like jiayin said, sometimes we're really just too nice for our own good. and that's why we get bullied by evil scheming people, we get bullied by disgusting groupmates who don't pull their weight. (i MUST COMPLAIN. i'm still NOT DONE complaining)

and mandy's mom once said i'm too nice that's why i'm going to get bullied in the workplace. and sure enough, i got bullied by that disgusting boss of mine. (but never mind her 'cos she's going to pay when i go back and become her boss)

i always think that people deserve the benefit of the doubt/deserve a 2nd chance.

but this semester has really opened up my eyes to the extent that people don't give two hoots about school work. i guess these people exist more in marketing than anywhere else. or they just all happen to be in my classes damnit.

i told many friends i can separate friendship and work. that's why i didn't blow up when these people screw me up over and over again, throw all the work to me again and again.

but very soon i'm not going to be able to keep it in any longer. these people are just pushing it. when i start to get irritated with you even when we're no longer talking about work, you know you have crossed the line where i can turn a blind eye towards the rubbish you've been giving me week after week

sometimes i wonder, do i want these people to contribute, or not? even if they do, they're giving me rubbish which makes me feel like throwing my laptop at them, or i have to explain something so basic which should have been understood eons ago. and then i may very well have to reedit the work they have done.

so ultimately, am i not just doing the thing myself?

talk about being stuck between a rock and a hard place. SHEESH.

just thinking about it makes my blood boil.

it's not a goddamn elective. i CANNOT fathom why these people are treating these modules like they can S/U it.

however, i do seem to be thriving under all these pressure. at least i don't feel like i'm wasting my university fees (unlike last semester) and i do think i'm producing better work. but most of all, i seem to have developed a perfectionist streak when it comes to essays and the like. (ie what they give me is crap - i must redo everything. HAHA. just for that one module/few persons though. i still like my other groups/groupmates :))

on to happier things!

ah wen's 21st! haha haven't seen him for so long but still the same ol' funny ah wen! (and i STILL haven't gotten to eat any birthday cake!! 4 birthdays, no cake)

supper with the usual peeps! (nice people who do their parts during project and get bullied by other people hahahah)

yuexin is eating a plant.

MS!! hahahah :)

hahah yuexin's cousin is so funny.

me: "do i really seem that好欺负to people??"
yuexin's cousin: "eh i dunno leh. i never thought of bullying you so i dunno"
ahhahaha.

anywho. i'm exhausted now but i'm still up because i just rushed a powerpoint presentation. after this entry i shall go concuss, wake up and attempt Accounting tutorial and then go for another birthday party.

CCO dinner at Jumbo. lovely area! (you know, being the dunman area and all. haha)

the camwhore and i. haha.

the 5 of us com peeps were sharing the table with one senior and 4 other juniors. and gosh the kids made me feel so damn old when i realised they were born in 1991 :(

not a very good photo. i don't know what mj's doing and mol looks pissed.

haha with TTK. much better. gosh i should go find the one we took back in sec 3 and compare it. HAHAH.

anyway dinner was pretty nice. well, it WAS seafood. seafood is always good :) after dinner we headed over to the bridge and camwhored.

HAHAHA.

HAHAHAHA. i've got a few more. but go look at facebook. blogger takes ages to upload one photo.

camwhoring + dessert at cartel later, i cabbed over to bernice's party at aranda! I WAS SO GODDAMN LATE. SORRY BERNICE!! :( (i think i reached 1am)

hahaha the fairy birthday girl! she kept insisting that she looks horrible in the photos but i'd like to object politely. haha.

jiaaa!

wil looks pissed too. hahaha.

yeah i came way too late. i completely missed hoifai!! :(

bernice gave me a beetle cap and i thought it was damn funny. heh :D

the night passed by pretty quickly even though we didnt do much. a bit of mahjong, a whole lot of tv-watching, and some bits of sleeping. hahaha. then we all went home. i realised i had work to chiong and that's why i'm still up now despite the 1/2 hour of sleep.

我活了，我爱了，我都不管了
心爱到疯了，恨到算了，就好了

我存在在我的存在
所以明白，所以离开
所以不再为爱而爱
自己存在在你之外

well what to do? it was a damn SEVEN HOUR seminar for gods' sake!
(although time did pass by pretty quickly because we were not in the least bit listening. heh)
vday dinner with the usual peeps at our 老地方. haha. same old, same old :)

i need to go out to mug. toodles! (so happy because it's going to be a long weekend! no 213 on monday! :D)

hahah this photo was taken at around 1.30am. we were getting comfy for our horror movie! (poor mj got alot of flak for taking this photo. "pic slanted, too dark, blur" hahahaha)

before that was a round of Mahjong-ing (four of them) while the rest of us went gossiping in yuexin's room. super odd combination but i still thought it was a pretty nice conversation! after that we started on one of the horror movies on seah's dvd (Stay Alive. yes i watched it before but the effect is still there when you switch off all the lights in the room, alright??) where we started screaming even before the movie started because the damn Ju-On face appeared on the menu screen!

right anyway. i insisted on being surrounded by people, (well, low threshold for horror movies and everything) but mj, being the nice person he was, reached over from the other end of the mattress and poked my head and i nearly screamed in fright. -.-

the movie ended around 330am and we decided, for the good of our hearts, we wouldnt continue with the rest of the shows and went back to MJ-ing until dawn broke.

we then went home, and i concussed til evening time. and woke up ABSOLUTELY loathing mondays :(

Markstrat is ongoing, and the fact that the Stock Price Index determines 15% of our final grade scares the shit outta me. and as if that wasn't enough, executive memos are to be handed in every week.

and then there's the major Accounting project, two more 215 presentations, 2 more mini 214 presentations and one major presentation at the end of the semester, the TV ad we're supposed to shoot for 214 (individual, not group work!! ARGH!)and of course there's your usual tedious accounting tutorials to be done every week. oh GAWD.

and then, there's just your usual irritating matter of people who don't do their fair share/people who don't seem to be contributing/people who don't seem to have a clue about what's going on.

anyway, the weekend was spent with the usual peeps, despite the ever-growing workload. well what to do, i'm easily distracted!

friday was supposed to be a mugging session with mol. SUPPOSED being the operative word. well, factor in the bad weather and the noisy starbucks and you get a super unproductive day where you basically read about half an accounting chapter. dinner at xin wang cheered me up substantially though!

on friday night i promised myself to finish the accounting tutorial by saturday night. but YAH, being the Easily Distracted One, i ended up having a chill out dinner with the guys, joined later by yuexin. AND THEN, because we initially wanted to go chinatown (oh alright, i wanted to go. haha) and couldn't, we (me) decided to go on sunday instead.

there goes another day!

yum cha! unfortuantely it was raining quite heavily so we couldn't walk around the stores at chinatown. so instead we headed over to Ikea for awhile before going back to the books. :(

i can forsee i'd be spending the CNY hols rushing my tutorials and projects.