had the weirdest dream ever.
alright. probably not WEIRD WEIRD per se.
but more of, alright that was something that is never likely to happen.
probably a true reflection of what i wanted from you - for you to treat me the same way i treat you. just that simple.
but, it was an unrealistic dream. and those are unrealistic wishes.
don't worry.
the only reason i'm feeling sad it's because i feel stupid.
nothing more. i know how all these probably sound.
hahaha.
off to mahjong! ;)
writing is a socially accepted form of schizophrenia
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
yes, the exams are over, which means i can officially type on my
alright, and backtracking a couple of weeks back where me chua jit and xin mei went to orchard to buy kesmond's present.
chua jit tricked me into going back for vjco practice before the shopping trip, so i sat there stupidly reading my 213 textbook while the orchestra played on. -_-
guess who's on the phone with chua jit? HAHAHA. ok lah in case xin mei doesn't remember, it's her. hahaha.
and so this marks the end of my 1000th post.
it's 3.39am and i'm munching on Banana Nut Crunch. later, i can wake up by myself and not be shocked awake by my ringtone. FINALLY i can have a full eight hours of sleep!
two weeks to PA :( precious two weeks of holidays!
1000TH POST!!
gosh. my blog has come a long long way since i started it back in the jc days. (march 2004. OMG IT'S BEEN FOUR YEARS AND ALMOST TWO MONTHS!) it started off as a place where i would type my daily complaints about school life (where my english was just so terrible it's a torture to read now), and somehow became such an integrated part of my life today that i think i honestly will cry if blogger ever shuts down. :(
anywho! it's been a torturous two weeks as per usual. 213 was a complete disaster and i went home heartbroken, and concluded that the module was just destined to be cursed by a certain person -scowls- accounting was erm, odd. 214 was ambigious and 215, even i am horrified by the amount of studying i did for the module. TWO DAYS. TWO DAYS ALRIGHT. this is the first time i have put such little effort into any paper, and although it is probably due to the fact that we could prepare our answers beforehand, but still. i have zero recollection of what i have learned from Marketing Channels, and today essentially was just a go-in-and-copy-my-answers-onto-the-paper session. halfway through the paper i felt so bored i was tempted to go to the toilet just for the heck of it. i know. i can't believe it either. and the best thing is, i can't even gauge my results for the stupid module because the tutor didn't release the coursework grades. but yes, all ready for my gpa to drop drastically this semester. but no matter, because year three will be the year i make a comeback with all my electives. heh.
anywho! it's been a torturous two weeks as per usual. 213 was a complete disaster and i went home heartbroken, and concluded that the module was just destined to be cursed by a certain person -scowls- accounting was erm, odd. 214 was ambigious and 215, even i am horrified by the amount of studying i did for the module. TWO DAYS. TWO DAYS ALRIGHT. this is the first time i have put such little effort into any paper, and although it is probably due to the fact that we could prepare our answers beforehand, but still. i have zero recollection of what i have learned from Marketing Channels, and today essentially was just a go-in-and-copy-my-answers-onto-the-paper session. halfway through the paper i felt so bored i was tempted to go to the toilet just for the heck of it. i know. i can't believe it either. and the best thing is, i can't even gauge my results for the stupid module because the tutor didn't release the coursework grades. but yes, all ready for my gpa to drop drastically this semester. but no matter, because year three will be the year i make a comeback with all my electives. heh.
so! the 1000th post would need to include all the photos that were taken the past few weeks and have yet to be updated.
starting first:
214 group right before marcom audit presentation! completely nerve-wrecking. we got just a B+ but well, we did have loads of fun doing the project :)
yuezhen, peisee, xinwei and aaron!
accounting group right after the accounting paper!
wahhaha. posing like we got A for the report. yuezhen peisee me and derek. yes i know. ANOTHER derek. next time when mentioning dereks please do it with the surname, if not i'm going to have to ask you which one. hahaha. (case in point, i didn't realise which derek/derrick peisee was talking about until about 3 minutes into the conversation when i finally remembered the surname of the one she was talking about, which was obviously different from the one i thought she was talking about. hahah quite funny)
early birthday celebration for yuezhen! happy 23rd my cute fyp mate!! :)
me and my dearest 恶心的after lunch at IMM after the paper today. yes only got two of us because the rest either has papers or need to go home :( we had a nice long relaxing lunch at cartel, just chilling out after the horrendous two weeks and gossiping and bitching about people. heh.
alright, and backtracking a couple of weeks back where me chua jit and xin mei went to orchard to buy kesmond's present.
chua jit tricked me into going back for vjco practice before the shopping trip, so i sat there stupidly reading my 213 textbook while the orchestra played on. -_-
guess who's on the phone with chua jit? HAHAHA. ok lah in case xin mei doesn't remember, it's her. hahaha.
wahahhahahaahaha. no wonder you two are the co-stars for my Whisper ad! ;)
forcing mj to try all the clothes that we were contemplating as presents. yes i know the bottom left one is sticking out but i just wanted to make it a collage of four.
day of the actual celebration:
mj wrapping the present most dilligently. it looks damn lok-kok but loads of effort put in alright!
jiayin looks so happy. i WONDER WHY. ;)
AIYA. TL BIRTHDAY WHAT. WHAT'S NOT TO BE HAPPY ABOUT RIGHT! :):)
dinner was at Rosti at Leisure Park
birthday boy!
HAHA.
then it was just another round of photo-taking.
headed over to the kallang bridge for awhile.
hahahha. courtesy of zhi!
and so this marks the end of my 1000th post.
it's 3.39am and i'm munching on Banana Nut Crunch. later, i can wake up by myself and not be shocked awake by my ringtone. FINALLY i can have a full eight hours of sleep!
two weeks to PA :( precious two weeks of holidays!
posted by mian at 12:10 AM | Permalink |
Sunday, April 13, 2008
i don't think i can handle any more of this.
but i must go back to my books.
i look forward to the sanctuary of sleep.
it's wednesday morning at 1.53am and i'm ridiculously bored of studying. i don't know exactly what i'm studying for 213. the notes are ridiculously brief and the textbooks don't tally with the notes in the slightest bit. makes me wonder why i even bought them in the first place.
anyway i'm just going to keep updating in this post because.. well you can't just waste your 1000th post like that! :)
and since i'm so horribly bored and tired, i check these websites every couple of hours just so i don't kneel over and die on my notes.
The Superficial
PerezHilton
AwfulPlasticSurgery
GoFugYourself
endless mindlessly entertaining Hollywood crap. heh heh.
12 more days to the end of year 2!! less than 2 weeks but oh god, the process of having to endure through it :(
i may dread taking the results this time round, but i think the thing i dread more is when you come around wanting to compare them.
reminder to self: don't answer the phone.
-scowls-
anyway i think the results of the accounting report shocked, no, sorry, HORRIFIED the entire cohort. average grade was B- and there were so many people standing around with stunned expressions on their faces. just in my class alone, out of 6 groups, there were Cs, Ds, and one F. so i'd like to hereby thank all the gods that we had jiayin and Good Friend's reports. THANKS DEARS. if not i think it's unlikely that we would have escaped from the same deathtrap, because some of these results came from groups which are really damn good (ie those that actually have a clue about what's going in the module and participate every lesson).
not once in nbs have i seen such grades, and they really had to give it right after the paper (which unfortunately wasn't as hard as we expected, which would therefore translate into LITTLE MODERATION DAMNIT. i don't get it. the stupid paper just seems to get easier and easier every semester. the paper from yuexin's semester was tough, and the one before that was ridiculous. maybe they finally saw that setting siao papers made no sense since they had to moderate anyway.) sheesh. you really can't expect so much when the companies are all non-profit organizations and they don't have financial reports and they refuse to provide you with any information, leaving you with practically nothing to analyze.
well anyway, thanks jiayin! we owe this B+ to you guys! :)
99 words
eh not bad alright. hahaha. and yes i am bored. bored of 214. i am therefore screwed. this semester is such a screw up.
thursday morning 2.56am. gosh. i am woozy with exhaustion. 215 has seriously got to be the most boring part of marketing, ever. WHO GIVES A CRAP ABOUT CHANNELS?! I DONT!
okay wrong mentality. i heart 214 and 215 and therefore it shall heart me back :)
and anyway I LOVE MAMBO MUSIC! downloading all the tracks i know and it's keeping me awake!
your presence. it threw me off balance.
BM 214 was yet another AB112.
what i do will probably never matter. because the very simple fact may be just that
i don't look like her.
suddenly i feel very taken for granted for, and i actually feel damn sad.
i hate degenerating friendships.
posted by mian at 12:49 AM | Permalink |
Thursday, April 10, 2008
the blues have not lifted significantly.
i really cannot wait for this semester to end.
the people just get more and more realistic each day.
i can tell you don't think much of me. it's so damn obvious.
i see the surprise registering in your face when you know of the news. oh yeah, i'm on par/better than you. really need to be so shocked? who cares whether you think i'm not better than you? it's enough that the tutor thinks so yes? and yes, i'm similarly not impressed by you as well. never have been, not going to be, especially not now. cmon lah, don't try to come and look down at me at something which i know i'm good at. it's been pretty obvious alright? my one-man show was sufficient to take on your group work, and win it.
results just bring out the worst in everyone. it's one thing to bring out your competitive streak, but another issue altogether when you reach the extent of being reluctant to extend help (WHEN YOU ARE OBLIGED TO) and being conceited about it.
sick sick sick sick SICK of all these people.
what's wrong with all these marketing people?
either they free-ride as they damn well please or they are so SLUCK.
argh!
i really cannot wait for this semester to end.
the people just get more and more realistic each day.
i can tell you don't think much of me. it's so damn obvious.
i see the surprise registering in your face when you know of the news. oh yeah, i'm on par/better than you. really need to be so shocked? who cares whether you think i'm not better than you? it's enough that the tutor thinks so yes? and yes, i'm similarly not impressed by you as well. never have been, not going to be, especially not now. cmon lah, don't try to come and look down at me at something which i know i'm good at. it's been pretty obvious alright? my one-man show was sufficient to take on your group work, and win it.
results just bring out the worst in everyone. it's one thing to bring out your competitive streak, but another issue altogether when you reach the extent of being reluctant to extend help (WHEN YOU ARE OBLIGED TO) and being conceited about it.
sick sick sick sick SICK of all these people.
what's wrong with all these marketing people?
either they free-ride as they damn well please or they are so SLUCK.
argh!
posted by mian at 11:45 PM | Permalink |
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
i'm feeling.. particularly down.
it's been a particularly difficult semester.
and xinwei and i had a long chat today on the way home about the people in marketing and project group mates. we concluded how important it is to choose your group mates correctly. and even when working with friends, sometimes, people just don't turn out the way they used to be.
she mentioned that during their 213 class yesterday, how united that （可恶的）shuxian's group (haha. that adjective i add one lah :P) seemed to be, and how happy they were working together. and i think, we're both really envious of that. sorry, scratch that for me. i'm freakin' jealous :( hahaha.
and then suddenly i'm overwhelmed with how much i missed my AB112 group :( that was the ONE group in my entire nbs life, that i truly loved working with. i had absolutely no qualms about meeting them at the ulu-ated bukit panjang for project meetings, even though we would do projects until 11+ at night and me and Good Friend would have to run for the last bus home. i had no problems meeting them almost every day for discussions even though i had other modules to take care of. i didn't care that my life was all about marketing. because i loved the people i was working with, i loved the group dynamics, i loved how we would start laughing over nothing and not stop even 1/2 hour later. i loved how we always produced excellent work, which was such a boost to our group morale. and this made working with them, not seem like working in the tiniest bit.
and i have not been in such a group ever since. sure i've been in groups with some of my favourite people, but it just never seemed to replicate the spirit of my old AB112 group. the sense of belongingness to the group, the pride you take in the work you produce. well you could blame it on the fact that we have not had intensive projects up til this semester, but somehow i think no other group would come quite so close anymore.
3 intensive modules this semester, and the one time that i actually felt that i'm enjoying what i'm doing was preparing for the final marcom audit for 214. we actually had fun doing all the ads and recommendations together, and for the first time in the whole year in marketing that i felt i'm finally doing something i love: brainstorming for ideas, analysing, anticipating arguments, putting your heart and soul into something you believe in. but still, the group just didnt get to bond towards the end, so it was still lacking in unity.
as for 215, well quite obviously none of us had any liking for the stupid module, and that module was definitely not as intensive as the other two, so we didn't exactly put it on top of any of our priorities.
and coming to 213. i think it's going to be one very sore spot in my nbs life. i have to be honest. i ACTUALLY LIKE the module. i ACTUALLY like markstrat. i think it's really interesting, useful and it's definitely going to help with my revision because of all the hours of analysing i've put in. but all my hard work obviously came to naught. also for the very first time in nbs, i felt so.. helpless. week after week, you die a little inside as you watch your hard work sink further into nothing, and i guess this is what made me extremely resentful, and oh, don't get me wrong, i'm still resentful, up til now. i'm just no longer angry. i actually like the people. i'm just sad that i actually had to go through all that shit in the beginning, and i couldn't do anything to salvage the situation. and i'm also extremely disappointed because all my hard work has obviously gone down the drain. and this hard work is not going to reflect in my grades.
talking about 213, two extremely important lessons can be drawn. number one, CHOOSE your team mates wisely. and when you are not able to choose (like me) INSIST YOUR WAY THROUGH. DIE ALSO MUST DO WITH PEOPLE YOU WANT TO DO WITH.
number two, and speaking of this makes my blood boil a little, sometimes, even the people you think are friends, can be so Scared to Lose Until Chao Kuan ie. SLUCK(quoting from our friend Joseph who has a thesis on this. apparently a great number of nbs people are prone to falling into this category) when you have gained something from me, i expect you to reciprocate. it's that simple. i have offered you help, and when the times call for you to help me, it's the natural law in order that you do the same for me. and i absolutely cannot stand it when you are so SLUCK.
so.. we come to the end of this long draggy semester.
somehow i feel like i've come out of it a little smarter and sharper about the people around me.
but also, i'm just sad and tired on how things have turned out.
it's odd, because even the individual assignment for 214 didnt cheer me up substantially. (well, seeing how my tutor was giving away B+ and A- like free, i think i only felt relieved, and not exactly ecstatic that i got A+. eh damnit all the hard work alright! and of course dearest mol's contribution. LOVE YOU!)
what a long time-wasting post.
but at least i got everything off my chest.
now it's time to settle down and start some intensive mugging.
gotta kick some 102/213/214/215 ass. :)
it's been a particularly difficult semester.
and xinwei and i had a long chat today on the way home about the people in marketing and project group mates. we concluded how important it is to choose your group mates correctly. and even when working with friends, sometimes, people just don't turn out the way they used to be.
she mentioned that during their 213 class yesterday, how united that （可恶的）shuxian's group (haha. that adjective i add one lah :P) seemed to be, and how happy they were working together. and i think, we're both really envious of that. sorry, scratch that for me. i'm freakin' jealous :( hahaha.
and then suddenly i'm overwhelmed with how much i missed my AB112 group :( that was the ONE group in my entire nbs life, that i truly loved working with. i had absolutely no qualms about meeting them at the ulu-ated bukit panjang for project meetings, even though we would do projects until 11+ at night and me and Good Friend would have to run for the last bus home. i had no problems meeting them almost every day for discussions even though i had other modules to take care of. i didn't care that my life was all about marketing. because i loved the people i was working with, i loved the group dynamics, i loved how we would start laughing over nothing and not stop even 1/2 hour later. i loved how we always produced excellent work, which was such a boost to our group morale. and this made working with them, not seem like working in the tiniest bit.
and i have not been in such a group ever since. sure i've been in groups with some of my favourite people, but it just never seemed to replicate the spirit of my old AB112 group. the sense of belongingness to the group, the pride you take in the work you produce. well you could blame it on the fact that we have not had intensive projects up til this semester, but somehow i think no other group would come quite so close anymore.
3 intensive modules this semester, and the one time that i actually felt that i'm enjoying what i'm doing was preparing for the final marcom audit for 214. we actually had fun doing all the ads and recommendations together, and for the first time in the whole year in marketing that i felt i'm finally doing something i love: brainstorming for ideas, analysing, anticipating arguments, putting your heart and soul into something you believe in. but still, the group just didnt get to bond towards the end, so it was still lacking in unity.
as for 215, well quite obviously none of us had any liking for the stupid module, and that module was definitely not as intensive as the other two, so we didn't exactly put it on top of any of our priorities.
and coming to 213. i think it's going to be one very sore spot in my nbs life. i have to be honest. i ACTUALLY LIKE the module. i ACTUALLY like markstrat. i think it's really interesting, useful and it's definitely going to help with my revision because of all the hours of analysing i've put in. but all my hard work obviously came to naught. also for the very first time in nbs, i felt so.. helpless. week after week, you die a little inside as you watch your hard work sink further into nothing, and i guess this is what made me extremely resentful, and oh, don't get me wrong, i'm still resentful, up til now. i'm just no longer angry. i actually like the people. i'm just sad that i actually had to go through all that shit in the beginning, and i couldn't do anything to salvage the situation. and i'm also extremely disappointed because all my hard work has obviously gone down the drain. and this hard work is not going to reflect in my grades.
talking about 213, two extremely important lessons can be drawn. number one, CHOOSE your team mates wisely. and when you are not able to choose (like me) INSIST YOUR WAY THROUGH. DIE ALSO MUST DO WITH PEOPLE YOU WANT TO DO WITH.
number two, and speaking of this makes my blood boil a little, sometimes, even the people you think are friends, can be so Scared to Lose Until Chao Kuan ie. SLUCK(quoting from our friend Joseph who has a thesis on this. apparently a great number of nbs people are prone to falling into this category) when you have gained something from me, i expect you to reciprocate. it's that simple. i have offered you help, and when the times call for you to help me, it's the natural law in order that you do the same for me. and i absolutely cannot stand it when you are so SLUCK.
so.. we come to the end of this long draggy semester.
somehow i feel like i've come out of it a little smarter and sharper about the people around me.
but also, i'm just sad and tired on how things have turned out.
it's odd, because even the individual assignment for 214 didnt cheer me up substantially. (well, seeing how my tutor was giving away B+ and A- like free, i think i only felt relieved, and not exactly ecstatic that i got A+. eh damnit all the hard work alright! and of course dearest mol's contribution. LOVE YOU!)
what a long time-wasting post.
but at least i got everything off my chest.
now it's time to settle down and start some intensive mugging.
gotta kick some 102/213/214/215 ass. :)
posted by mian at 10:37 PM | Permalink |
Saturday, April 05, 2008
i'm starting to freak out about exams because for the first time in 4 semesters, i have not made a single DENT in any of my textbooks (save for accounting, but that's only because we are forced to) ok fact is, the exams don't really have THAT massive an impact on the grades because, well, let's see, percentages for exams are as follows: 213 = 40%, 214, FREAKING 33% and 215 = 50%. but STILL. jeez. the stress of having to maintain my GPA!!
yes i look damn tall 'cos i'm in heels. hahah.
and after yesterday's party, i realised how much i wanted to have a birthday party as well, (after being all wishy washy about it because i'm too lazy to go and book the place) because only then would i get to celebrate my birthday with all the people i love, and how terrific it would be to have all of them at one place at one time! :)
full gear ahead starting sunday!!
anyway it was shuxian's birthday party today! at freakin'-ulu-bukit batok! we nearly got lost on the way and i think i was bitten by a million mosquitoes. but no choice lah, have to be there 'cos it's my dearest FYP mate's birthday party alright!
loads of yummy food!
peisee barbeques. but nobody dares to eat what she barbequed. haha.
dinner was SUPER HILARIOUS because we sat around gossiping about guys in our classes, and they insisted on narrowing down all the guys to find potentials for me. YAH THANKS. but it was funny like hell because well, well, they ARE pretty accurate! ;)
marketing girls! ahahha and that yuezhen! GOSH!!
yes i look damn tall 'cos i'm in heels. hahah.and after yesterday's party, i realised how much i wanted to have a birthday party as well, (after being all wishy washy about it because i'm too lazy to go and book the place) because only then would i get to celebrate my birthday with all the people i love, and how terrific it would be to have all of them at one place at one time! :)
posted by mian at 2:08 AM | Permalink |
Friday, April 04, 2008
hoifai's belated birthday dinner with the 2j peeps! :) it's always a joy to meet up with them because there's nothing we don't talk and bitch about, and their company is so comfortable :)
dinner at waraku and dessert at cafe cartel.
HAHAHAHHAHA.
and anyway there's going to be quite a number of unusually act-cute pictures.. so, you gotta just bear with it. hahahaha.
dinner at waraku and dessert at cafe cartel.
we all had something green on!
WONDERFUL TEMPURA ICE CREAM!
camwhoring even in the toilet. heh heh ber says rijia looks scary in the above photo.
HAHAHA. i know. i'm not usually that crazy. but we do love our dresses! ;) and we're colour coordinated!
wil refuses to indulge in our moment of madness.
camwhoring even on the way home.
and i found this particularly amusing site. heh heh
HAHAHAHHAHA.
ok i know that's shameless. heh. i promise i will only do it for other people's photos from now on. hahahaha.
and yuexin had the chance to see my Charming Guy and she refused and decided to go home to sleep :(
posted by mian at 2:24 AM | Permalink |
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
FINALLY i have a chance to take a break from all the projects and whatnots!!
and and.. i think i'm starting to understand jiayin's logic that a guy's charm can exist outside of his looks! ;) (ah yin! not saying -ahem- is ugly alright! you know i think he's okay! heh)
i'm rather charmed! so that's why i say, sometimes all a guy needs is to be tall and hilarious.
heh heh.
215 is complete, so is 214. markstrat is over and done with!!! YEHAA! and so that leaves us with just one more 213 presentation on monday :):)
it's been a hectic 2 weeks, especially the past weekends.
and even though it wasn't a perfect 214 presentation today (sighhhhhhh. yes with all the effort we've put in, we definitely expected a perfect presentation) but it was still one of the most fun projects i've done so far (the advertisements were definitely the highlight of the whole project. heh heh ;)) and it's still good that the tutor recognised the effort we put in :)
okok. must credit my two leads, chua jit and xin mei! thanks for your chemistry that produced such a cute ad that was widely well received. HAHAHA.
oh yeah and thanks xin mei for the wonderfully appropriate background music! and of course jiayin for her house and her help with the camera when i was laughing too hard to hold the camera steady!
anybody who STILL hasnt seen the much talked-about ad (ahem) please let me know and i'll send it to you. heehee. mj and xinmei.. you all 一夜成名already lah.
anyway since i've been so goshdarn busy the past few weeks, i completely forgot to update on leed's 21st!
just some of the pics that night!
and leed! i wanna book your function room for my birthday, can or not! :)
dhsco! :)
of course, the end of projects would mark the beginning of mugging for exams. i cannot repeat enough how FAST this semester has passed by. it's especially, freakishly fast this semester, what with all the weekly projects and presentations!
and at the end of my year 2, and a recent incident, i can conclude that there's a unfortunately large portion of marketing people who are either free-riders or stupid, or both. and if that recent incident has taught me anything, is that these people who belong to both categories, are usually also people who think that they have done absolutely nothing wrong, and act like they have every single right to free-ride, and then go complain to the tutor when they think they can get away with it. DISGUSTING! you people DISGUST me. that's why in marketing, choose your group mates wisely, if not there's bound to be one or two of these people in your group, and THEN you'd know what's hell.
and and.. i think i'm starting to understand jiayin's logic that a guy's charm can exist outside of his looks! ;) (ah yin! not saying -ahem- is ugly alright! you know i think he's okay! heh)
i'm rather charmed! so that's why i say, sometimes all a guy needs is to be tall and hilarious.
heh heh.
posted by mian at 2:45 AM | Permalink |