i foresee its crumbling in the near future.
it was a mistake.
soon, it'd be down to either you or me.
you make it so easy for me to hate you.
i appreciate that, thanks
i want no part in it, no more. sorry. -shrugs-
i see no point in doing things that reaps no benefits, or even appreciation.
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt but it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
writing is a socially accepted form of schizophrenia
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
im so pissed off with the screwed up school admin system that i don't even know where to begin.
well what do you know! apparently it doesn't matter whether you're some effed up loser who doesn't come for lessons and with a gpa of 3.0, because the effed up school system will allocate you some glitzy big company for your PA. shucks if you worked your ass off to be in the 2nd upper range or -gasp- god forbid, you're a double spec in the dean's list! off to phase 3 you go.
up yours. school admin system.
ok. so i got starhub in the end. i thank god this option came out at the very last minute. because prior to that i was actually considering companies like insurance companies (GAG), real estate companies (DOUBLE GAG), tiny event management companies (SIGH) and even companies that have no good points except for the fact that they're right across my house. literally.
yes, so starhub, thank you very much. i have ABSOLUTELY no idea what my job scope is about though.
i still stand by my point about how incredibly disgusting this computer allocation system is.
in fact, i'm starting to wonder if they have a thing against people who are in double spec, because i have found about 5 double spec people who are going to have to let their talents and brains go to waste. mind you, these people are not just smart alright. they have lives and good CCAs. so can someone please explain the logic behind
WHY THE STUPID CHAO AH BENG FROM MY BM 212 CLASS, WHOM I CANT REMEMBER HIS FACE NOW, (BUT ONLY HIS NAME) BECAUSE HE CAME FOR ABOUT 3 LESSONS THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE SEMESTER, GET TO GO TO A COMPANY LIKE SIA, WHILE THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT ONLY IN DOUBLE SPEC, BUT ALSO DEAN'S LIST (OMG DEANS LIST OK) AND ARE ACTIVE IN CCAS HAVE TO RESORT TO PICKING TINY COMPANIES WHICH NOBODY HAS HEARD OF BECAUSE HE HAS NO OTHER CHOICE (BECAUSE IDIOTS WHO DONT EVEN DESERVE IT ARE HAPPILY GLOATING AT SIA AND CAAS AND THE LIKE.)
yes. random. SO? are you telling me SIA would rather have this ah beng, who's probably not even going to be showing up, over a smart person with good character and cca records?
how can this PA not be based on merit, i don't understand. because i find it extremely ironic and insulting how people who have far worse results than us, can get companies that are far superior.
unfortunately, the argument that "in a small company you get to learn more things" does not seem to apply to the marketing specialisation. the job scope seems to be inversely proportional to the size of the company, so the smaller and more unknown you go, your job scope ranges from crap to crap.
when i was looking through the list of phase 3 companies, i wanted to CRY.
i had to consider companies which i had immediately struck off during phase 2.
HELL, i had to consider companies which people don't even want in the first place. basically, we were picking at the leftovers of other people. other undeserving people. oh god the PAIN.
sure, you use the computer to allocate because you want the allocation to be fair.
so, i'd like to know why up to this current point of time, i HAVE NOT FOUND A SINGLE PERSON WHO WAS THROWN TO PHASE 3, WHOSE GPA IS LOWER THAN 4.0.
now, explain the fairness of the system.
my friend, another victim himself (double spec lah. like wth) put it so aptly when he said "i study so hard for what? i take double spec for what? i join so many CCAs for what? in the end, the chao ah beng gets SIA, i get nothing"
well what do you know! apparently it doesn't matter whether you're some effed up loser who doesn't come for lessons and with a gpa of 3.0, because the effed up school system will allocate you some glitzy big company for your PA. shucks if you worked your ass off to be in the 2nd upper range or -gasp- god forbid, you're a double spec in the dean's list! off to phase 3 you go.
up yours. school admin system.
ok. so i got starhub in the end. i thank god this option came out at the very last minute. because prior to that i was actually considering companies like insurance companies (GAG), real estate companies (DOUBLE GAG), tiny event management companies (SIGH) and even companies that have no good points except for the fact that they're right across my house. literally.
yes, so starhub, thank you very much. i have ABSOLUTELY no idea what my job scope is about though.
i still stand by my point about how incredibly disgusting this computer allocation system is.
in fact, i'm starting to wonder if they have a thing against people who are in double spec, because i have found about 5 double spec people who are going to have to let their talents and brains go to waste. mind you, these people are not just smart alright. they have lives and good CCAs. so can someone please explain the logic behind
WHY THE STUPID CHAO AH BENG FROM MY BM 212 CLASS, WHOM I CANT REMEMBER HIS FACE NOW, (BUT ONLY HIS NAME) BECAUSE HE CAME FOR ABOUT 3 LESSONS THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE SEMESTER, GET TO GO TO A COMPANY LIKE SIA, WHILE THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO ARE NOT ONLY IN DOUBLE SPEC, BUT ALSO DEAN'S LIST (OMG DEANS LIST OK) AND ARE ACTIVE IN CCAS HAVE TO RESORT TO PICKING TINY COMPANIES WHICH NOBODY HAS HEARD OF BECAUSE HE HAS NO OTHER CHOICE (BECAUSE IDIOTS WHO DONT EVEN DESERVE IT ARE HAPPILY GLOATING AT SIA AND CAAS AND THE LIKE.)
yes. random. SO? are you telling me SIA would rather have this ah beng, who's probably not even going to be showing up, over a smart person with good character and cca records?
how can this PA not be based on merit, i don't understand. because i find it extremely ironic and insulting how people who have far worse results than us, can get companies that are far superior.
unfortunately, the argument that "in a small company you get to learn more things" does not seem to apply to the marketing specialisation. the job scope seems to be inversely proportional to the size of the company, so the smaller and more unknown you go, your job scope ranges from crap to crap.
when i was looking through the list of phase 3 companies, i wanted to CRY.
i had to consider companies which i had immediately struck off during phase 2.
HELL, i had to consider companies which people don't even want in the first place. basically, we were picking at the leftovers of other people. other undeserving people. oh god the PAIN.
sure, you use the computer to allocate because you want the allocation to be fair.
so, i'd like to know why up to this current point of time, i HAVE NOT FOUND A SINGLE PERSON WHO WAS THROWN TO PHASE 3, WHOSE GPA IS LOWER THAN 4.0.
now, explain the fairness of the system.
my friend, another victim himself (double spec lah. like wth) put it so aptly when he said "i study so hard for what? i take double spec for what? i join so many CCAs for what? in the end, the chao ah beng gets SIA, i get nothing"
posted by mian at 8:54 PM | Permalink |
Saturday, March 22, 2008
after a particularly trying week, i was looking forward to friday like nobody's business.
it seems like nothing was going right at all the whole week. like i've said, i've given up on that eff-ed up project, accounting report sucked all my energy, and we somehow managed to submit the soft copy late, resulting in total panic, and what else i can't remember. it was just a bad week.
anyway, friday was just one of those typical nua-ing sessions at jiayin's house where we had a loooooooooong wii session. after about 5 hours of golfing, boxing, baseball etc, we headed over to serangoon for prata before jiayin fetched all of us home at around 4am. i only went to sleep at 5 and that was evidently a bad idea because i could barely drag myself out of bed for project meeting, and could hardly stay awake during the dhsco concert today.
i think i've been soooooooo tired lately. like at jiayin's house yesterday, i was just sprawled over her couch like it was my house (haha) and didn't want to move. in fact, i told yuexin i was feeling so lethargic and lazy that i was all prepared to go out of the house with my specs, something which i have not done since 2003. this exhaustion, i'm not used to it. :(
hahaha. contradictory yes? but, how it rings true.
ONE MORE A TO GO AND THERE WILL BE NO MORE STUPID MEMOS TO DO, EVER AGAIN! WOHOO!
it seems like nothing was going right at all the whole week. like i've said, i've given up on that eff-ed up project, accounting report sucked all my energy, and we somehow managed to submit the soft copy late, resulting in total panic, and what else i can't remember. it was just a bad week.
anyway, friday was just one of those typical nua-ing sessions at jiayin's house where we had a loooooooooong wii session. after about 5 hours of golfing, boxing, baseball etc, we headed over to serangoon for prata before jiayin fetched all of us home at around 4am. i only went to sleep at 5 and that was evidently a bad idea because i could barely drag myself out of bed for project meeting, and could hardly stay awake during the dhsco concert today.
i think i've been soooooooo tired lately. like at jiayin's house yesterday, i was just sprawled over her couch like it was my house (haha) and didn't want to move. in fact, i told yuexin i was feeling so lethargic and lazy that i was all prepared to go out of the house with my specs, something which i have not done since 2003. this exhaustion, i'm not used to it. :(
there's a pain that sleeps inside
it sleeps with just one eye
and awakens
the moment that you're near
though i try to look away
the pain it still remains
only leaving
when you're next to me
hahaha. contradictory yes? but, how it rings true.
ONE MORE A TO GO AND THERE WILL BE NO MORE STUPID MEMOS TO DO, EVER AGAIN! WOHOO!
posted by mian at 10:49 PM | Permalink |
Friday, March 21, 2008
today marks the day i officially give up on that project. i can't be bothered with it anymore. i've slogged and slaved over the thing for the past 6 weeks, for a measly 15%, and all my tutor can tell me now is, he "can't see what we're doing wrong" and "it's a case of too little too late"
HELL YEAH?
now then you want to wake up and panic. you really think there's any use?
maybe you should have thought of that at the beginning when i had to carry the weight of the entire project on my shoulders. i can only support the thing for that long, i can only make that few good decisions, i only have that many ideas. and then i'll crack, and i'll make mistakes. i'll try to salvage, and then when you still don't give a shit, finally, i'll throw in the towel and give up.
in other groups, each person gives in 100%, resulting in 400%.
i don't have 400% to give.
and even if they each only give 50%, they still have an edge over us.
i was actually over this thing already. but today just dredged up every single exasperated, frustrated, furious, eff-ed up feeling that i've been through the past 6 weeks.
and so i officially declare myself freed from all these crap.
since you don't care, alright, let's all die together then.
enough is enough. i'm sick and tired of all these sickening shit.
HELL YEAH?
now then you want to wake up and panic. you really think there's any use?
maybe you should have thought of that at the beginning when i had to carry the weight of the entire project on my shoulders. i can only support the thing for that long, i can only make that few good decisions, i only have that many ideas. and then i'll crack, and i'll make mistakes. i'll try to salvage, and then when you still don't give a shit, finally, i'll throw in the towel and give up.
in other groups, each person gives in 100%, resulting in 400%.
i don't have 400% to give.
and even if they each only give 50%, they still have an edge over us.
i was actually over this thing already. but today just dredged up every single exasperated, frustrated, furious, eff-ed up feeling that i've been through the past 6 weeks.
and so i officially declare myself freed from all these crap.
since you don't care, alright, let's all die together then.
enough is enough. i'm sick and tired of all these sickening shit.
posted by mian at 12:46 AM | Permalink |
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
i was actually feeling down but a chat with Good Friend helped, because now i know, even when it seems like i've been dealing with crap people, there are others who are in worse situations than me.
POOR THING CAN. -looks at jiayin knowingly- hahaha.
the things Good Friend told me about Mutual Friend's group. GOSH. the audacity of those people! the atrocity of the work they produce! i think it's ten times worse than whatever i've been through. and while i just have to deal with one, Mutual Friend has to deal with all three. GOSH.
no wonder the poor soul finally had enough of all the bullshit and went to complain. god knows i've been through that too. but at least now the situation has improved by quite alot so i won't need to consider that option.
these people give marketing a terrible rep.
no wonder we're always known as the people who are lazy, don't do work and stupid.
hahah peisee and i had a MS moment when we both exclaimed "she's not only lazy, she's also stupid!!" at the EXACT SAME MOMENT. so funny.
and i found yet another sitcom! yes i've caught up on all the HIMYM episodes and now i have to wait for the new episode every week.
Two and a Half Men! promising start. amusing. :)
despite all the shit i've encountered, i realised that actually i've made quite a few friends out of it. i call it, unity in the face of adversity. we either have THE SAME sucky group mate, or we have similarly sucky group mates. and what do you do when you're faced with these people?
you BITCH about them. and bitch somemore.
it's nice, really :)
must thank these full of shit people.
not only you learn how to handle the crazy workload when these shitty people are happily oblivious to it, you make new friends who are facing the same stuff as you :)
POOR THING CAN. -looks at jiayin knowingly- hahaha.
the things Good Friend told me about Mutual Friend's group. GOSH. the audacity of those people! the atrocity of the work they produce! i think it's ten times worse than whatever i've been through. and while i just have to deal with one, Mutual Friend has to deal with all three. GOSH.
no wonder the poor soul finally had enough of all the bullshit and went to complain. god knows i've been through that too. but at least now the situation has improved by quite alot so i won't need to consider that option.
these people give marketing a terrible rep.
no wonder we're always known as the people who are lazy, don't do work and stupid.
hahah peisee and i had a MS moment when we both exclaimed "she's not only lazy, she's also stupid!!" at the EXACT SAME MOMENT. so funny.
and i found yet another sitcom! yes i've caught up on all the HIMYM episodes and now i have to wait for the new episode every week.
Two and a Half Men! promising start. amusing. :)
despite all the shit i've encountered, i realised that actually i've made quite a few friends out of it. i call it, unity in the face of adversity. we either have THE SAME sucky group mate, or we have similarly sucky group mates. and what do you do when you're faced with these people?
you BITCH about them. and bitch somemore.
it's nice, really :)
must thank these full of shit people.
not only you learn how to handle the crazy workload when these shitty people are happily oblivious to it, you make new friends who are facing the same stuff as you :)
posted by mian at 6:35 PM | Permalink |
Monday, March 17, 2008
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WHAAHHAHAHAHAHA 笑到我半死。
and i quote shuxian: "this is what you get for trying to do accounting report and markstrat at the same time"
posted by mian at 11:39 PM | Permalink |
a quick update before i concuss. almost done for acc and the memo, so i'm a erm, not happy, but less cranky girl! tomorrow would be another long day where i sincerely hope i won't be irritated or annoyed. :) 
:):)
birthday celebrations for the 2j peeps, jia, wilfred and wenjin!
dinner at Ichiban Boshi (i THINK lar. i don't remember jap restaurant names) was a complete rip-off. the tempura soba was bland and expensive. i could have gone Sakae for much better food.
following which was drinks at Timbre. finally, i've been to the place that everyone has been talking about. it's really a lovely chillout place with great music! i love the interactiveness of the live band :)
:):)
posted by mian at 2:58 AM | Permalink |
Sunday, March 16, 2008
part 3 of jiayin and mj's birthday celebrations. i know, it's taking forever. BUT MINYAN IS VERY BUSY OKAY! -looks pointedly at people who said i'm very free- hahah. 
it was a long day which ended at around 10 and then mj fetched all of us home.
hahaha i just realise that i'm so behind on updating about the birthday celebrations, i'm currently TWO birthday celebrations behind. gosh. this is proof that minyan is very busy alright!
anyway tomorrow would be the first time this whole week i can sleep til whatever hour i want. JOY! the past few days were exhausting, so tomorrow i will not budge until the sun is high in the sky. haha. and i think i do deserve it since i have a looooooooooooooooong day ahead with the accounting report :(
still, i think currently my favourite project group is accounting! everyone contributes, and their contribution makes plenty of sense :D
the entire day was spent at this secluded little starbucks at suntec doing the accounting report. OH GOD I CANT WAIT FOR IT TO BE FINISHED. it's tedious, confusing and EXTREMELY STRESSFUL. and on top of it, i still have your usual memo to do. ARGH.
anyway.
after the time we had for the room was up, we headed over to Lido where mj parked his car. it was such a loooooong walk from Cine so mj and i decided to camwhore.
and quite evidently the two in front totally ignored us
and quite evidently the two in front totally ignored ushahaha. my photo taking skills are quite terrible.
dinner at Westlake. along the way me and yx had some MS moments which completely cracked us up and annoyed mj. hahaha.
after dinner, because of a lack of places to go (we were in ulu Clementi), we went over to my aunt's condo at sunset way. (actually i do love that place. it's like a self-contained little town!)
choosing the icecream
at the poolside at the clubhouse. yeah, machiam my house lah. hahaha.
we hung around for quite around, talking and playing stupid games. i realised when i'm with these group of people, i seem to return to my childhood. hahaha. :)
it was a long day which ended at around 10 and then mj fetched all of us home.
hahaha i just realise that i'm so behind on updating about the birthday celebrations, i'm currently TWO birthday celebrations behind. gosh. this is proof that minyan is very busy alright!
anyway tomorrow would be the first time this whole week i can sleep til whatever hour i want. JOY! the past few days were exhausting, so tomorrow i will not budge until the sun is high in the sky. haha. and i think i do deserve it since i have a looooooooooooooooong day ahead with the accounting report :(
still, i think currently my favourite project group is accounting! everyone contributes, and their contribution makes plenty of sense :D
posted by mian at 2:13 AM | Permalink |
Saturday, March 15, 2008
im running late for my project group meeting but i have to type this down to get it off my chest.
i really do 纵容 people don't i?
i think it's pretty evident seeing that i'm doing the work of 3 people for certain projects, and people actually thinking i'm good to bully and gullible. (GULLIBLE. LIKE WTH. in case you don't know, gullible friggin' means EASY TO MANIPULATE. and dictionary.com cranks it up a notch by defining it as EASILY CHEATED OR DECEIVED. oh thanks a million.)
JUST BECAUSE IM NOT SCHEMING DOESNT MEAN IM GULLIBLE.
i didn't realise i'm giving off such vibes to people you know? so now my trying my best-est to be nice to people is actually translated into i'm easy to manipulate. (effing group mate actually tried to use emotional blackmail when she told me "you also wouldnt want to come back for one lecture right? EFFING BITCH)
i should really reevaluate the way i treat certain people.
no of course i'm not going to start being some manipulative bitch towards people who are nice to me.
but those who have made it pretty clear that they think i'm so easily manipulated. well, we shall see about that.
i really do 纵容 people don't i?
i think it's pretty evident seeing that i'm doing the work of 3 people for certain projects, and people actually thinking i'm good to bully and gullible. (GULLIBLE. LIKE WTH. in case you don't know, gullible friggin' means EASY TO MANIPULATE. and dictionary.com cranks it up a notch by defining it as EASILY CHEATED OR DECEIVED. oh thanks a million.)
JUST BECAUSE IM NOT SCHEMING DOESNT MEAN IM GULLIBLE.
i didn't realise i'm giving off such vibes to people you know? so now my trying my best-est to be nice to people is actually translated into i'm easy to manipulate. (effing group mate actually tried to use emotional blackmail when she told me "you also wouldnt want to come back for one lecture right? EFFING BITCH)
i should really reevaluate the way i treat certain people.
no of course i'm not going to start being some manipulative bitch towards people who are nice to me.
but those who have made it pretty clear that they think i'm so easily manipulated. well, we shall see about that.
posted by mian at 10:53 AM | Permalink |
Friday, March 14, 2008
HAHAHHA I AM IN SUCH A FANTABULOUS MOOD! omg karma, you're my best friend, like honestly. =)
TO BE CONTINUED!
anyway part 2 of jiayin and mj's birthday on sunday. gosh, looking at the photos make me really happy and blessed, AND ALSO TOTALLY AMUSED! yes i know you all enjoyed the shots of us in preparation for their video ;)
okay i am REALLY LAZY to type out exactly what happened that day, so basically we booked a room at Cine, and reached there about 1h before the time we told the birthday babies to meet. we decorated the room (i hung around taking pictures. YES LAR I AM NOT VERY HELPFUL) and came up with many excuses when jiayin was late in meeting mj and mj called for like the 1000th time demanding to know where the hell we all were. hahahah.
we pasted their "faces" leftover from the preparation on the windows! hahahaha.
i'll just spare you all the details of how those two made their way up, stood outside the room for like 1/2h debating whether to go in or not because they thought we were going to sabo them! hmph!
anyhow. the cake!
HAHAHAH.
with the birthday boy
and the girl!
nice! :) mj is actually smiling!! hahaha. such a rarity
for the rest of the time (we booked the room from 2 to 5), we were just sitting around talking, and not even making full use of the game room. hahaha.
mj wants the balloons to drift down on us. unfortunately his reflexes were too fast. AND HAHAHA HUIZHI'S EXPRESSION IS PRICELESS!!
TO BE CONTINUED!
posted by mian at 1:13 AM | Permalink |
Thursday, March 13, 2008
wow. the number of photos taken before til after jiayin and mj's birthdays is just madness. i shall split it into 3 parts.
the initial stages
whahahaha. quite a struggle.
HAHAHAHA.
always a joy to meet them :) uncensored conversations and bitching :)
part 1: the Preparation.
the day: thursday during recess week.
location: my house
the idea was to make a video/photo collage for the two of them. video being showing all the particularly memorable chui moments our two dears had experienced back in the dunman days. hahahaha.
so basically what we did was find pictures of them, enlarge them to A4 size, cut 'em out and the (ahem) actors wore the masks. HAHAHA. i'm lazy to tell you what happened but basically i laughed until my stomach ached quite badly.
the initial stages
whahahaha. quite a struggle.
HAHAHAHA.
so she dio a dose of her own medicine. wahhahahahahaha.
actually i don't think you all should credit me in the video. because basically what i did the entire time was sit there and laugh and laugh and laugh. yes, i'm very encouraging :)
alright to be continued!
oh yeah last saturday was kbox with my favourite vj boys. hahaha. i havent met them since 31st of december 'cos i was just too damn busy! missed them!! :)
always a joy to meet them :) uncensored conversations and bitching :)
posted by mian at 1:51 AM | Permalink |
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
then ** asked 'then next time he get a gf how?' hahah my answer was: i don't know. he just has to get one after he stops being important to me. or after i get attached. HAHAH. yea that's the ideal situation. but of coz i have always known that there will be this possibility. i used to not care. and i really hope i can go back to that frame of mind soon.
quoted, erm, without permission. heh heh.
but i told said owner of quote, how hitting the nail on the head it was!
anyway dear owner, if you mind the quote being here, msn me. :)
anyway i can't sleep. it's 3.21am and i'm wide awake, no thanks to the fact that i just finished the weekly memo and i also reached home not too long ago from the airport. actually i do love doing work at the airport with dearest mol (who recently got an imac which is a constant source of distraction) because i don't get sidetracked by shopping sprees or HIMYM. very productive! (provided mol doesnt get into one of his cranky emo moods. heh heh)
so since i can't sleep, i'm going to go into one of my rambling posts.
okay, so recently a few of my friends are in those 发花痴ing phases, and most recently ;) one of my friends actually said he/she “很久没有这种感觉了”. granted, perhaps it wasn't said in the most positive tones because my poor friend is actually more than just merely infatuated. WELL ANYWAY. my point is, that sentence struck me particularly hard because, YES, it's been a hella long of a time since i've been infatuated or had a crush, or had an eyecandy. ANYTHING. so point is, MINYAN IS VERY BORED. (before any of you jumps in and say that it's not true that i'm not infatuated, i'd just like to say that that's not infatuation. THAT'S AN EXTREMELY UNHEALTHY BAD HABIT THAT NEEDS TO BE DESTROYED FROM THE ROOTS THANK YOU. ahem. jeez. sometimes i think i can actually liken it to smoking. easy to start, impossible to quit)
so anyway, i've also realised there are a number of stages in what people normally just classify as Liking. there's
1st stage: where the person is just a happy distraction in your mundane school life. you look forward to seeing him in classes 'cos he's just so darn cute. but at this stage, you don't exactly know the person. perhaps one of those hi-bye friends.
2nd stage: where you get to know the person at the friend level. and as you get to know him better, you start to get emotionally attached. we usually call this a CRUSH. at this point of time should you find out any flaws/this guy is attached etc, you can still back out pretty fast, no strings attached, not much disappointment etc.
3rd stage: when you get to know the person for a substantial period of time, and you're STILL emotionally invested. we call this LIKE. at this point of time, you're pretty much still blind to all his flaws. and i dare say if you don't haul yourself out of this stage soon, you're going to be in pretty huge trouble in time to come. (of course, we're all assuming that this is one-sided)
4th stage: when you've known this person like forever, you still like him, AND he pretty much has a permanent spot in your heart. we call this the you-still-can-escape-but-it's-going-to-be-hard stage. what you're going to need is another distraction. it will work, but you will realise sooner or later the permanent spot is called a permanent spot for a reason. IT IS GOING TO COME BACK TO HAUNT YOU SOONER OR LATER.
5th stage: when after all the crap you've been through, you've seen all the flaws yada yada and you're still stuck in the own little screwed up world where you put him on a pedestal, then i say there's no more hope for you. perhaps 范玮琪 ( i dunno how to type her name!) could put it across better：
是习惯，还是爱
不放心，还是不甘心
只有自己你知道解答
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有身陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下
yuexin says i sing this song with so much feeling. YES SO ANYONE NEED ME TO BLAST IT IN YOUR EAR I'LL GLADLY DO SO :)
chua mj lately goes by the saying of "nothing is impossible".
well i'd like to say, even though nothing is impossible, somethings are just not possible. just because it's not impossible, doesn't mean it's possible
alright i'm done.
pictures asap!
(i want to make the birthday boy and girl look nice!)
mollie can be so unintentionally funny sometimes.
mol: "i have tuition at serangoon north tomorrow"
me: "ooh that's where Good Friend lives"
mol: "Good friend??"
me: "Good Friend (insert name. no need mention la hor. hahaha)lah"
mol: "ooooooooooooooooooo. (name)"
me: "huh. whats with the oooooooooooooo"
mol: "(name) what"
me: "-rek leh."
mol: "i know lah!"
me: "haha. then how would you react to the other?"
mol: "YEURGHHHHHHHHH" (plus vomitting and gagging action)
hahahaha! such a sweetie.
posted by mian at 2:56 AM | Permalink |
Monday, March 10, 2008
i prefer this! mj take that other one off your facebook! haha.
posted by mian at 1:49 PM | Permalink |
to be continued! man, mingjie did you realise you took over 100+ photos? hahaha.
yes i know. much room for improvement for photoshop skills.
posted by mian at 1:57 AM | Permalink |
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
today i took a breather from work and watched some How I Met Your Mother (henceforth known as HIMYM because im lazy to keep typing the full name out)
it's been a gruelling 2 days, what with the concurrent executive memo due as usual on wed and 214 assignment due this friday. the past two days i was out til almost midnight trying to get work done. and i can't tell you how much i want the bloody markstrat to be over because it's just giving me nightmares. i went to take a nap just now and i WAS DREAMING ABOUT IT THE WHOLE TIME DAMNIT. and the usual stuff lar: i can't bloody wait for peer evaluation! just 4 more weeks to go and i can say goodbye forever to useless people!! :):) man, just thinking about them makes me wanna hurl. (hurl something and literally hurl)
still, monday and tuesday were pretty nice because i had catchup meals with people i haven't been seeing too often! monday lunch was uber relaxing with shuxian at some jap restaurant at the ulu jurong west stadium. but it was nice! and the food was cheap and good. girl let's make this a weekly thing and ask yuezhen too alright? :) the lunch cheered me up substantially from markstrat and even more so when i discovered the same loophole in the dumb program as shuxian did! ;) heh heh. how incredibly useful!
yesterday night dinner was with ah mol at popeyes and the dearest mol basically helped me complete my entire 214 assignment. hahahhaa. i would have never been able to produce that level of english, ever! thanks sweetie! hopefully this would give me the good grade that i desperately need. :)
i can't wait for the week to end! lots of things to look forward to over the weekend! ktv with the ktv boys and jiayin and jitty's birthdays! :)
people, just skip the next whole chunk because i'm just repeating myself and i just need to rant.
i am so sick and tired of that bloody group. i have never ever met people as incompetent and useless. i thought i have seen the worst lot for my accounting I project but this really takes the cake. let me break down to you what happens every week during discussion:
1. they come in, with absolutely no idea what happened in that week's results. they don't give a crap, and they actually have the audacity to come in and ASK ME THEN what happened. WTF. DOES OPENING THAT DAMN PROGRAMN TAKE TWO HOURS? the friggin' results come in every wednesday afternoon and they couldn't even take 5 minutes to take a look at it. nooooooo, even though there's like, oh i don't know, about 100 hours in between wednesday and monday for them to do so?!
2. group discussion basically equates to I-Talk-They-Nod, I-Ask-They-Stare-At-Me. WTF LAR. I HAVE TO THINK OF ALL THE IDEAS BY MYSELF. there's nobody to add on to my ideas, there's nobody to help think whether my ideas actually work. is it any surprise that we did so badly this time round? how is it possible that anyone can handle the whole thing by themselves week after week?! THERE'S A FREAKING REASON WHY THIS PROJECT IS GROUP WORK.
3. when they finally decide to open their mouths, they are either repeating what i've just said, rephrasing what i've just said, or talking rubbish. (case in point, in the midst of discussion, giving comments such as "oh! why the other firms so pro ah?" STFU LAR)
i cannot deny that they produce good work in the memos. but so what? where are all the ideas coming from? where are all the decisions coming from?
i'm exhausted from this whole thing.
i dread seeing them so much that i want to just forgo this whole thing and not show up for the meeting on monday anymore.
that monday night, as the two of us were left there, slogging away at 11pm in the seminar room, the level of irresponsibility they have finally hit me hard. they honestly, truly do not care what happens to our project. i worry about the results, i brainstorm for ideas, i get upset when we don't do well, and every week they just come in with that i-dont-give-a-flying-fick-attitude.
i am so so so tired.
countdown to end of markstrat and all this crap: 26 days.
anyway HIMYM is getting better! jiayin! can watch it! it's not too bad at all!
barney: "you're forcing me to be the voice of reason! AND THAT'S NOT A GOOD LOOK FOR ME!"
it's been a gruelling 2 days, what with the concurrent executive memo due as usual on wed and 214 assignment due this friday. the past two days i was out til almost midnight trying to get work done. and i can't tell you how much i want the bloody markstrat to be over because it's just giving me nightmares. i went to take a nap just now and i WAS DREAMING ABOUT IT THE WHOLE TIME DAMNIT. and the usual stuff lar: i can't bloody wait for peer evaluation! just 4 more weeks to go and i can say goodbye forever to useless people!! :):) man, just thinking about them makes me wanna hurl. (hurl something and literally hurl)
still, monday and tuesday were pretty nice because i had catchup meals with people i haven't been seeing too often! monday lunch was uber relaxing with shuxian at some jap restaurant at the ulu jurong west stadium. but it was nice! and the food was cheap and good. girl let's make this a weekly thing and ask yuezhen too alright? :) the lunch cheered me up substantially from markstrat and even more so when i discovered the same loophole in the dumb program as shuxian did! ;) heh heh. how incredibly useful!
yesterday night dinner was with ah mol at popeyes and the dearest mol basically helped me complete my entire 214 assignment. hahahhaa. i would have never been able to produce that level of english, ever! thanks sweetie! hopefully this would give me the good grade that i desperately need. :)
i can't wait for the week to end! lots of things to look forward to over the weekend! ktv with the ktv boys and jiayin and jitty's birthdays! :)
people, just skip the next whole chunk because i'm just repeating myself and i just need to rant.
i am so sick and tired of that bloody group. i have never ever met people as incompetent and useless. i thought i have seen the worst lot for my accounting I project but this really takes the cake. let me break down to you what happens every week during discussion:
1. they come in, with absolutely no idea what happened in that week's results. they don't give a crap, and they actually have the audacity to come in and ASK ME THEN what happened. WTF. DOES OPENING THAT DAMN PROGRAMN TAKE TWO HOURS? the friggin' results come in every wednesday afternoon and they couldn't even take 5 minutes to take a look at it. nooooooo, even though there's like, oh i don't know, about 100 hours in between wednesday and monday for them to do so?!
2. group discussion basically equates to I-Talk-They-Nod, I-Ask-They-Stare-At-Me. WTF LAR. I HAVE TO THINK OF ALL THE IDEAS BY MYSELF. there's nobody to add on to my ideas, there's nobody to help think whether my ideas actually work. is it any surprise that we did so badly this time round? how is it possible that anyone can handle the whole thing by themselves week after week?! THERE'S A FREAKING REASON WHY THIS PROJECT IS GROUP WORK.
3. when they finally decide to open their mouths, they are either repeating what i've just said, rephrasing what i've just said, or talking rubbish. (case in point, in the midst of discussion, giving comments such as "oh! why the other firms so pro ah?" STFU LAR)
i cannot deny that they produce good work in the memos. but so what? where are all the ideas coming from? where are all the decisions coming from?
i'm exhausted from this whole thing.
i dread seeing them so much that i want to just forgo this whole thing and not show up for the meeting on monday anymore.
that monday night, as the two of us were left there, slogging away at 11pm in the seminar room, the level of irresponsibility they have finally hit me hard. they honestly, truly do not care what happens to our project. i worry about the results, i brainstorm for ideas, i get upset when we don't do well, and every week they just come in with that i-dont-give-a-flying-fick-attitude.
i am so so so tired.
countdown to end of markstrat and all this crap: 26 days.
anyway HIMYM is getting better! jiayin! can watch it! it's not too bad at all!
barney: "you're forcing me to be the voice of reason! AND THAT'S NOT A GOOD LOOK FOR ME!"
posted by mian at 12:24 PM | Permalink |
Monday, March 03, 2008
ok i just got back and i think i nearly laughed my guts out just now.
saturday was ktv session with the 2j kakis at dynasty
hahah bernice is so funny in the bottom right photo!!
hahahah. self-taken!
dynasty rocks by the way. BECAUSE THEY HAVE ALL MY FAVOURITE CANTO SONGS! YES INCLUDING RAYMOND LAM'S AND 溏心风暴'S THEME SONG. i made hoifai sing all the canto songs with me hahaha. HEART CANTO!!
dinner was exorbitant at billy bombers. look at the amount of food we had!!
CHUA MJ DO NOT POST THAT VIDEO ON FACEBOOK IF NOT I'LL GO DIG FOR ALL YOUR DUNMAN PHOTOS AND POST THEM ONLINE TOO.
anywho it was still hilarious. we will all do that again soon!! :)
it was a nice weekend! not the most productive one though :( 214 is giving me hell and sleepless nights. :(
friday was mugging with seah at the airport and it wasn't the bit productive because we haven't met up in quite awhile so it was gossip gossip and more gossip! dinner at our usual haunt with william!
poor lonely william. hahaha.
dessert + camwhoring at cafe cartel.
i love this picture! because at last i look happy in a photo! i have no idea why i look so damn fake smiling in photos! my eyes never seem to be smiling :(
:D
saturday was ktv session with the 2j kakis at dynasty
hahah bernice is so funny in the bottom right photo!!
hahahah. self-taken!
dynasty rocks by the way. BECAUSE THEY HAVE ALL MY FAVOURITE CANTO SONGS! YES INCLUDING RAYMOND LAM'S AND 溏心风暴'S THEME SONG. i made hoifai sing all the canto songs with me hahaha. HEART CANTO!!
dinner was exorbitant at billy bombers. look at the amount of food we had!!
at face shop. hahaha. random pic but i think i look hilarious.
drinks at Giraffe. gorgeous ambience!
HAHAHAHAHA. wil's as red as my drink!
yup he sure is red! hahahahha.
lovely catching up :)
oh by the way, i'm totally in love with the blue dress so please don't be shocked to see me wearing it again this sunday okay, study group peeps? ahahaha. i usually try not to repeat my clothes but man, i just lurrrrrrrve this one to bits!! :)
ok i GOTTA GO BACK TO 214!!!
posted by mian at 12:24 AM | Permalink |
Sunday, March 02, 2008
just that bit of moodiness.
it's true that under the influence of alcohol, people tend to divulge more stuff.
hahaha think i was blabbering way too much just now. not anything juicy (nothing those peeps don't know i suppose!) but it's just that i couldn't stop talking. haha!
well there's the high, and now it's back to the low.
the low of work and projects.
the low of some other stuff..
just a niggling pain in the background. easily tuned out though.
i really don't know what i'm doing sometimes. no, make that most of the times.
but yeaaah.
-shrugs-
oh my god. i think I AM CRAZZZZYYYYY. I NEED A SHRINK. I NEED HELP.
i think i'm still woozy from the booze. hence the nonsensical blog entry. ;)
pictures tomorrow!
it's true that under the influence of alcohol, people tend to divulge more stuff.
hahaha think i was blabbering way too much just now. not anything juicy (nothing those peeps don't know i suppose!) but it's just that i couldn't stop talking. haha!
well there's the high, and now it's back to the low.
the low of work and projects.
the low of some other stuff..
just a niggling pain in the background. easily tuned out though.
i really don't know what i'm doing sometimes. no, make that most of the times.
but yeaaah.
-shrugs-
oh my god. i think I AM CRAZZZZYYYYY. I NEED A SHRINK. I NEED HELP.
i think i'm still woozy from the booze. hence the nonsensical blog entry. ;)
pictures tomorrow!
posted by mian at 1:23 AM | Permalink |