i've typed a whole lot of shit just now. but i've decided to delete all of it.

for what.
for what.


there's nothing i can do now.

right now i just want to curl up and die.


welcome to my life people.


don't accuse me of being a martyr. i never believed in being one.

but you wouldn't understand how it feels right now.

so girl. how do you feel right now?
like dying.



leave me alone.



if i've maligned you. i'm sorry.


i've forseen this thing coming anyway.

it's always my fault.
(please. don't tell me that i'm just saying it. i'm not being sarcastic. i have nothing to be sarcastic about)

oh no! have you heard that new song on 987??
lonely by Akon.
please download it!
it's like the cutest song ever?? (wa lau. sound like bimbo)
-warble- loneeeelyyy i'm sooo loneeeelyyyy

HAHA. now that i finally realised that i can increase the font sizes, i can irritate all of you to DEATH. woHoooooo!


ahem.
oh yes. am mightly pleased with myself for passing that darn maths test. -laughs hysterically-
no big deal. everybody in class passed too. and i'm pissed off with the fact that i lost about 6 marks to carelessness. HMMPPPPPH!
never mind. the point is that no one will force me to drop maths and i'm out of remedial for the time being! HAHAHA.
oh. unfortunately i'm going to be about 30 bucks poorer. but i must thank carelessness. if not it would be 60 bucks. WHEW. -grin-




ooh. HOT HOT HOT. (ooh. scary :O)
yes? what's that i hear?? -----> fickle perhaps?
thought i TOLD YOU SO? i'm a gemini what.
i like guys with lovely lovely dark eyes! those which would make even girls green with jealousy!
failing that, lovely smiley eyes also can. ^____^
while i'm at that, lemme add keanu reeves and utt to my list of cuties.
sis LOVES utt. for some reason she n my mom have the notion that ALL thai guys look like UTT and they would go on and on about how thai guys are good looking.
diao. believe me. you do not want to hear your mom say that.




hey this is damn fun! HAHA. i love the different font sizes.


my horoscope in this week's 8 days is finally accurate for once.
unusual extravagance. understatement.
OBSENCE AMOUNT OF MONEY I DON'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT!! urrghh.


haiyerr. everybody has IPods now. where's the exclusivity?? haha. not complaining abt you rach! go take a look around. eeeyerr. EVERBODY has those white earphones! haiyeerrr.
but!
i pity those who bought them real early. who paid the full 458 bucks. heh heh. -shutup-


i'm apparently suffering from exhaustion.
so i shall go to la-la-land after the very nice desperate housewives.
don't worry. i will restrain from being irritating after this entry.


ciao.

if you haven't read that previous post. then don't. if you have (poor you) then i apologise.
whole load of crap.
forgive me i was exhausted after two consecutive nights of sleeping at 2 plus.
doing what?
erm..


online. hee hee.



anyway so i got woken up waaaay too early this morning. think i shall head back to bed.

alright. it's official people. i'm a LOTR convert. a slow one at that. but not too late :D
by the way if u happen to have the return of the king dvd or whatever, PLEASE lend it to me!! I NEED MORE ORLANDO BLOOM. 6 HOURS OF HIM IS NOT ENOUGH.
thanks :) greatly appreciated.


i think my juniors are very lovely and adorable people. gosh. i can just laugh my guts out one of these days. oh yes and they are very sweet too. the trio and chrys bought me a shirt (which unfortunately i would not have the guts to wear out of the house hoho) with a sentence which is not only grammatically unsound but utter rubbish. well, when the brand name is called 'bullshitting'.....
-guffaws- but i love it all the same. so very nice of them. (hm. how come you don't get such cool brands from singapore?)
so we all went out to so-called celebrate jd's birthday. (hey. that is uber cool. JD. like yeah man. JD. much cooler than junda what say you? hahahaha)
anyway we got cheated of our 8.50.
i'm pretty sure we wanted to watch a HORROR movie.
the pang brothers probably either got confused or bored halfway and decided to add comedic elements to the movie. with disastrous results.
but what the heck! it was HILARIOUS. the best comedic horror movie of the year. please go watch it to waste your 8.50 too so i wouldn't feel so much like a moron.
no seriously. blardy funny. have you ever been to a horror movie where the entire cinema was screaming with laughter at the supposedly scary parts?
no? no right. go watch la. really. HAHAHA.
anyway can i just say this again. I LOVE MY JUNIORS! THEY ARE THE FUNNEST BUNCH OF PEOPLE TO HANG OUT WITH!!
they give me a reason to miss this school.



oh oh jiayin! (i know you're bored after all that block test shit. lemme entertain you hoho)
see ah. somehow during the msia trip, chrys n primero got married. so did jd n grace. and yeah. chinyong+yunxin. (point being. prm is a clown. and grace+yx are 2 yrs older than jd n cy respectively)
wahh. DAMN funny i tell you. and JD just totally takes it seriously, so he goes around telling everybody grace is his "bor" (as in "za bor" la. WOMAN d'oh)
no really. you can go try asking him someday.
so we were at ljs buying food. chrys asks jd:
"hey where's your BU?" (mistake.)
JD gives exasperated-cum-why-are-you-so-stupid look. (no need to try to imagine. it's a trademark JD thing. you must see it to know it.)
"wa lau. what BU. my BOR la." laugh-laugh-laugh
at this point of time you're probably imagining JD to be some tall suave kind of dude (yeah. i mean. with a name JD leh!). now imagine a skinny guy with big big eyes (bigger and nicer than most girls' la. -hmmphh-)that's the real JD. oh oh. can i just say i think he has such lovely eyes? no fair. by the way lyd n seah u all can stop retching. u too jy. stop laughing.

haiyerr. think i have to stop because i'm rambling.




i have a plan. (ala martin luther king. aiya use your imagination can)
I MUST ORGANISE ALL MY NOTES TOMORROW.
cheeyyy. anti climax.
anyway. it's about time i do so. i just finished the maths one and gosh. i took ONE HOUR. horrid. i wonder how my room would look like tomorrow when i'm attempting to arrange the other 3 subjects. horrid.


you know how i always say i dread meeting those people on the bus? those people you know but not-quite have much to talk about? those who are too nice to leave you to your peace so hence resulting in you having to make small talk?
maybe i should change my perspectives. make exceptions.
sometimes.
because you see. some people are actually very nice and you actually have lots to talk about with them when you give them the chance. so yeah! think i've made a new friend haha.
no no. not that kind of friend. -throws knowing look at jamie-
but a friend friend. which is good. so i shall try to be nicer to people sometimes.


hey. there's bird nests soup (soup? how come i always get the impression that soups are salty?)
so while you salivate in jealously.
ciao.




oh yes. very outdated pics.

 

 

lucky ducks who get to do CIP at raffles town club. -gloats- 

-snarls-
yeah. i'm back and i'm still cranky.
and i'm cranky because of all the irritating dust particles floating around in the air which caused my airpaths to become all clogged up. urggghhh.
i already don't have strong lungs(good lungs??) to begin with and this is so not helping.
i'm beginning to suspect that's precisely why i suck at running.
oh yes thanks very much. everyday i wake up with my throat clogged with phlegm and that just is plain disgusting. cos when you combine that with sinus..
alright. too much information.
what can i say?
hey you know that i actually don't know what it's like to breathe normally because i have these clogged airpaths since forever? horrid eh. actually not. because i don't know how it feels like otherwise anyway -shurgs- i'm blessed. haaaaaaa. haaaaaaa. haaaaaaa.


i think i mentioned that this yr's musicfest contestants are good.
they were good. until the semifinals where all the good singers somehow just disappeared. or all of a sudden they morphed into.. kladhfkajdhlfkajdlakhhxlkjbv ie i can't say what. :)
oh i know. cos they eliminated the good singers already. that's why rach and the rest aren't in.
stooooopid.
and as usual. lack of hype. -yawn-
what a fantastic year ahead. i'm anticipating the prelims already.


and yes. i'm mightly pissed off that my earholes have magically closed within a week. fantastic. now i have to go and get them drilled open again.


i've got little patience with people who bore me half to death.
alright. FINE. i'm terrified of being with people who do not engage me in brain-stimulating conversation because I DETEST MAKING SMALL TALK. i'd rather NOT talk at all then rack my brains trying to think of something to reply to your that-doesn't-interest-me-one-bit-topic.
shall i mention that few people have the ability to bore me?
few. but not non-existent. grrrrr.
minimise contact at all costs.


the prospect of not taking bio anymore is just seeming more and more attractive by the moment.
no more 58 pages of notes!! no spa!! no more memorising save for econs!!
darn.
but i worked pretty damn hard at it last year. and i can do alright. darn darn darn. decisions decisions.


gloom. gloom. think i shall go hide under my covers.

me my ipod and a long bus ride.
just the way i like it.

maths sapped all of whatever energy i have left.
all i can say is, if i don't pass it, then i will be finally resigned to the fact that i truly suck at maths and i deserve to drop it.
and i'm not being sarcastic.
i am resigned. (imagine the resigned tone would ya?)
i never imagined i would actually be threatened to drop maths (of all bloody subjects!) frankly speaking i'd rather drop bio. and now that i'm faced with all these rubbish, i'm seriously considering saving my life from hell from all the bio shat. i've no flair for it. i'm sick of all the memorising. i've minimal interest in it. the only thing that's holding me back from dropping it is that i know i can score well as long as i swallow the whole stack of notes (which would no doubt reach 3 feet by the end of this year).
since my memory space is extremely limited and essential for more rubbish like econs and chem, i'd most probably have NO space for maths and hence i would fail maths during mid years AGAIN. so essentially speaking, quote unquote thomas teo: "you get to skip maths remedial for a term"
hur hur hur.


so face it. i'm stupid. i so should have taken arts.
let me whine. i wannaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa take meeeepppppppppppp -sob-
i oso wanaaaaaaa take higher chineeeeeeeeese.
then i would be considering s papers instead of r papers nowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

whatever. i didn't so i'm not.



you know i actually have tuition tomorrow?
which is a public holiday??
isn't there a rule against this or something!
IT IS REST DAY FOR GOODNESS SAKE!
I NEED REST. I AM GOING CRAZY!!

i'm either finally growing up, or i've become a full-fledged true blue victorian. ie cold blooded and cynical, a closet mugger actually.
things that used to bother me in the past are now trivial matters. yeah well. now school work finally seems more important than stupid things like these. you can say i've been looking forward to the day when i finally feel the urgency of the impending As. damnit.
and i feel like i've outgrown all those angsty rock songs. linkin park not included though.
you know, like "It seems like everyday, I make mistakes, I just can't get it right, It's like I'm the one, You love to hate, But not today" and all that shutupshutupshutup yadayada parts.
whatever.
all those the-whole-world-is-against-me shat.
oh but i'm still going to the simple plan concert. :) HA. sold-out concert i heard? finally i go to a rock concert. i still sulk sometimes at missing the LP one.

yeah so anyway. point being, i'm finally not bothered about silly silly matters because HAHA they don't concern or affect me anyway.
and maths is a bigger pain in the arse, so i rather go and challenge that rather than all these stupid things.
HAHA.


i'm still very bored.

hc's huangcheng was good. very good. vj's one probably a rip-off. (look at the name la!) but i think i want to go for it for some slapstick humour.
the ensemble's pulling out of syf. which is good. very very good. saves me from all the extra work and headaches.
not to mention i have no desire to spoil my perfect straight golds record.
by the way a foreword. i am skipping to school to support my juniors whichever day they're competiting. :)

mandy's has got me into the health craze. i'm now reading up on diets and health food and stuff. contrary to what she believes i'm not exactly the biggest fan of my body. i can use the toning up parts. and i'm not just saying it and meaning the other unlike some people whom i can name from the top of my head who goes around telling others they're fat and they want to turn vegeterians. let me roll my eyes would ya? i'm a cold blooded victorian after all.
besides mr wong de han gave a very wrong answer yesterday when i asked, "am i fat"
and he went "i oso."
DEHHH.
wrong answer dude. now you'll never hear the end of it from me.
okay so i wouldn't mind getting this for my birthday yeah? ----> biotherm abdo choc. only 58 bucks very cheap. maybe with that and like oh, 300 situps everyday i can get washboard abs.

aiyarr. can dream right?
-reminds self that i'm supposed to be more concerned about work-
anyway severe lack of self restraint when it comes to food can safely ensure that i won't be going on any diets or health food crazes any time soon.
ha. ha. ha.


sian. i'm so bored.
think i shall go watch LOTR.

life's boring. everybody is boring. i am boring.
i am so bored that, oh, i can't even muster up enough energy to sound bothered about being bored
like this. I AM SO BORED!!!
noo. i'm too bored.
but whatever
you can close this page now. i've hit writer's block and i'm uninspired.
not to mention the lack of events to relate about.


i need some mahjong. badly.

oooooooh
i LOVE MAHJONG!!
WE SHOULD ALL PLAY MAHJONG EVERYDAY!!
bet you can tell what went on during the camp today :)
don't you just love sessions like these? where you spend 5 straight hours playing something which is so brain stimulating holed up in a lovely airconditioned room with nice carpeted flooring and lots of chow.
we should do this all the time.

so i'm a happy happy girl today!

since this mood is not expected to last, i shall go do my work right now.



tooodoooles!

-takes a deep breath-
okay okay i must clarify this.
i HATE racists.
no really i do. some of them should just be locked up in jail.
but when something like this happens, i think all the disgusting racists should just be allowed to flood the streets of Singapore.
#&$^*$&^*%&$^*&^#!!!!!!
fine. i shall not stoop to their level by relating what happened.
uncilivised people who display dog-like behaviour should just be kept in their cages until they can learn to sit and shut the hell up.
no come on. i've seen canines who are even more well behaved than that.
bitch. literally.
i've only got one thing to say.
THE DAY WHEN I BECOME MOE I'M GOING TO TEAR DOWN ALL THE ITES IN SINGAPORE ESPECIALLY THAT BLOODY HUGE ONE AT SIMEI AND GIVE THE MONEY TO THE PATHETICALLY SMALL JCS IN SINGAPORE LIKE OURS.
i recognise the point that not all students from schools like these are like that.
hmm. come to think of it, people like these are probably not even qualified to go there.
whatever.
enough of space wastage.
i shall just do my best xiaxue imitation with lydia.
1
2
3
-rolls eyes and flips hand over shoulder-
BAHHHHH!





on a much more civilised note
although CO camp was relatively fun and i think i have great juniors
it still doesnt change the fact that it is a waste of my time :)

fantastic times with jiayin n co. yest at swensens. as usual of course.
looking forward to the next outing..
which coincidentally would be my birthday of course
-big grin-

seah+me were very very evil today. like mWaahhaaahaaa evil.
what entertainment!
i love it when we do these evil things spontaneously!

the feeling of not having your wallet and your handphone is horrible.
because i was forgetful enough to leave it at the music room and mj was forgetful enough to take it and forget to return it to me.
very -_____-

level of bankrupty has reached an all time high
i have 3 bucks left for the rest of the week
sighh. what to do. i'm nice to people.




ciao.
(abrupt aint in? hoho. the mountain of work is growing see?)

blogger was screwed yesterday. so i have to retype every single thing i typed yesterday

nahh. i'm not that dumb. i had it saved.

hm. this was what i typed some time back.

anyways mj ah. i think you will win the FOTY thingie because you happen to be the most photogenic of the lot.

haha. how was i to know it would actually come true??
well hey, there are many more year ones than year twos..
okok just kidding!
congrats my dear boy. am proud of you heh :)
me n terri would have to eat our words yeah?
this must be the first time in vj history where a dunmanian actually wins a competition like this.
-pouts-
what happened to my fav??
but at least.. thank GOD. that jackass didn't win.
hm. not bad eh jit? i'd bet u'd be the first FOTY winner to get 4As and 2Ds as well??
hoho.


-muses-
it's better to keep up a happy front than to feel sad disappointed hurt angry yadayada all the time.
blardy tiring.
sometimes when u pretend to be happy, you actually feel so.

i lie pretty well.
no scratch that.
i lie fantastically well.
not that i lie the whole time
but only when it's absolutely necessary.
white lies are essential sometimes.


iamsotired.









oh yes happy birthday mj!
whoo boy. what can i say. you owe me. BIG TIME.
tomorrow you can treat me to dinner hoho.


dear lyd.
me and seah have concluded
there's nothing we can buy for you
BECAUSE YOU ALREADY HAVE EVERYTHING YOU WANT!!!
so we're giving you a nice angbao :D
haha.
okay we're just kidding.
we saw something reallyy nice just now at TAKA..
you would just have to wait and see yeah?
;)



i saw more year twos than year threes at the NUS open house today.
well, at least those from vj.
felt damn out of place.
like i'm too young.
well maybe after i highlight my hair, get more clothes (HAHA. no excuses for mom not to let me buy more), i'd look more like someone in the U.
some of the students there asked us if we were coming in this june.
when we replied that we were going in next june, i could feel this profound sense of relief.
like 'whew. i still have more time in vj"
for the first time in the 15 months that i'm here, i actually felt really really glad for where i am.
the open house didnt help much. i'm still lost as before.
and of course it probably doesnt help that my interests and the schools where i should be studying at based on these interests lie at polar ends.
NUS business: cos it's safe. the ad said so itself. it never goes out of style. ie it doesnt matter if you don't like business. just take it cos bloody hell everyone else is already taking it!
NTU mass comm: i want to write. but i don't like NTU. full-stop. but hey. i always have to eat my words.
NUS arts n social sciences: cos there's psychology. i can overanalyse everything until i go mad.
NUS music: kidding! i gave up on that idea eons ago.

bahh. lost as ever.



hm. what's with this.
160 cm tall and 43 kg??!
let's see now.
that's about..70% of the normal weight??
shucks. what's with girls and their diets nowadays.
i hear about girls who deprive themselves of even their normal meals just to loose those extra pounds.
i have no objections about that.
but when you are already severely underweight, it's just plain disgusting.
so many skinny anorexics running around these days.
of course, if you're naturally skinny, then i've got nothing to say
jeez.

at home cos i feel like crap.
stomach cramps.
boy i hate my stomach!
and to add insult to injury, i got woken up most rudely
(by what, that will not be divulged)
so now in addition to stupid cramps, i'm in a foul mood.
like, really really foul
and as if that isn't enough
(edited because i think i have said more than i should)
talk about a series of unfortunate events.
i think i can seriously go and bite my own tongue off now.
but what i really want to do is scream at a whole lot very annoying, very stupid, very DUMB people.
i should go and bang my head against the wall now.



by the way, i play no part in the final decision, don't blame me for it. i'm powerless against the higher orders.
and just to let you know
i resent that.
a thousand curses!!!

i'm rebelling.



i was looking at my msn contact list just now.
i was looking at one of the groups
dhsco com 02-03
then this was my thought process:
com --> best com --> not only outstanding --> but a grp of very close friends --> USED TO BE
i'm finally accepting that.
we're disintegrating. falling apart.
and the worst part is, i don't even care as much as i thought i would.
those whom i really care for, we're still as close and in touch as ever.
for the others.
well if u don't make an effort
that's how it's going to be.
not that i care that much.

i'm so predictable. i'm just going to start off by saying.
SCHOOL SUCKS.
it seriously does.
while i'm at that i'll have to say the MOE sucks too.
we are, quote unquote. Lab Rats.
thanks very much indeed.
first SS, then PW. next SPA. now PEARLS.
what's next eh??
and now the holidays program is really starting to piss me off.
sat mon tue wed fri and sat.
*&76&!*$*(!*(&!(*#(!*@(!
hark at the vulgarities spewing out of my mouth!
shit. holidays my ass.



31 would be a good mark for a GP essay. fantastic even. for someone like me.
but when the class average is 30.
what the hell.
screwed up royally.
oh who am i kidding. i'm just sulky over the fact that ms. mugger got like 6 more marks than me.
okay maybe i'm not but whatever. i'm just blardy cranky.
my point being.
how to get A1 this year.
when i'm stuck in this stupid rut.
there's a limit to my english prowess (or lack thereof rather)
i can never ever produce a >35 essay face it.
and i'm not happy about it because as you know i work damn hard at GP! (by typing dilligently in my blog everyday)
but my language marks stay stuck at 13.
so maybe if i get about oh, full marks for the content part. maybe i'll have a shot at an A??
shut up minyan.


clarification:
i am VERY fickle.
with a VERY SHORT attention span to boot.
so yeah.
not interested. nope. NOT.
remember that. :)


shooot. i have SPA TO DO!!!


some people should just look at themselves before going around insulting others.
usually i would say 'pot calling the kettle black'
BUT
why would i want to be associated with you?
-sweet smile-
have a nice life

ahem. rachel is being very sarcastic. i will have to terminate her tomorrow
:)


to a jackass.
be cold and horrid to me all you like.
i don't like you very much either :)
so i guess we're quits


am, rather, was in a fantastic mood. no reason. i just was
which is good evidently because just about everything amuses me.
i'm going to miss the xyz guys next week!!
when they go with dhsco to malaysia. -pouts-
i AM so blardy jealous.
we all had a fantastically wonderful time back in sec4
lovely times.


thanks to the very nice lydia, i'm now the proud owner of an iPod mini.
hey what do you know, dreams do come true soon enough. -chuckles-


i think i smirk too much to myself sometimes. doings of a crazy person.
i smirk when that cute guy from the 8th floor appears
i smirk when i see people doing maths tutorials (curve sketching no less!) during dialouge sessions.
i also smirk when..
okay you don't need to know the last one.
but well, i may be stupid, but i aint no fool (hm. sounds redundant doesnt it)
making no mistakes this time around. :D


i need the airport soon. like tomorrow.


oh yes. haven't mentioned about the dhsco concert last week eh?
actually there's absolutely no need for me to tell you anything about it.
just the name alone spells it out clearly
freakingly fantastic.
who cares what gls always say about us.
denial -yawn-


i am going to be a very bankrupt person soon.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE VERY LOVELY JIAYIN!!!
heh heh. i'm looking forward to sunday although i'd probably have to get an advance on my allowance.
shoot. i better make a list of all the march babies.

12 march. hm. whose birthday ah? don't recall must be somebody unimportant -smirks- haha. sorry jit. couldn't resist
13 march. wilfred! that arse who still hasnt called me
18 march. nice lydia :D
19 march. dear jia
26 march. silly junda. i shall ignore this. heh.
31 march. hoifai!
i'm sure i missed out a few more.


i want that moulin rouge soundtrack.
can consider to buy that for my birthday -wide grin-
oh oh! i like guys with wide wide wide smiles! and lovely smiley eyes!! like this: ^___________^


sorry better get some sleep.
5 more hours til i hav to wake up. boy do i hate school.

while i may be a total neurotic.
at least i'm not an unreasonable one.


i think the last time i reached home at this time was..
in the year 2003.
yeah i think that's it.
but since i'm not really making good use of my time.
whatever.


i'm in a 'whatever' mood now. nowadays rather.
you annoy me. whatever
spa tmr. whatever
whatever whatever!


many of my seniors did fantastically well for their As.
i have absolutely NO idea how the hell i'm supposed to get 4As, or even 3 at the end of this year.
oh gawd.
the A's just freaks me out sometimes.


be back.

first of the many full days to come i'm sure.
very nice. i love full days off.
because you get to parade around orchard in your uniform
and since there's absolutely no way the whole school would be there unless there's some kind of celebration going on, it feels damn.. good.
shuang would be even more apt.
:)


the airport soothes me greatly.
so does retail therapy
but the aftermath of it is rather traumatising. eg. looking at my damnit!-again-empty wallet.



will smith+romantic comedy=hell of a good time.
do catch hitch!
the cinema was almost filled by victorians. funnyyy
no seriously, every single row for about 7 rows were filled by ALL of us.
with sprinklings of people from some other schools. poor things.
intimidation! the victorian spirit reigns!
somebody almost started the school cheer right there and then.
that would have been cool hoho
you know, when there are so many of your school people around
there's this.. sense of empowerment
haha. whatever.




relevation. (i think i'm using the word in the wrong place anyway)
ran into an old friend yesterday
caught me by surprise when he called my name
he was a familiar face, from a chapter in my past.
all the feelings i thought were gone
came rushing back to me at once
tried to smile and hide the way i felt
but i was thinking to myself
truth is
i never got over you..

yeah. you would probably have realised i'm plagarising a song.
how else could i have rhymed haha.
but that's how i get you to actually read it.
cuz i know you (like me and anybody else) would just scroll the whole thing down if i were to paste the whole song here.
objective reached, smart me.
a very lovely song may i add?
i can even forgive her voice for this song.



i can be such a neurotic sometimes.
i should
no scratch that
i MUST stop reading into things.
i MUST not give a damn about many insignificant matters
i MUST turn a BLIND EYE!
YAY!
say hello to the new improved i-cannot-be-bothered-okay-i'm-attempting Me.



ciao. there seems to never be an end to all the SPA shit.

kudos to desperate housewives which just totally brightens up my week.

i tried to put myself in your shoes today.
i tried to imagine how you felt, hearing those things they said.
and i know, it sure doesn't feel good.
but when you see things from a different perspective, it is entirely a different matter.
i'd like you to understand that.
but then again, it probably didn't affect you anyway.
nothing ever does.


-yawn- FOTY is such a flop this year.
no hype generated. boring and dull.
not to mention the lack of charisma everybody's complaining about.
no way we can match up to the standards of last year.
once again don't vote for jackasses.
no need for names. there's only one jackass out of the 5 guys and everybody knows who it is.
i used to think only girls would bitch about guys.
but guys sure do bitch about other guys too, even though they're from the same school
ha ha.


pw results out tmr. how very exciting.


bahh. life sucks.

i'm crankehhh today.
i saw something today that made up my mind for me once and for all.
no more stupid behavior because it's just darn obvious to the surrounding people, not to mention bloody annoying and immature.
for pete's sake. that is blatant ogling. it's puke-inducing dear girl. and it won't get you anywhere near the guy you like.
disgusting!
i sure hope your phone drops into a drain after this. yeucks.
since i've always been a true believer of "don't do what you can't stand of other people"
i'm leaving my immaturity at the door.


ah. celeb eye candies. unattainable but who cares?
see. i've updated the list. (alright. i'm bored. no more skill cd until god knows when HA!)

the puppydog cuties
1. orlando bloom
2. josh hartnett (or whatever)
3. taufik heehee!
4. freddie prinze jr.
5. milan baros

the suave and the smooth
1. jude law
2. johnny depp. oh gawd!
3. george clooney. needs no elaboration
4. RAUL.
5. hugh jackman. can die man.

the neither-here-nor-there-but-cute-nevertheless
1. chris pine. (who? recall princess diaries 2 please)
2. jake gyllenhaal
3. michael vartan (i always like unknowns)



oh yeahh. i've got my bling-bling earrings finally. from my very smart mortal whom somehow not only managed to buy the very pair of blings which i've wanted for so long BUT also in my favourite colour!
HA! now i have bright blue blingblings!
thank you very much kaixiang :)
see jiayin? your favourite name again hoho.


when people tell me things i'm either really really (as in really really really really??) not interested in OR i don't want to listen to, most of the time i just try to listen OR at least i pretend to while nodding at appropriate times (very useful skill i've picked up ever since the long dreary meetings with TTK whereby i'll look at him with a very attentive look while inside i'm actually fast asleep)
of course there's a limit to everything. that's when i'll just walk away. literally.
for example, if you're talking to me while we're walking along, then you'd realise that i'm walking pretty fast and soon you'd be talking to the back of my head. ie talk to the hand (head) cuz the face ain't listening.
:)

meanie me.


yes seriously i think i can be pretty mean.
i believe in karma. but sometimes i have to remind myself that i believe in karma.
shoot.



i have no idea why you can piss me off so badly one second and the next i'll feel chummy with you like everything's alright again. and they really are.
sickening me.
i'm a very confused being.


anyway after owning the alicia keyes' first album for years, i only found this song today which, well, how do i put it? pretty much spoke to me.
tada.

Why Do I Feel So Sad

Friends we've been for so long
Now true colors are showing
Makes me wanna cry oh yes it does
Cuz I had to say goodbye

By now I should know
That in time things would change
So it shouldn't be so bad
So why do I feel so sad

How can I adjust
To the way that things are going
It's killing me slowly
Oh I just want it to be how it used to be

Cuz I wish that I could stay
But in time things must change
So it shouldn't be so bad
So why do I feel so sad

You cannot hide the way you feel inside I realize
Your actions speak much louder than words
So tell me why oh

By now I should know that
That in time things would change
So it shouldn't be it shouldn't be so bad
So why do I feel so sad



by the way does anyone have any idea what does "classically good-looking" mean?

























perhaps i do.












ciao!
oh oh! A level results coming out this fri! i'm awaiting the full day off on monday!