i absolutely detest
KAOBEI people.
pardon the hokkien please. i have no other better vocabulary to describe these people.
so KAOBEI these people are, that i want to do nothing but slap them right left and centre.
to make matters worse, these people, in addition to being KAOBEI, often think other people are being unreasonable (hence being stupid) and are often ungentlemanly.
and if it's one thing that i cannot tolerate.
it's the latter.
oh yes. KAOBEI people are also idiots who like to use other people whom they usually do not give a s*** about, especially when they do not have the people they want to hang around with at that moment. so to avoid the feeling of loneliness, they pretend to be chummy with others (often nice people who just accomodate) but ditch them the second their friends come around.
so KAOBEI.
all these people deserve to trip and knock their heads really hard!! (notice that i am already trying to be nice)
oh yes. and they should also NOT get what they want.
-smirks-


sorriee. i shall stop this bitchin. NOW.
on to the next topic!

yes. since i am living a very CO life nowadays, i'm entitled to talk about CO as much as i want to. Ha Ha Ha!


if you think you would understand what i'm going to talk about next, then continue!
and by the end of it, you do, then let's smirk together.




once upon a time, there was a planet made up of many many countries. d'oh.
country D was the biggest and mightiest of them all! smart, talented people they were, they were often the envy of the other smaller countries.
country D not only had the talents, they also had bountiful resources which made the people smarter and better!
not surprisingly, D was the envy of the other countries, especially country N and R who were the closest in manpower and resources to D. but they still lost out cos' people of D were just too smart for them.
every two years, all the countries would send their strongest armies to compete in a match that tested their talents and wits. (don't ask me. it's not the point). those worthy enough would then advance to the finals for the crowning of the champion. naturally, country D had managed to reign year after year, leaving the others to literally eat their dust.
after many many many years...
the council in charge of the competition decided that it was not nice to have a finals cos it causes too much intense competition (characterised by backstabbing, mostly from those jealous of country D)
so they decided that whoever was worthy would be honoured! and that's all! so there would be many more opportunities for the other countries to feel the kick of being 'honoured'.
all the countries were pleased, thinking that this would finally be a chance for country D to be dethroned.
so all the countries began to prepare busily for the revamped competition, hoping to clinched the honours award, at the same time keeping an eye on the progress of each other.
at this point of time, many countries had started to improve rapidly, with the armies of country CH having the most noticeable improvement.
however, unbeknownst to many, a small puny country Z had somehow managed to gather enough resources to make up a force to be reckoned with.
although they were good, they weren't impressive. they were, in other words, okay.
but what was really impressive about country Z was that,
they had an army with the most inflated ego!
they believed that their numerous years of experience (ie. four) would allow them to dethrone the reigning champs country D! and they spread vicious rumours about this too.
the people of D were aware of this too. they were wary, yet still confident that they would pull through.
on the other hand, the people of country Z strongly believed that they would KILL the army of D! "THEY ARE DEAD MUAHAHAHAH!" they often mocked.

it was finally the day of the competition...
thousands of others from other countries turned up just to watch country D in action!
and to no surprise, they outperformed all expectations. country Z was not to be outdone oh no. they still firmly believed that whatever they have (not much) would be enough to put country D to shame!
the leader of the army, being a uncultured uncivilised rouge he was, turned to one of the senior leaders of country D and taunted him! he then went on and on about how great they were blah blah blah. the senior leader of D merely eyed him wearily and turned a deaf ear.
and of course you know what happened. to cut a long story short, country Z was thoroughly mauled by D, and left with their tails hanging between their legs.
country D was then the champ again. d'oh.
moral of the story: you should never attempt to do something beyond your capabilities cos you would only be embarrassed in the end.
so country Z learned the lesson the hard way. tsk tsk tsk. well they only have their leaders to blame.


okay anyway since i'm feeling boliao i shall continue with the story.

country D had an alliance: country V. now, country V, along with country R, H, T and the like took part in a different competition. along the same lines, but still different.
country V was a good friend of D, and had also always maintained an amiable relationship with country R and H.
what about T you ask?
see, the competition in which V R H and T and others (we shall just forget about the rest. not important)took part in, there wasnt always a reigning champ. H was the strongest contender though.
however, country T, like Z, had the misconception that they were GOOD! they were the strongest!
what they were good at, of course, was spreading rumours about the other schools to boost their morale. and looking down on the others, especially poor country V.
but country V was not one to be bullied. they have quietly gathered a strong force to be reckoned with! (and this time, really)
but what will happen at the competition is up to anyone's imagination.
but country V R and H are thinking of an alliance to shut T up once and for all cos they were so bloody annoying.
ha ha ha.



i am so boliao la.

i'm like so tired i'm just going to go to bed after this.

been having co stuff every single day since tuesday, whether it is vj or dhs.
goshh.
I AM SO TIRED.
but i love it la.


yes. dhsco got gold with honours. top three too. you expected otherwise?
-smirk smirk smirk-
oh dear. don't get me wrong you know. i'm not gloating at other schools.
i'm merely gloating at those who actually doubted my words and attempted to correct me!
gasp. the cheek!

well so in the future whenever somebody wants to contradict in areas like this, i will just go:

BAH!
(which signifies that the other person is merely a stupid irritant who doesn't deserve the time of the day)

irritant: "blah blah blah. don't go vjco. it sucks!!"
me: BAH!

irritant: "blah blah blah. don't be so haolian la. you so sure dhsco will get gold with honours meh？一山还有一山高。"
me: BAH!! (and guess what?! HA HA HA!)



well sorry. didn't mean to get so worked up over such things. but hey. you insult them. you really 有眼不识泰山。


that aside. my jrs were, in a word:
UNBEATABLE.
just ask anybody else who were present that day. they could not tell you otherwise.
i was actually fuming that we couldnt get in to watch them perform. cos honestly speaking, if i got inside there, i would have just been moved to tears.
utterly fantastic.

sorry. it's not something i expect people to understand. much less certain people in certain places.



speaking of which. can you believe it. the wonderful MOE has done it again. made chinese all the more simpler for students??
WHAT THE HELL!
eh seriously MOE. i have a suggestion. these people don't even like chinese. they loathe chinese! they think chinese is useless and a waste of time. why waste resources and time trying to accomodate them when they don't even give a shit!
i tell you. no use lowering the standards. after they get past the exams they will just throw everything they have learnt away. you think by making life simple for them they will learn to like it?
i can prove you oh-so-wrong with real life examples.
i feel nothing but contempt for people like THESE. (note: i only feel contempt for those who not only suck at the language, but repeatedly make caustic insults just cos they suck at it. ha ha)

(ha ha ha. you wanna scold me cheena perhaps? then tell me that my english sucks? look at yourself first can. 双语都不能把握好！)
in short i will just like to say

我鄙视你！！

and if you don't know how to read that word, you're might just be one of those people i'm talking about.




i have rehearsal tmr at s.c.h hence making it the 7th day in a row since last sunday where i have not gotten enough sleep at all.
can you believe that it actually costs 7.50 per minute to book that place?
i almost thought it was a joke.



siao. i was actually in a good mood. then i remember all these stupid people then i get irritated.

never mind. there will be co everyday next week. and i tell you.
That. Place. Is. My. Haven.
i go to school everyday looking forward to lessons ending.





alright. i wouldnt want this entry to end on a bitchy note. after all. it is about dhsco.
so, once again.
i love dhsco.

perhaps you're still wondering in disbelief why on earth soccer drew 1-1 with cjc today?
well in case you haven't realised (and to all those blardy annoying cjcians who hung around our school acting like they'd won us and acting all smug and smarmy)
today the second team was playing.
because they're already through to the next round.
no point risking injuries to the first team yeah?
and yes, they're the 2nd team. yet they managed to hold cj down. yeah. their so-called first team. no match for our 2nd team?
let's just say that. there would be a mauling should our first team play.
there's really no point to kick people again when they are already down and out.



anyway, i would just like to say that i usually do not advocate slamming other schools, especially not over silly things like these.
but really. you had to be there to know exactly how we felt.
the uncouthness. the rudeness. the blardy cockiness (over what i still don't get it)
not convinced?
okay.
example 1: when their player scored, he ran towards and past our players bench and bloody pointed at all of them! ie. you see that vjc?? gosh. he even had the nerve to point at mr tan.

example 2: all their players on the bench were standing right at the edge of the field, taunting our players on the field. and of course their coach didn't see the need to stop them, naturally. referee had to warn the coach and players.


i wanted to kill some people, but after that i felt amused more than anything else.

okayy. we shall just leave it at that shant we?

wasted enough space talking about such things.

repeat: i have nothing against people of other schools. i hate it when people slam others especially during sports seasons. but sorry. facts are facts. and i'm just reporting 'em.



joey. is. on!!

it's times like these that make me really happy and at ease.
laughing, joking, scaring the hell out of each other..
it didn't matter that we were still in school at 9 at night. it didn't matter that we were all tired and hungry, neither did it matter that we were all nearly at our wits end trying to think of ways to improve.
it is that feeling of togetherness that makes it all worthwhile.

ahhh. let me smile :D


i'm going to go early for practice evryday now.



since i'm now in a particularly serene mood, i shall just have to take back what i said about the (lousy) chairperson of the (self-claimed) best orchestra. i can't exactly blame him/her for acting the way he/she is (like a spoilt brat with such a vicious tongue!) cos hey, (direct translation) when the upper pillar is crooked, you can't exactly blame the lower part for being crooked too!

ew. what a sentence. but you get the gist.

we at vjco, will not resort to immoral means just to boost the morale of our members. no indeed. you should learn how to conduct yourself before you can even think of claiming to be the best. what an embarrassement.

oh yes enough. kay it's not his/her fault. (that's he's/she's stupid and impressionable like a two year old kid)




while staying back til so late racking our brains may seem like a huge sacrifice
hey, all these sacrifices i don't mind at all.
in fact, i love 'em. (haha. i am weird)
because in a way, it was all very.. dhsco again.
and as you know, nothing seems like a sacrifice for dhsco. every late night. every long practice.

happy.
all we can do now is hope that they wouldnt let us down.





i never realised i would crave for that goldwithhonours so much.
imagine the endless possibilities with it..
but best of all.
imagine the faces of some people..
shit.
i want it.
i want it.
i want it.
I WANT TO PROVE EVERYBODY WRONG!!
please.

well well well. what do you know. our school's soccer team has once again proven itself to be a formidable opponent. no kidding at all. any other teams who manages not to get drawn into the same group as them should be thanking all their lucky stars and gods.
4-0 against MI!
well 3-0 if you don't want to count the own goal. impressive still, given that the opponent team comprises of many national players.
but we must have more lahh. :)


okay so i basically wasted the entire afternoon watching two matches when i should be at home catching up on tutorials. but hey. it is my last soccer season!
the rjc-cjc match was actually a little more interesting than the vj-MI one. cos of the amazing turnaround of the rj players. they were level at 2-2 with about 20 mins to go, and they managed to hit two more home to make it 4-2.
very impressive, so i became a rj supporter by the end of the match. :)
of cos it sure helps that some of the guys didn't look bad at all, as observed by me terri n peiying. hahaha.
but at the end of the day u gotta feel really bad for the cj guys. they have almost zilch chance of making to the next round, given that they lost their most-probable-to-win match today and you could just see their frustration and disappointment.
oh wells.
our own match wasnt half as exciting as the one last wk.
3 goals were all scored in the first 15 mins. the last one coming in late into the 2nd half. so it was pretty much yawns-ville for us. oh except whenever every-girl's-fav-guy got the ball. ha ha!
really funny, the way you could hear yelps of indignation from girls behind whenever he got tackled or was knocked down by an opponent.



kay. so anyway it was a nice day for matches.



dhsco is up for competition this friday.
hey guess what. another formidable opponent. -grins-
i must be there to witness them getting awarded the gold with honours. there is just no doubt.
cos seriously, have you heard the songs they can play?? (oh sorry of course you haven't. who appreciates it anyway?)
in comparison, there's no surprise why we can just get 1st all over and over again.
and we are well known for that, unlike that of some people who just claim to be the best.
let me roll my eyes once again.
sometimes i wish karma would come around and bite these idiots' asses.


and sometimes i also wish that gls would shut up about what he had been criticizing about the xyz people. he's so obviously biased against them of who they were, and i just want to tell him that since he was the one of reprimanded us for not being able to let go of our dhsco-glorydays, he can jolly well shut up about them not performing up to standards like they used to do back then.
confusing?
it's not impt anyway.



kay. i have to go do my work now. mrs koh's back and she actually checks tutorials.
oh dear.

tired. bored.

tireeeeeeeeed.

i hate school worrrkk.

idontwanttogotoschool.idontwanttodomytutorials.


well well well. it has gotten so boring and sickening that cca is actually a relief.


we went to sch (that's singapore conference hall for you) on sat to check out the competition grounds.
so there was this secondary school using their concert hall for practice. competition's next week for them.
sat in although strictly speaking that's against the rules. 'cos it seems like spying geddit. yeah. like seriously. people do resort to underhand methods. like spreading vicious rumours about other jc's orchestras. we shalt not mention names shalt we? eh? algae green?? what a disgrace you are!
anyway we were there right at the back of the hall watching the kids playing their songs, sniggering at the conductor's fine use of the english language. oh yes. and coming up with excuses if we were discovered. like pretending to be their seniors.
to which i snidely replied, 'yeah. i retook my Os so many times finally made it to this school'
haha. sorry. i wasn't in the best of moods that day.


all was fine until their conductor realised that there were unwelcomed visitors observing them. (no thanks to those stupid ahlians who probably thought we were from some rival sec school)
he turned around and all of us nearly got scared to death.
then he bellowed: (no choice lah. the hall kinda big)
"are you all seniors of m******** sec?"
silence.
"erm no?"
pause.
"then can i ask you all to don't stay here?" (i can't remember what he said exactly. but it was something so grammatically incorrect that we started giggling despite the potential trouble we were about to be in)
"erm okay."
we started to move, and that's when he probably realised that we looked too mature to be sec school kids and besides, we were wearing our school U. (stupid lians!)
"which school are you from?"
d'oh. the yellow and white pe shirt still not obvious ah?
so we told him.
pause.
"oh. then i think it's okay la." his students all laugh.
-__-
seriously. maybe i should have just told him dhs then perhaps he would have apologized profusely and begged us to stay and offer them our valuable advice.


i later realised he probably said it was okay because he realised that his asst music director is our conductor.
-____-


ridiculous you know, this kind of mentality people have. when it's a music competition for goodness' sake!
it's supposed to be refined and civilised. not with all these rivalry backstabbing bitching shit.
let me tell you something the chairperson of a self-claimed best orchestra told his jrs.
"don't go to vjco! it sucks!!"
childish.
utterly childish.




hence ends this entry.

cos i'm in a undescribably foul mood. feeling like the biggest idiot on the surface of this planet with the words i've said before coming back to make me bite my tongue.




and when i'm in a bad mood or frustrated i'll invariably twirl my hair obsessively until it resembles a bird's nest.
hoho! so funny. not
yes. i need a haircut. i need a haircut every 6 weeks to keep me looking sane.



oh yar. happy birthday to rui+kes.
it has been 2 years since we last hid in that little storeroom to celebrate their birthdays with that cake. goshh.
the time!

my ipod's on replay mode. the same song over and over again.

shoot. think i'm going crazy already.


hey lemme show you this direct translation of a song.
I'm waiting,
I'm constantly waiting
to be the one you can rely all your love on
I don't have any doubts, this is love
I guess you have always wanted to make things clear to me
I feel like I'm such a failure.
I fell from the heavens
I feel so helpless
I'm willing to change
To be able to start everything all over again
I can't just be your friend.
My love for you is so deep, how can I let go?
But you said that you only wanted to be my friend.
Just a friend
I'm just a friend to you, not a lover
I'm grateful that you're being so honest to me
but I can't take back my love for you
So I can't just be your friend.


haha!! so funny!!
pw results are finally coming out.
shucks. i know we don't deserve much for the amount of effort we put in compared to the other groups..
but i still want a band 1.
bah.
ciao. i'm beat.

hm. actually i'm beaten also.
haha. never mind.

ah yes. we watched some softball today. it's great to be able to finally understand the game after the weekly PE sessions.
so there i was, along with many other people, staring at (almost) horror at the way some of the guys were playing. criticisms were flying. then i realised.
i can't play like them, so why should i criticise them?
and yeah. they probably had put it hell lot of effort to get them to where there are today, and they don't even get respect for that. the school doesnt support them, the student body doesn't support them, can we still blame them for not doing well?



it's almost disgusting you know. the bleachers were barely half-filled. people were just plain not interested. the teachers sure as hell didn't care. the school only bothers to send people down for support when the team's producing results ie grand finals.
like the way seet was calling for people to go support the x-country during the softball game. it's like 'hey who cares about softball! go support something more worthwhile!"
ouch.
so in conclusion, they should be given their due respect and i shall retract what i said about the soccer match tmr being a consolation. obviously i meant after the thrashing by rj softball. i take that back. 5-0 sure aint a thrashing. 13-4 is.
hoho. well done.


so anyway. no more criticisms. everybody did well. yay.




eyeerr. sian. J of jia has a girlfriend. -diao-. strike off eyecandy list la.
-yawn- left with IA. so boorrring. IA AI IAAI IAAAAAIIIII. think i can strike one of them off also because people think too much. hawhaw.




well anyway who cares haha. 'cos i have a story of a girl to tell you about.
two stories actually.
the first little girl was a stupid girl who still holds a torch for this guy even though he doesn't know she exists. and naturally like any other typical boring story goes, he's smart, talented, goodlooking, rich and worst of has a girlfriend. so after the poor girl waited for like 4 years, he still doesn't know about her existence. what happens next? i think she's still waiting in vain.
-shakes head-
the second little girl is yet another stupid one who tried hard to be the perfect girl to her perfect guy. and yeah typically, he doesn't give a shit about her efforts and eventually abandoned her for another girl. what does she do? nothing. but keeps on hanging to the hope that he would return. stupid.
-yawn-
anyway pt of stories. one of them is a true story while the other is a warped version. which is which? guess lorr.



sorry. am just really tired and bored. and irritated with the rate people are changing.



sometimes cca can put me in a good mood. with all my lovely jrs. life's never boring around them.



goshh. i'm tireeeeeed.

okay. i really like this excerpt. must type it down in case i ever want to write an essay on terrorism.

Terrorism has a singular goal- to create terror and fear. Fear undermines faith in the establishment. It weakens the enemy from within, causing unrest in the masses. Terrorism is NOT an expression of rage. Terrorism is a political weapon. Remove a government's facade of infallibility and you remove its people's faith.


phwoar.
taken from Angels and Demons. love that book.


hm. no inspiration. so i'll just go continue to read my book.
ciao.







eh. i'm getting the feeling that the person i'm talking to online now is now mj but his sister.
because the way the pseudo mj is typing is way weird!
haha! this is so funny!
mj can u please come back to the computer and not make your sister type your replies??

hello people. no point in reading this entry bcos it's full of rubbish and sulkings.
no need to waste your time. go do your tutorials or something more productive.




one reason why i'm destined for stupid econs remedial:
because when there's a recession, the more you try to save, you may very well end up with the same level of savings you have before the recession. (don't ask me. ask the Y=C+S equation) however, in the long run, savings would help the economy cos it would be channelled towards investments which would increase output PPC yada ydada.

see? when i can actually miss out a part like this??


kay la. not really.

the real reason why i'm destined for econs remedial is bcos i'm honest enough to keep my notes in my bag and not copy it wholesale. so there.
enough said.


-sulks-


some people aren't being very nice or honest/truthful. they're being very hypocritical. and i hate hypocritical people. scum of society. especially when they pretend to be your friend.
so rather than trying to be accomodating to these irritants for the sake of other friends, i would rather not give them the time of the day. instead, i'd send out clear negative vibes. and you know what they say about negative vibes sent out on purpose. you can't possibly miss 'em unless you're real dense.
so if you get them (yeah. as if you'd be reading this.) then you would know. it's all your own fault.
and in case you'd like to know, i've said it once and i'd said it again. i never treated you as my friend anyway. so i don't give a damn about what you feel. (but then again. as IF you know)



hmm. you know how sometimes after i bitch about these people, they turn all nice to me the next day. then i'd be forced to reconsider my opinion.
well i'd let you know if no. 1 irritant is going to be nice (ala fake) tomorrow.





so see? initially i was in a good mood after the econs test. until, i realised i'm going to fail it and some people who deserve to aren't and i met that irritant on my way to the toilet(but true to my word i didn't give any attention and walked straight on).
actually all was still fine! i was still cheery cos real madrid won barcelona 4-2! and cos liren says there's gonna be a soccer match this thurs! against RJ! which means it would be a thrashing! (which should be a consolation after... need i elaborate? :)) which means i HAVE to watch it!
no.
i can't. cos there's exco interview.
-__-
shouldnt couldnt wouldnt sulk about it.



i need the reassurance which you cannot give.



sulksulksulksulksulksulksulksulksulk.

not even desperate housewives can cheer me up now.



i'd like to help you but i can't. don't blame me.




i just want to curl up in my bed with a nice book. like angels and demons. then sulk abit more to myself.
oh yes. i'm also pissed off with the fact that i knocked my tailbone HARD last last week and it still hurts like hell whenever i try to do situps(last last week for god's sakes!). so i feel really bloated and fat. which of course just makes me sulk more.
and in case any of you don't know where's your tailbone, lemme just say you wouldnt want to injure that part. gosh.



i'm just adding on more and more meaningless stuff to these stupid entry.


i want to delete the whole of august's archives. what a very trying period of time.


sometimes i wonder what would have happened if i didn't come vj in the first place.
1. i would be in wil's class.
2. i would probably be very happy cos i have my dear sister there and i'd be getting great results, well at least for MEP.
3. i would probably be in the same cca cos where else can i go? hating every minute of it perhaps.
4. end up in the same study group cos of zhi and huimin. ooh. one full circle. how cool.

aiya. WHO CARES!

if i manage to pass the econs test tomorrow, then i'll have to declare myself a genius and all the rest of you who studied eons before should feel really ashamed that you didn't get full marks.

well looks like it's hello econs remedial. goddamnit.


oops. that is so not the attitude i should adopt.
it should be:

remedial? WHAT remedial?! surely YOU JEST! i'm going to pass that stupid test HAHA!!
-sulks-
on top of the fact that i didn't started early, i'm also having a blocked nose so i am resorting to breathing in through my mouth. and as you know breathing in through your mouth means all those impurities will go in clog up your airpaths, i now have a sore throat too.
nice.

stupid multiplier effect. (get it get it?? haw haw haw)


by the way non-econs people, the next time a recession happens and your parents tell you to scrimp and save, tell them that in fact is wrong cos according to mr keynes you should spend your way out of a recession. the more you try to save the more national income falls, the economy doesn't improve and it's all your fault.
yeah. so ask for more money to spend instead.


AE= C+I+G+X-M.
4 sector economy.
Y=C+S
i hate equations man.

highlight of musicfest 2005.
the very lovely eunice olsen smiled at me!!

and i guess that pretty much sums up musicfest 2005.

if you're one of those ahem, people for paid more than the actual cost of the ticket in a desperate bid to be part of this most anticipated event of the year..
i wonder how you must be feeling right now.

gosh. i'm off to study now. need to quell that excitement.



alright, to be fair, there were some good items. like rai's dance which was hot! haha. and so very adorable. dances were all great
vocals were not bad.
rock band was a disappointment. no match for steelgrass or the HILARIOUS hockey guys item.
but what was really a let-down was the very definite lack of spirit. you just don't feel that enthusiasm which we had last year. it's disheartening.
i just hope once the sports season starts everything would improve. i don't want to spend my last half a year here feeling bored all the time.

i don't even know why i bother feeling insulted.

huh!

shucks i hate tests. they make me lose track of my work and the tuts just continue piling up and up.

i feel soreness growing at the back of my throat. sooner or later it will morph to a fever. may it come this friday.

so irritated.

things are starting to look up because there's no more spa.
NEVER EVER AGAIN.
-gleeful grin-
what a bloody relief.
now now, what did i say i'll kick bio's ass?
i did. HAHA! and i'm proud of myself because (lemme gloat ya) i spent about 2 hours on cd.
what did i say? cockiness works right?? right??? right.
:)



i suppose i no longer loathe her, because what she has taken away from me was just an insignificant part of a past mistake.
i can finally look back at myself, and laugh at what i once did.

and gosh.
i was stupid.
complete in bold with capital S.
and best thing is, i actually took this long to realise it. a very grand total of 18 months.
but then again.
i will just predict myself going back on my words. however,
i won't be bothered anymore.
-smirks-


my god. takuya kimura is gorgeous.
but that's not the only thing about him..
look at this.

 

can you see that resemblence???!
-screams and falls off chair-
ahhhhh!!!
i nearly died when i saw this photo.
don't look at the face. look at the expression!
and when i thought that was alike, i saw the actual person on tv (that show on Chan U right now as a matter of fact :D) and gosh. the resemblence of the expression was even more startling!
HAHA!


okay. no like kimura? i've got simple plan then.

cool yes? fantastic concert. worth every single buck. worth the ringing ears and sore legs and throat.
hell. i wasn't a fan to begin with. now i'm nearly a converted one.
that was how good it was.
and yes. pierre's very cute too :D

alright. not exactly very cute here. but hey, some people just look better in real life.
but cool no doubt. very COOL.
and he sings damn well for someone who sings live.
that's singing rock for you. twice as tough.
yet he did it excellently.
woosh!

ah. i love simple plan now.



that's enough for today.
i must finish tuition hw today.
ciaoo.

oh yes. desperate housewives was terribly raunchy yesterday!
i was praying that my mom wouldnt suddenly decide to watch with me.
-wide eyed horror-

turn to the sun and the shadows will all fall behind.

i like that mol+lyd. :)


but hor. who's my sun?

hm. maybe happy songs would work.

oh yes. i have a 3rd blog!
1st entry.. let's see (clicks to page) -diao-
4th november 2003.
gosh. the way i typed. -cringes-
anyway there's no point in telling you all this.
i'm just don't want to touch the disgusting spa notes yet.


hm.
mustnt be that way.
I WILL BEAT YOU YOU STUPID SPA SHIT!
THE WAY I KICKED MATHS' ASS! HAHAHAHAH! (ok la. maybe not)
yes indeed. cockiness is the key to success. guranteed success everytime.
when i'm cocky, i succeed. you can just imagine that smirk-i'm-better-than-all-of-you on my face now.
yeah.
I'M GONNA KICK YOUR ASS YOU STUPID SPA!

unknown to many, i actually do have another blog.
where i really really say what i want to say.
actually why am i even bothering to tell you this? nobody has the password anyway.
besides, there are only about 4 entries. where i bitch about insignificant matters.
point being. insignificant. what was once important to me now seems almost laughable.


i want to be able to look back and laugh at what i once was.
because that would mean, i've finally moved one step forward.


how. i'm really sick and tired of it. h.o.w.h.o.w.h.o.w.
i'm sick and tired of feeling stupid and like a failure. which i am but that's besides the point.
tired.
really tired. reaaallly tired.


i loathe her because she took away something which meant the world to me, and i can't do anything about it, because it was my fault anyway.
am i not supposed to loathe her then?


self-loathing.

i hate spa because i'm stupid.
time and time again it has been proven that i've zero flair for any science subjects.
so what am i doing here
my confidence (what's left of it) and self esteem(ditto) has been dealt with blows after blows.
i just want to hide away in my room and not talk. o jate rbtunodfu!!!!!



don't read too much into what i type. i usually don't mean what i said.
maybe the blog should just be shut down.
and sorry, i do mean that.

ok maybe not.
but,
i'm really tired.
i don't know how much more of this i can take.