying to do it. they r way too complicated for me. n there r many things i rather not know or find out. sometimes it's gd to be kept in denial.
well i dun want to get back the old habit of pyscho-analysing everything again. maintain a neutral mind.

havent been watching american idol for a veri veri long time. quite disappointed with the finalists this yr frankly speaking. somehow they lack the engaging characters like those in A.I 2, nor are they as talented as the previous idols. come on, is fantasia or diana as talented or interesting as clay or ruben, or even trenyce? sigh. it's a disappointing season. cannot imagine the two of them fighting for the idol title. both of them cannot make it! elton john says it's due to racism tt caused latoya n jennifer to be voted off. no idea whether it's true or not. but latoya definitely is the one to win the title. not onli is she way talented than the final two, she's also classy. frankly i think fantasia cant sing for nuts. i quote simon cow: " you sound like donald duck on helium" like totally?? n diana is way too young. she has a gd voice. but i think in the end fantasia will eventually truimph. shucks. can u imagine listening to a cd with onli her irritating voice? gross.
hopefully singapore idol wld b much more interesting!

napfa test today. did fine. some were better den expected, like situps. sbj totally disappointed me. cant believe i can onli manage to jump tt distance. guess wat jam said is right. once ur peak is over. tt's it man. shutter run inclined as pernormal. nearly got cheated by tt sitnreach teacher! no matter wat u muz take off ur shoes! i managed to increase frm a pathetic 45 to 52! how's tt for living proof? n tt teacher still insisted tt it's all in our mind. haha yea right. so how do u account for jamie's increase frm 46 to 51 n sianghan's 34 to 43?
heard some news of the actions of certain ppl tt made me quite mad. these ppl seriously think they can survive on their own without the help of others. they actualli think they are tt good? lets see wat u can do when the others retaliate. till then maybe it wld b too late even if u grovel n beg for them to return. den it wld serve all of them right!annoying freaks.
pretty much not in the mood to type. the weather is way too hot.

1. Favorite breakfast is: any thing. i cant stomach much tt early in the morning anyway

2. The movie you've watched the most number of
times is: 10 things i hate abt u. i love tt show!

3. Least favorite subject in school: now? chem. my chem sux. it used to b physics

4. I spend my leisure time: blogging. watching tv. reading mag

5. Worst smell: BO!

6. If I could have any car in the world, what
would it be?: BMW sports car!

7. Favorite household chore: household chore got fav one??

8. When I was a kid, I dreamed of becoming a: makeup artist. hilarious! i wonder y i wld think of tt.

9. Favorite colors: blue pink n black

10. Favorite perfumes: lancome connexion

11. When I die, : i dun wanna regret not doing the things i nv did

12. If I could repeat college, I'd take up: why wld i wan to repeat college?

13. Three things I can't leave home without: hp. wallet. money. oh n water bottle haha

14. First thing I bought with my first salary: not working leh. sad

15. I'd like to be remembered as: mIaN

16. If a book was made into a movie, would you
still bother buying the book? ya of cuz. i prefer reading the actual story

17. Specialty in cooking?: i cant cook. instant mee counted?

18.First crush?: some guy in p.sch. ahha

19.Favorite hangouts: VJC sch library. hahaha. but seriously. spent so much time there during the breaks slacking. slping. surfing the net. hmm. i like esplandae

20. Best place to shop?: if u r like me. PARAGON!

21. Do you like to watch plays?: havent been to one leh. but dun think i can realli understand the deep ones

22. Favorite place in the house?: bedroom of cuz. n my toilet! it's veri veri clean . n veri veri dry! can slp on the floor one lo

23. Best gift you've given?: my heart. unfortunately it was thrown away. haha. nah kidding. hmm. sianghan's $65 bag which i shared with cin n jh. so damn ex!!!!

24. Weirdest gift you've received: hm. none i think. ppl noe wat i like. i got many many pillows.

25. Gift that you want to receive at this
moment: MONEY! haah cuz i need to pay up some ppl.

LINKIN PARK GIG! 22ND JUNE! PADANG! TICKETS AT $85 n $150!!

brandon has the video clip of the iraqi soldiers beheading the american guy. i have absolutely no idea y on earth does he want tt clip. it's the most horrible, most gross, most inhumane thing anyone can ever dream of. n the thing is i didnt even see the clip when he showed it to some ppl in the class. yet i was alreadi freaking out. it's beyond my imagination HOW ON EARTH a human being can do tt to another LIVE HUMAN BEING?? so wat if they are out of revenge? is tt guy responsible for all tt has happened? i was so grossed out by juz the thought of it. cant imagine those who had watched it! n poor alvin. watched the whole thing without even looking away. he's so gonna get nightmares. yeuck. thank goodness i didnt see it. i'm the type who gets scared at silly movies like dawn of the dead where everything is fake. the blood's fake. the bodies are fake. but this is not fake. this is a real life horror clip. tt's the worst part. the poor guy is realli being beheaded.. argh i dun wanna continue. this is inhumane. was reminded of this clip again juz now when i heard "where is the love?" on radio.

STILL bored.
01. name: minyan
02. hobbies: slping. watching tv. music. blah blah. this is so p.sch
03. gender: female
04. pri school: red swastika
05. Hair colour: black. i wan to get highlights. but so ex. n will get caught. sigh maybe after i graduate
06. horoscope: gemini
07. Sec school: Dunman High School!
08. address: somewhere in bedok
09. email add: better not type. later some loser come n check on me again
10. hair: not long not short. argh irritating
11. eye colour: light brown. i'm proud of it! it's the onli thing nice
12. hair colour: how come muz repeat this qn
13. right or left handed: right
14. marital status: not married obviously
15. siblings: 2
16. last 4 digits of ur no: 1867
17. when's ur bedtime: between 10.30 n 11pm. cant slp late. will get headache
18. do u hav a car: i WISH!
19. what type of car do you want : BMW sportscar
20. brand of cars : see above
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*have u*
21. tried smoking: y do i wan to get myself killed?
22. drink alc0h0l: yea. cant stand it man
23. been hurt emotionally: impossible not to have been
24. kept a secret from anyone: ya.
25. been on stage? many times. i love dhsco. haha
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*favourites*
26. color : blue. pink. black
27. food: any. i'm a food junkie
28. drinks: any healthy stuff i love. yoghurt drinks. fruit juice. etc etc
29. number: 3 7 21!
30. looney toons: all the same to me. i think the characters in happy tree frens cuter hah.
31. sports: i love to watch soccer. i love cap ball! n badminton
32. song : any rock song. or tt i can relate to in my current mood
33. movie: love actually. notting hill.
34. subject: chinese. mep haha
35. friend: myself
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*right now*
36. wearing now: VJ pe shirt n skirt. sigh i seem to have typed this many times
37. hairstyle: skip
38. looking at: this screen??
39. thinking of: who else
40. listening to: ppl typing on their keyboards
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*do u believe in*
41. love?: uhhuh
42. faith: guess so
43. urself: not me den who?
44. ghost: erm. i try not to. but i think so.
45. angel: i wish i had one
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*in the last 24hrs*
46. worn jeans: nope. was in sch or at home wat
47. cleaned ur rooms: haha. my table onli
48. cried: nope. was in a cheery mood yesterday for no reason
49. met someone new: er. some girl who said hi to cindy at the bus stop yesterday. mandy was weirded out by her
50. last person i talk to on the phone: sianghan i think. huh. out at orchard hor. NOT FAIR
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*love life*
51. do u hav a gf/bf: nah
52. haf a secret admirer: yea right
53. do u wanna get married?: yup
54. do u plan on having kids?: sure
55. hw old u wanna be when u get married: not too old. 25? 26?
56. hw old u wanna be when u haf ur first child: a few yrs after the above?
57. how many kids do u want: 2 i think
58. would u hav kids before marriage: no way! shotgun marriage? no!
59. do u haf a crush: :D
60. wat do u wan most in a relationship:
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*either one*
61. pink or black: pink + black is a funky combination
62. kiss or hug: huh?
63. summer or winter: winter
64. sunny or rainy: i love rain
65. chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
66. hanging out or chilling: both. jamie y u looking at the screen??
67. music or tv: both lor. this is getting sian
68. nite or day: got diff meh??
69. guys or girls: y wld i like girls?? in tt sense?
70. slpin or eatin: BOTH. luxury man. can eat n slp.
71. love or lust: love
72. silver or gold: gold so auntie
73. sunset or sunrise: nv seen b4. so sad right. haha. jamie say veri lang4 fei4
74. phone or in person: hm. depends on who la. haha
75. diamond or pearl: i've no use for these leh. diamond?
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*The person u know who are the...*
76. most blonde: C haha. cannot say who it is.
77. most caring: nobody is MOST caring la. everybody is caring at some level.
78. most understandin: haha. myself
79. funniest: COLD MOUNTAIN!!!
80. Helpful: can i stop here. i dunno wat to type alr. n jamie is waiting for me. sitting on the floor. haha. oh yes sianghan is helpful cuz he lends me $$ hahahaaha.
ok time to go.

stuck in sch right now. no chem spa. it aint fair! 7 periods of break n i'm stuck in sch?! argh. me jam n mandy in lib now. thot i shld do this thing here. relieve my boredom.
Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now :
1. how to type this without letting the person nxt to me see
2. how totally bored i am
3. y i'm in a bad mood
4. HIM HIM HIM :P

Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought :
1. CLEO
2. apple strudel cookies frm Marketplace. *yum!*
3. roti prata frm canteen
4. soya bean milk frm canteen oso.

Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink :
1. water
2. watermelon juice
3. yoghurt drink
4. barley water

Add-ons:

Last Time You Said 'I Love You' and to who?
erm. cant remember. dun have leh

Last Time You Cried ?
came close to it many times. but actual.. long time ago i think.

What's In Your CD Player ?
assorted rock songs burned frm bock

What Color Socks Are You Wearing ?
white la. later get caught by seet how

What's Under Your Bed ?
er. drawers of clothes?

What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
5.45. sigh. gotta go sch right

Current Hairstyle?
messy n irritating. i'm gonna cut soon

Current Clothes ?
VJ pe shirt + skirt. still veri hot leh

Current Desktop Picture ?
computer here? no pic. at home is some layout frm XP

Current Worry ?
how to keep up with tutorials n lectures

Current Hate ?
tt i lack money to return to ppl

Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex?
great smilE :D. lke his haha.

Last CD You Bought ?
wa. veri veri long time ago. i dun like to buy. erm. meteora? last yr!

Favorite Place To Be ?
my bedroom. outside? esplanade. sch? PT ha.

Least Favorite Place?
hm. no idea.

If You Could Play An Instrument ?
i can. piano n zheng

if yes, have u ever been go on stage??
yea. countless times. not for piano though. tt's sad

Favorite Color(s)?
blue pink

Do You Believe In An Afterlife ?
guess so. i used to wonder who i was in my previous life. n did i ever wonder if i had an afterlife?

How Tall Are You ?
2cm away frm my ideal height of 165cm. ok i noe it's damn short

Current Favorite Word/Saying ?
add "ji2" to everything. ie: ji2 sian. ji2 bored. courtesy of bock

Favorite Season ?
singapore onli got summer right. well den i hate summer. spring is good

One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could be?
frm my past? huh. y wld i want to b somebody else? haha

Favorite Day ?
any rainy day.

Where Would You Like To Go ?
now: any where out of the sch. in the future: spain. paris. europe. new york

How Many Kids Do You Want ?
2?

Favorite Car ?
this bmw sports car i saw yesterday!

two promises tt i shall keep frm today onwards: eat something healthy everyday. n do at least one hour of work. oh yes.
the former has alreadi been fulfiled today. drank this fAbUlOuS fruit smoothie! healthy? not sure. well there are mangoes bananas n yoghurt in it. so shldnt b too bad? it's like the best smoothie i've ever drank! thick creamy with chunks of banana.. yummy yoghurt. it juz glides down ur throat! *slurp* abt my one hr of work. wEeLL.. shall attempt to do some bio n chem. yep before i watch tv frm nine to eleven heh. oh yes new show on chan5. nip/tuck. heard it's a veri controversial show. sleazy. here's the intro i got frm the website:
Sean McNamara and Christian Troy are two plastic surgeons running a partnership in Miami, Florida with different issues to life. Sean is a wishy-washy, weak-kneed, family man who distances himself with work to avoid his dysfunctional home life which includes his needy and spiteful wife Julie, and his rebelious teenage son Matt. The more slicker Christian is an arrogant, narcissistc, unethical, ladies man who worships wine, women, and the all mighty dollar, and will do just about anything to get what he wants (lie, cheat, steal, blackmail, seduce, even commit murder) and has no qualms about practically anything.
woo. sounds interesting. but the trailer looks pretty gross. n it starts so late! hm. ok maybe shall not watch after all. haha.
oops time to do work. n drink up my barley water (yay 2nd healthy drink of the day)
i'm in such a cheery mood today.

this is like quite interesting leh.


Your High School: Dunman High School
Your Batch: 2000-2003

1. nickname in high school? mian. courtesy of my jrs.

2. sport you were into? i love cap ball! badminton! but i suck at running.

3. had a gang of frens? how many were you? gang ah. ya the mep ppl lor. 5 or 6 of us

4. best subject? chinese haha. humans? n mep. i'm so arts

5. worst subject? it's a tie between a maths n physics

6. a teacher you owe life lessons to? har y.y. insults u throw at students will come back n bite u

7. a teacher you wanna kick in the ass? look above

**Describe In One Word**

8. freshman year: nerdy n passed in a blur

9. sophomore year: my favourite year! somehow everything went well

10. junior year: sucked mostly. everything managed to go wrong

11.senior year: not too bad. rather memorable

12. your best friend? myself?

13. your worst friend was? myself obviously.

14. cafeteria food sucked? more or less. cannot b compared to vj food at all.

15. most hilarious school rule? cannot tuck out shirt more den three fingers. right. like who ever cared. oh n cannot fold socks. if not all of us will become rebels in the future n smoke or do drugs. yep kiw's reasoning.

16. wore uniforms? yea. white blue. been in this two colours since p.sch!

17. how was the prom? uninteresting. the place was juz opposite the sch. the food sucked. the entertainment was boring.

18. who was prom king and queen? king is brendan. queen. er. who ah. oh ya zhuanzhen. i think

19. any achievements? syf 2001 2003 gold. dhsco com 0203. results were ok but not good? oh yea cap ball interclass overall 3rd! we thrashed the 4th placing class 60-31!

20. were you popular? dun think so. how to define tt anyway.

21. best song that reminds you of high school? no idea.

22. unforgettable high school crush? still unforgettable.

23. most embarrassing moment? got caught by kiw. oh ya tt reminds me. infront of someone somemore. oh damn. i juz remembered la!

24. memory you'd like to forget about high
school? see above. n some stuff.

25. best memory? dhsco com no doubt. secone n two results? haha

26. any regrets? definitely. y did i get myself into a fix in my lower sec yrs?

27. would you like your "future child" to
attend your high school? of cuz. cuz it wld mean he/she is can make it one. haha.

28. were the bathrooms clean? no way. vj toilets rock man.

29. how were the lunch boys? er. wat are lunch boys

30. song that would best describe your high
school life:
time of your life

yesterday's co practice. definitely the best in so many months. i'm actualli starting to feel proud of my cca. n trying to get ppl to watch the concert nxt sat! previous times i admit i was quite embarrassed to ask anyone to the concert. now i'm actualli saying we are good! wat a big change. guo ls deserves the credit. onli when he conducts do you get the motivation to play better. no such effect frm the other conductor. yesterday sitting among the other members, surrounded by the music, suddenly had a sense of pride. something which i had not felt for a veri veri long time. it was something veri familiar. something which was part of being in dhsco! (yea yea. yet again). all the sections are definitely improving. percussion's gd. xyz n tby n dyb gd as usual. the dizis finally got a grip on their techniques! wohoo. there's hope for us yet.
last yr syf. yue fei. tt song was apparently so difficult tt the judges got a shock when they saw the scores. yet we were able to perform it so fantastically. we were the last team tt day. n we brought the whole competition to a climax. u have to b there to believe it. the music was reverberating throughout the whole hall. all of us were playing our hearts out. n towards the end, where the suonas play their melody bringing the song to the climax, it cld bring tears to ur eyes. suddenly all the hrs n hrs of endless practices were all worth it. all the scoldings. all the mental exhaustion. especially more so for the sec4s. our last syf. 30th anniversary. n yet another gold.
yesterday there was a veri faint glimpse of the old pride n joy. wld it last?

read brandon's blog. felt like an ignorant stupid brat. i shld b grateful for the things i have. instead of whining. so juz for today. here are the 20 things i'm grateful for in my life: (not in any order)
I AM GRATEFUL:
1. for my family
2. for relatives (especially the rich ones.. heh heh heh)
3. for being in VJC. could have ended up in many worse places.
4. for 04S22. imagine getting stuck in a class where everybody hates everybody else.. at least here we have a common enemy haha. shit. meaness.
5. for a post in VJCO. i do like being in it. i feel at home. unlike elsewhere.
6. tt i was frm DHSCO. the best in singapore. no competition. i'm oso grateful tt i was part of the committee.
7. tt i'm living in singapore where there r no inhumane acts like beheading ppl juz for revenge nor are there degrading acts such as public humilation. i'm grateful tt i'm part of the bo-chup singaporean culture.
8. for mingjie jingying n cindy my daily go-to-sch partners
9. for my perfect pitch. the good things tt comes frm it!
10. tt i can play two instruments.
11. tt i can get away without practicing my instruments for ages n my teachers still think i have improved.
12. for 1J 2J '00 n '01
13. for friends like sh jh n cin who are willing to wait for u until 7 in sch for co to end. haha thanx a lot man.
14. for friends like jam n man. char(lee)'s angels! ahem. white shark. A! P! cold mountain!! may issue of eye candies!!
15. for friends like wil hf n jia.
16. for ever-supportive co mates. jiayin. ber. my good jrs! wt sh sh ym n wy!
17. for the magazine CLEO (ok bimbotic!)
18. for linkin park. where wld i b without them! (22nd JUne linkin park gig at the PADANG!)
19. for 98.7 my study partner.
20. for anything else which i'm sure i'm grateful for but i juz cannot remember now.

i hate irresponsible ppl. they waste my time n piss me off. this is the final time i'm going to tolerate such things. fine. dun show up right? veri difficult to inform me 1st tt u not coming izzit? or basically u juz dun give a s***. well i dun give a s*** abt u either. u can juz go rot nxt saturday.
some ppl juz do not deserve wat they get. their position is all based on their popularity. or how u define tt when all those who support u r ur friends. in fact some of it makes me wanna laugh. she n she deserving of those positions? right. n i shld b the president of the students council. even if i'm not in sc. hoho. we shall juz c the standard of our successors go down the drain. woosh.
a handful of anger held in my chest. yep tt's me. a lot of anger in me. a lot of hate. a whole lot of sadness. of someone who has seen the ugliest side of ppl. i'm not one of those oh-i-love-the-world-n everybody! kind of person. yea yea i know. lighten up. dun think so much. i'm trying. i'm trying veri hard. but when everything else goes against you. u juz wan to run away frm all this crap n hide. i'm not philosophical. i dun claim to be. i'm not trying to be anyway. sometimes i wan to break down n cry. let everything out of the system. came close to tt yesterday. but didnt manage. i'm happy arnd ppl who are happy. worry-free. they make me forget myself when i spend time with them. temporarily. i wld die if i had a fren like myself. haha. but den there comes the problem with happy ppl. they dun understand you. they expect you to see things their way. n once again i come to the point where i realli miss my frens in dhs. once again. jia hf n wil. somehow the three of them balance me. jia is exactly totally like me. cynical. cryptic. pessi. we analyse things the same. hf is the one who listens den gives opinions. doesnt try to change you. juz listens. always a great relief to complain things to him. wil. wat can i say. the best guy pal i could ever want. bad mood? juz call him. within the hour u will totally forget all ur troubles. he has the ability to make u laugh at ur own troubles n problems. talking abt nothing for hours on end. tt's wat we used to do. juz crap. if i had stuck to my decision to go TJ wat wld i b like. less stressed tt's for sure. happier? i wldnt know. i guess not. but at least i wld have one of my friends with me.
long bus journeys give me time to myself. to think. i like going home myself. i used to b scared of going home myself. the imaginary audience once again. guess i've outgrown tt. 15. my trusty bus home. brings me not onli home. but oso to places where i like to pass by. i dun even mind tt sometimes it takes up to 25 mins to wait for one and another 1/2 hr to reach the busstop where i take yet another bus. the mental quiet n peace is worth it.
It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all these pain here all alone

Something has been taken from deep inside of me
The secret I’ve been locked away where one could never see
wound so deep they never show,
They never go away
Like moving pictures in my head
For years n years they've played

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all the to the grave

It's easier to run replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

Some times i remember the darkness of my past
Bringing back these memories I wish I didn’t have
Sometimes I think I think of letting go and never looking back
N never looking forward so there'll nv be a past

If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
If I could take all the shame to the grave I would
If I could change I would
Take back the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all the shame to the grave

Just washing it aside
All of the helplessness inside
Pretending I don’t feel misplaced
It’s so much simpler than change

It's easier to run replacing this pain with something numb
It’s so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone

It's easier to run

If I could change I would
Take all the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made

It's easier to run

If I could change I would
Take all the pain I would
Retrace every wrong move that I made I would
If I could stand up and take the blame I would
I would take all the shame to the grave

Everything's so blurry
And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty
And everything is
So messed up
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world
Surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that
I'll protect you
From all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face

Everyone is changing
There's no-one left
That's real
To make up
Your own ending
And let me know
Just how you feel
'Cause I am lost
Without you
I cannot live at all
My whole world
Surrounds you
I stumble then I crawl

You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know that
I will save you
From all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me

Oh
Nobody told me
What you thought
Nobody told me
What to say
Everyone showed you
Where to turn
Told you
Where to runaway
Nobody told you
Where to hide
Nobody told you
What to say
Everyone showed you
Where to turn
Showed you
Where to runaway

Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me

This pain you gave to me

You take it all
Take it all away
This pain you gave to me
You take it all away
This pain you gave to me
Take it all away
This pain you gave
This pain you gave

i'm such a failure. my best start in 2.4 in all my years n guess wat. cramps. severe cramps kicked in. i'm so lucky. i juz love myself. i refuse to let such things happen again. in sec 3 the same thing happened. in sec 4 can you believe it. thanx to my heavy shoes which i dun usually wear.. i couldnt run properly! i had had enough. after napfa i'm going on a gruelling training until nxt yr. forced sh to make me pay money to him if i dun go running at least twice a wk. i gotta cut off at least 3 mins frm my timing! ya tt's how lousy i am.
nxt wk 5 items coming up. a chance to redeem myself? i hope. my situps sucks. SBJ shld b fine if no false-start. shutter run. gotta train bending n turning. inclined shld pass. sit n reach.. lemme continue my straight As. ya my onli good item. how good is tt.
feel so lousy. like a failure after today. so i didnt fail (how can i fail with tt passing time???) but it totally sucked. so juz continue to feel lousy the whole day. until now. 46 more days to mid-yrs. there are like 10 freaking chapters for bio. none of which i understand except enzymes n water. one of which i totally nv listened to the lecture (ya mrs k's the best). my econs juz suck. market structure? *HuH??**cue blur look* chem. right. i'm so gonna pass the chem test which like.. 90% of the population passed. maths. a 5 chapter test n i got a D. sometimes i wonder. have i actualli been smart all these yrs to get into good schs or has it been sheer luck all along? or am i juz in the wrong stream? maybe i shld have taken arts. my o level results confirms tt right. all my arts subject got a1. none of my scis or maths got a1. wat am i doing in S2?!
procrasination gets u nowhere. tt's a veri impt lesson some ppl shld learn. even if u dread it or hate it. u r juz making things a whole lot worse by procrasinating. get it over n done with n sometimes the results may even surprise you. at least there are other ppl doing it with you! ya ppl shld noe who i'm referring to..
impt lesson learnt. no more procrasination. off to study econs.

subconciously waiting for you to come back
conciously knowing you will never do so
long day. tired. not bad prac though. sad on the other hand. flooded with memories. missed him twice by a few seconds! nauseated. scared. nervous. dread. wat will tomorrow b like?
summary of my day.

la-di-la. so some ppl are LOOKING 24/7. know tt british/american show big brother? Ooh big brother is LOOKING at you! better watch out!
got half a mind to change my blog add. but den i thought. hey y bother? waste my time doing such things? no need. time is money. i can spend my time doing more productive stuff.. like.. watching the clock tick. or doing tutorials.. which reminds me of potato again. oh yea. she was doing maths tut 5.3 today during break. when mr ho juz finished the topic today. yep n juz gave us the tut. i can realli bai4 ta1 wei2 shen3 man.
a shitty day in conclusion. a day of losers may i add? except during the times when we were as usual laughing abt the losers. so totally mean. but so totally reminds me of the good ol' days in MEP. yet again. i miss wil n hf n jia!!!! i wanna be mean n mean with them again! miss all the hrs talking to wil n jia on the phone. can juz crap n crap n crap for a few hrs straight. miss gossiping with hf!!
thought of another thing. was going to blow up at some person today for repeating the same thing he said over n over again. made me so god-damn-bloody pissed off. regretted not doing so. but den again. waste of energy and time. so not the person i thot he was. fine. juz wait n see. think u so great right. yet another one who thinks he's all-that.
oh yes. Linkin park gig in june!!!! who wanna go watch???
lemme summarise how i feel abt certain things:
too many times tt i've held on when i needed to push away
afraid to say wat was on my mind
afraid to say wat i needed to say
too many things tt u've said abt me when i'm not arnd
u think having the upper hand means u gotta keep putting me down
but i've too many stand-offs with you
it's abt as much as i can stand
so i'm waiting til the upper hand is mine
there are so many things you said
tt make me feel u've crossed the line
wat goes up will surely fall and i'm counting down the times
cuz i had too many stand-offs with you
it's abt as much as i can stand
so i'm waiting til the upper hand is mine
one minute you're up nxt u're not watch it drop
making ur heart stop juz before you hit the floor
one minute you're on top the nxt u're not missed ur shot
making ur heart stop you think you've won
and then it's ALL GONE

absolutely disgusting. so this is the way P.E chooses ppl for their committee? choosing the ppl they like? to hell with them.
have thought P.E was a sucky cca. today found two more ppl who thought the same way too. one of them ran for the post of chair the other music director. ok i shall say frankly. the post of music director cant b more suited for tt guy. he's in SYO and is bloody good. and i'm not juz saying cuz i'm nv easily impressed by ppl musically. (to those who know me well.. ya i never thought SHE was any better than me..but tt's another story) and so wat happens? they were called up today by the exco n apparently none of them got a single post. right. so a SYO musician is less qualified than a MEP student? juz becuz the MEP student has freaking connections to somebody in the exco?
i'm so angry i cannot believe it. all these elections interviews? bullshit. TOTAL bullshit. the seniors chose who they like. wat the hell. so tell me. who's going to b the nxt chair? so tt MEP woman is gonna be the M.D huh? oh how nice she's going to take after her sister. n tt biz club woman? co woman? all of them sucks man. they SUCK! tell me they are qualified to b in the Exco! i thought exco ppl are supposed to have good ppl relations???? so how come all of them give me chao bin everytime i see them?? this is total shit man. i'm going to quit after this yr. no more reason for me to stay. i dun bloody well care abt pearls pts. wat is the world coming to man!!
well. there may be some form of retaliation. tt's a comforting thought. all the best to us.

better type all the things i have in mind before i forget.. which usually happens by the time i reach home.
VJ soccer thrashed RJ! oh yea.. expected as usual. but it does feel good to thrash those ya-ya Rafflesians. not all of them r like tt though..juz the feeling some of them give me. damn irritating. too bad i didnt get to watch the match. would have been damn great to see them getting thrashed!
interesting GP lesson today. although i was nodding off at some points. mr chew mentioned sth about adolescences having an "imaginary audience" in their minds. hence resulting in them being veri self-concious abt their appearance. can sorta relate to tt. i guess i have a veri active imagination. i definitely always have this audience in my mind. i am forever thinking tt ppl r looking at every action i do n criticizing. ya. over paranoid. perhaps it's abt time i get rid of this bad habit. not doing much for my self-esteem.
potato head is getting on my nerves more n more. today during lunch break.. realised tt rai is oso v irritated with her! haha. liren j.poh rai jy jam n me were discussing abt her on the way to parkway. had a gd laugh man. feels damn mean. but hey. even rai doesnt like her! tt shows how bad the situation is man. chris wong was not happy tt we didnt do our tuts so he was like telling us when he was in the U. he finished his tuts 2wks in advance. disgusting. brandon was like "but some ppl mug all the time still no results." how true. P.H mugs 24/7 yet her results r nowhere near jh's who like.. mugs every other time there's a test? i dun usually attack other ppl on their appearances. fellow female. wont criticize outright. but P.H has no character in addition to.. u noe wat! tt makes everything more unbearable. i'm sorry for being mean. but she juz refuses to come out of her bloody shell! it's time to WAKE UP N SMELL THE COFFEE! how on earth is she going to survive when she comes out into the working society?? not like she cares anyway. but no matter wat. still classmates. we shld realli do sth abt this man.
in comp lab now. bio makeup. stupid. mrs k doesnt noe i'm using the comp. sh says she's damn blur la. like duh. she's like so naive! not tt it's bad for me now. no one (except the terrific two) is listening. the guys r dozing. i'm typing. stupid man!
be back tonight

sense of achievement: went with cin n jh to MP lib arnd 6 today. managed to complete 3/4 of 5.2 maths tutorial! this feeling doesnt come arnd veri often.. feels gd man.
not too bad a day today. woke up seeing the sky dark with clouds(as in in addition to it being early in the morning). tt put me in a gREAT mood. thinking abt how nice it wld b not to run 2.4 haha. was raining on the way to sch but it stopped after awhile. but juz after we wanted to go for pe it started POURING. fabulous! the weather was so wonderful tt i didnt even mind the indoor circuit training. sorta killer.. but who cares! was feeling refreshed after the whole training anyway. was pretty much in a gd mood for the rest of the day.
oh yea. had a damn amusing econs tutorial. SOME ppl ah.. aspiring musicians huh. filling in new lyrics to 5566's wo nan guo huh. haha. nxt time go KBox muz sing our version man.
ya so in conclusion. not a bad day at all. n this doesnt come veri often!

feel so useless nowadays. exhausted at the end of everyday. uncompleted tutorials. failed attempts to study. it's especially scary when the normally-slack ppl start to turn up at the library during breaks to study. tt sucks man. it reminds you tt u better start work too unless u want to die. i noe i have ccas. some ppl dun. but so wat if i get more PEARLS pts den them? nobody cares abt cca pts. gone are the days when ppl actualli take their ccas seriously. now? some ppl dun even have one! or they have one which is equivilent to not having any. ya so they have all the time in the world to do their work. aint tt great? ya but i'm not the kind to go home everyday straight after sch to do work. so i guess having a cca will do me good.
it's especially sucky when u dun do well for ur test. econs. didnt do well. didnt do badly either. it's juz unfair when some ppl get good grades (n tell the whole world abt it) when they dun put in effort. ok like i did. but still! (anyway jh i not referring to you ah! haha u stupid 18/25 guy! :P) watever.
anyway wat's the deal abt S papers? i have absolutely no hope of taking a single one. bio? siao. chem? still wondering how to pass. econs? originally wanted but looks like i dun have flair. maths? erm sure. but seriously is there any pt in taking? i dun wan a scholarship. i dun think i wan to go overseas to study. this makes me worried. everyone else seemed to have their future all planned out. going to other countries to study. wanting to take scholarships. i havent thought abt all this at all! juz want to take a step at a time. Uni seems so far away. even though it's juz a matter of 2 yrs. wat am i going to do then? i'm not even sure wat i want to be. i juz noe i dun want a 9 to 5 job. i still seem like a kid.
enough of all this heavy stuff. tmr's soccer match will b against RJC. according to julyn it will be a VJ. ooh good. cant wait to watch it. hope RJC gets thrashed. but tt wld mean i have to pon P.E. all the better man. i'm starting to realli hate tt cca. stupid waste of my time. there r onli two reasons y i'm still in it n one of it is for the PEARLS pts. apparently compulsory tmr. but who the hell cares. n tt duh jy. still dun wan to contact me to prac the duet with him. ok fine. i noe he veri zai. we shall see wat happens tmr in front of mr ku den.

off day today due to viesta soleil. should have been a good day to study at home (yea right) but in the end went out with cindy jh n sh. insisted on watching dawn of the dead so went cathay to catch it. come to think of it now.. it was pretty much a waste of $6.50. it was damn violent n the sound effects were totally scary. but oso damn funny because me n cindy were hiding behind our jackets stuffing our ears n cindy was screaming everytime a zombie jumped out. haha think we scared the ppl in front of us. well this is the last time i'm going to watch any zombie show. not even when 8 days gave it 4 out of 5 stars!
a veri unsuccessful wkend as usual. did onli 2 bio tutorials HALFWAY. i'm so dead. but so wat's new? nth ever goes the way i want it to. at least my legs have stopped aching.
oh yea viesta soleil. our class stall totally rocked man. we ran out of supplies like four times n the first time we ran out of supplies was before 12! haah guess the hot weather was a contributing factor too. ppl kept queueing up for more n more drinks. in the end we had to close down the stall twice n finally declared 'bankrupt' at 3 plus. but in the end they still sold lime juice n even ice water. haha guess ppl were getting desperate.
was taking wil hf n ber arnd the sch. kinda sian cuz the weather totally sucked n all the food n drinks were almost sold out. showed ber my fav eye candy! haha she agreed tt he's totally cute. maybe i shldnt have done so cuz think he noticed. after the whole thing ended we saw him at BK while we were leaving. when he saw us he sorta like tried to hide his head behind the person in front of him (makes sense?) wat an idiot. EGOISTICAL IDIOT! watever.
missed out on quite many things though. haunted house. dunking. damn! heard the haunted house was damn scary n fun. even my sister went! how could i have missed it! n the dunking.. onli managed to catch the 1st few.. some teachers n JAPAN. missed the TYH mrs chan n ELF. DaMn DAmN dAmn!
viesta soleil: one of the few rare times the class got to work together. some ppl were missing though. HuH. wonder which corner did they went to hide in? had quite a gd time chionging those drinks.. scooping ice scooping agar diluting drinks pouring drinks.. although the area arnd us was damn dirty n disgustin.. but we all pretty much had a gd time. as usual the day ended with mass dances n cheers. saw some ex-VJ ppl cheering their hearts out. pretty heartening i muz say. i could still sense their attachment to VJ. oh well. can understand. their new JC totally sian man. (haha shall not say which one)
tmr's sch again. sucks man. i hate it.

woohoo. viesta soleil over. cant attempt to type much now. 1.29am n i cant believe i'm still up n awake! my legs feel like they have fallen off. my mind has alreadi began to go into sleep mode. shall type more tmolo. but it was quite a fun n gd day today. interesting.
yep b back in another 8 to 9 hrs.