Sunday, October 31, 2004
i wanna go home.. *whines
well, theoretically speaking, i Am home. i AM at a house with all my belongings where i will be staying for the nxt 2 months a la Home.
so what am i complaining about?
nothing much. i'm just finding something to type so the blog remains updated
mwahahaha.
i'm so bo liao. (look ma! chinese words!)
but anyway i really wanna go to the house where i have been staying for the past 17 years.
this place aint all that nice.
*crapping
okay time to go out.
pw's ending soon!
*throws confetti into the air
east zone camp starting soon!
*whoops for joy!
 
posted by mian at 1:18 PM | Permalink |
Thursday, October 28, 2004
still grouchy.
*narrows eyes at the irritating people
i've got claws n i'm not afraid to use 'em!
kidding.
anyway rest assured i'd be fine and dandy after next tuesday.

surreal feeling.
i'm not at my old house now. renovations starting this sat! yay.
boy am i grateful we cld find this house opp. my old house?
convenient.
but it still feels weird.
like a hotel. woooo.
interesting.
anyway eyes hurting.
gotta rush.
be back tmr!
 
posted by mian at 10:27 PM | Permalink |
Wednesday, October 27, 2004
very very grouchy right now.
*bares teeth and snarls
all the irritating little people not welcomed in my life
back off!

*wonders abt the s35 people
are you all still at terri's house doing pw??
don't treat it as a hotel!

alright. back to grouchy mode.
get lost!

just realised today how many annoying people there are
or perhaps they only surface when i'm in a bad mood
whatever
i can't complain here eh, blog's not private
pw's pissing the hell out of me
some people are so pretenious
some people think they're so great
some people exist solely to spoil my day
what a bloody lousy wednesday this is
thank goodness for the appearance of the s35peeps n the company of mandy
is it too late for me to change class now??
har har har.
well whatever it is, straight face, no emotions. keep it cool.
fabulous. 9am op tmr. not that we don't need it.
have i mentioned that i detest pw? and a little something more?
 
posted by mian at 10:08 PM | Permalink |
Sunday, October 24, 2004
my irritating little cough on friday night actually skipped all the way from being a mere cough to a full-blown-viral-infection-fever over night. complete with sore throat and running nose.
faster than i thought it would take eh?
why do i have this amazing ability to predict unfortunate happenings??
in case you're actually interested/bored out of your wits, this was what happened.

saturday:
7 plus: i wake up and thought, ok this isnt good. i don't feel good man. temp check: 37.8 (what the hell! my norm body temp is usually 36.3!) huh gardening? what gardening??
8 plus: (no medication yet) okay i'm feeling worse by the minute. temp check: 38.2 (oh dear)
9 plus: (after two panadol and a cup of some chinese medicine) temp check: 37.8
1 plus: ( i got woken up by mj and jy calling me) temp check: 36.7 (miraculous recovery! i'm feeling remotely human again)
4 plus: i go back for a nap
7 plus: uhoh. why am i feeling so damn cold again. temp check: 37.9 (huh?? what happened to my miraculous recovery??)
9 plus: temp check: 38.7 (this is NOT good)
11 plus: i have just reached an all time high of body temperature ladies and gentleman! and yes it's a record breaking of 39.1 degrees! my face is burning and my vision actually turned a little blur! i need to see the doctor tomorrow!

this morning:
8 plus: temp check: 38.4 (panadol had no effect whatsoever)
10 plus: doc takes my temperature. 39.0 again. gave me a jab. plus a whole array of medicine. i take all of them and goes home to sleep.
2 plus: i wake up. whew. 37.5.

so i actually have MC for tmorrow. but there's OP rehearsal unfortunately. can't possibly skip that. pray for me that i wouldnt be coughing all the way through it.

 
posted by mian at 7:13 PM | Permalink |
Friday, October 22, 2004
i changed the template. hoho. arent you all proud of me?
yes it's still linkin park.
hell no am i ever going to change to a sweet little pink oh-so-cutesy template.
this is a hell lot nicer.

i suddenly thought of this. is it me or all ah lians look the same??
long rebonded hair with fringe/side parting
big eyes with heavily mascared lashes and thick eyeliner
highly defined eyebrows
when they pose for the cam, they like to open their eyes bigger (as if it's not scary enough) then pout (what's wrong with opening your mouth and giving a nice grin??)
oh complete with the peace sign.
i'm sorry, but i think i'm seeing the same person everytime i see these people.
what's up with that!
oh oh wat's more. they usually like to wear big pink tees (from pmk) with an ultra short mini. (oh tt's redundant. an ultra short skirt FLARED then)
you've seen them around i'd bet.
thank heavens there arent any sort of people arnd in vjc.
they irritate me with their loud nonsensical chattering, spewing vulgarities left and right.
which reminds me of those at bedok mac. hell. those girls are barely 16 n they're already smoking, skipping school hanging around aimlessly the whole day.
don't you just feel so sorry for them?
they're so gonna regret wasting their lives in this way years down the road.

anyway. i am supposed to be sleeping right now.
i have been coughing the whole stupid day and i think my lungs are kinda bruised right now. ouch.
i know where this is leading.
sore throat.
cough.
running nose.
tada! fever!
alright. sleep girl sleep.

 
posted by mian at 11:39 PM | Permalink |
random musings
i'm not feeling very funny today. so i'm just gonna type what comes to mind.

this is so the last time i'm ever watching horror movies.
bahh. 90% of the time watching the grudge was i squinting at the screen and plugging into my discman.
ok i admit it. horror shows do not go down well with me. i'm easily freaked out.
other than that, all you brave souls out there, if u have nothing better to do, just go watch it because it aint scary at all. not for u guys.
haha. the class was boo-ing when the show ended. it's that bad.

i finally plucked up the courage to pull out my earrings.
aint fun i tell you. when it finally got pulled out, i realised that, i cut my ear.
yeowch. there was blood alright. freaky.
thank goodness it went fine for the other ear.
now i have nice sliver dangling ones. heh.

i made somebody laugh today. somebody who usually doesnt do that.
boy was i pleased with myself. not an easy feat i tell you.
i'm glad i could make somebody smile. *ding! big grin

anybody realised today's the last official day of school??
like i have said so many times before, how did time pass by so quickly??
doesnt it seem like orientation was just months over?
and midyrs? it seemed so yesterday.
chanks is right. jc life is too short. not that i'm complaining.
reflections tomorrow.
right now my headache's still annoying me.

wanted to go tpjc's open house today!
as usual sigh, nobody could go with me.
why do i want to go u ask? haha. evil intentions as usual.
by the time we left PS it was already four plus n there was absolutely no way i could reach TP by 5. n heck no was i going there alone!
so i was feeling rather sorry for missing the open house when i was walking home.
then lo and behold who should appear from the lift!
woohoo. i was smirking to myself i tell you. haha.

alrighty. i need sleep.


 
posted by mian at 9:31 PM | Permalink |
Thursday, October 21, 2004
do pardon me, but i'm feeling cranky once again.

word of advice: it's erm, not really a good idea to tell your friend that you'd call him/her later to meet up then proceed to conveniently forget all about it/don't even bother to call, making your friend wait for ages for your dumb phone call.
no no, not a good idea at all, because usually people just get fed up and storm home.
then proceed to get all cranky and mad and subsequently spend the next 3 hours ranting and raving on his/her blog, SUBSEQUENTLY missing singapore idol AND the champions. he/she will then get all the more pissed off.
So? remember, don't do that to anybody. it's not really nice, not to mention the lack of basic courtesy.
who me? don't look at me! nothing happened.

i was feeling bloody lousy this whole afternoon thanks to the lack of 1/2 a mark to push my econs up a grade.
mr ueng was nice enough to take my paper back to check if he could help, but i guess you don't usually give 1/2 marks for essays.
thanks a lot to some people. "huh? u need a half a mark ah? to pass?"
shut your mouth.
i don't need that bloody 1/2 mark to pass. oh i'm so sorry, it's not even to a D.
don't look down on me, i'll prove all of you wrong one of these days.

guess my holidays would be spent reading more newspapers and other intellectual stuff. *chuckles
that's what mr chew adviced me and jam to do today, so that we would be able to push for an A by next yr for gp, and not just remain stagnant at the b3 grade.
definitely going to listen to that. his advice is never ever wrong.
and it was really inspirational and a great motivation.
how many tutors actually bother to give u advice like this??
just when i thought i totally suck at all the subjects, gp brought me great hope.
(do keep in mind that i have almost lost hope with all my other subjects but we can leave that aside)
yes so what if it's not an A level subject.
you can't exactly take S papers with a lousy grade in GP even if you have 4As can you?
WORK hard on my gp!!
i heard today someone with 4As getting a C6 for GP and was all pissed.
i don't exactly feel very sorry for that person because apparently she was being bloody snobbish, going around telling everybody she got 4As. come to think of it, she was ALREADY telling people she got yada yada how many As even before the results were out.
*zips mouth. i aint saying anything.

i'm getting crankier by the minute.
i'm also that teeny bit of depressed again.
listening to christina aguilera's the voice within.
that song. always never fails to make me tear.
especially on a day like this.
not so emotionally ready as i thought i would be i guess!

oh man. i have the same necklace douglas oliverio has. *look of horror
ahh. that's what "i don't wanna miss a thing" should sound like. finally, somebody who can carry off that song decently. slyvester is CoOl.


 
posted by mian at 7:12 PM | Permalink |
Wednesday, October 20, 2004
typing this at mj's house yet again. this time with the S35 people. oh and silly patrick's girlfriend charlene haha. they're all playing cards n i'm just bored out of mind.

ANYWAY. many people have told me that my previous previous entry may seriously piss off people. yes yes i do realise the implications of typing that entry. but sigh. i aint referring to anybody... *big innocent eyes. besides if anybody thinks i'm referring to them, doesnt that mean they're admitting to being that sort of people?? *mock gasp of horror

ANWAY. can people for goodness' sake, STOP stereotyping dunmanians?? too many people have stereotyped dhs peeps as being those chinese-speaking, lousy-at-gp, only-listens-to-5566-or-F4-songs (patrick oh patrick when will you ever learn??) people. sorry. i don't fit the bill :D besides the chinese speaking part, i can proudly say i'm an effectively billingual, listen-to-english-songs-only dunmanian. so THERE! i'm sick of hearing stuff like, "oh dunman high, so cheena" and "i thought you're from dunman? how come you listen to english songs also?" erm, like 98.7's there for everyone to listen tO? besides, patrick, i think many dunmanians in S2 won you in gp. *evil smile
and yet another stereotype? thinking that dunmanians should do fabulously well for their exams and expressing surprise at my atrocious results.
i forgot who it was, but after the midyrs, somebody actually said this to me n jam. "oh so you all are one of those not very smart dunman people right?" i could have punched that idiot. so WHAT if we were frm dhs, doesnt mean anything. PSLE is a total screwup and cannot be used to judged your intellectual level. ok so my brain developed earlier but unfortunately now it's kinda in the stagnant mode.
wilfred told me that the only two people qualified to take S papers in his class are frm bedok view sec. think about that ok. STOP judging us by our sec sch!

mj wonders why i have some much to say evryday, so much to type on my blog.
i dunno? perhaps i have the tendency to pick up little details and make a mountain out of a molehill?
anyway, i am forever grateful to mr chew han ei the best gp teacher in VJC!
it was he who asked us to keep a journal (ie this blog) and it totally saved my gp (and subsequently my reputation as a chinese-speaking, lousy-at-gp dunmanian) don't believe me? go ahead, take a look at my old entries. i TOTALLY type like i can't write a gp essay to save my life. and now, gp saved my ass.
do i sound like i'm gloating?
nope. i'm just so darn grateful to mr chew.
but psssst, if i do sound like i'm gloating, it's to all those ppl who think that all dunmanians suck a GP! nyah nyah nyah.
just kidding.

Anyway, at shuai ge's house again. This time there is another shuai ge(self claimed). Today is such a slack there, was lying on the bed for the whole afternoon. Patrick thought that i was dead. I am like part of 04S35 now, think that it's such a fun class! thinking of 04S22, haiz~ nvm, i see myself more incline towards that cool class!!! All my good friends are from there! love it! Oh, we played an interesting mathematics game just now, it was damn fun. I performed quite well, just like mj! think i am more like a F maths student now!! maths wo lai le!!!

*sighs heavily.
dear dear, you couldnt have POSSIBLY thought that was typed by me could you????
when will you learn my dear friend, that i DO NOT use words like 'haiz', much less with that silly sign behind that!! and erm, i don't use hanyu pinyin either. and seriously? i'm like a f maths student??
hahahaha. try harder next time to impersonate me chuamingjie.
 
posted by mian at 6:59 PM | Permalink |
Tuesday, October 19, 2004
hallo i'm back again

i do realise what i said in my previous entries could piss over sensitive people off (ie they think i'm referring to them) get real. i aint referring to anybody. i just happened to think in that way, happy?
anyway i oso realised that evrytime i read xiaxue's blog i start to get offensive myself.
so i think, ok since i'm in the mood, LET's get offensive!

kidding.
but anyway here's a list which i have been wanting to compile for very long. (inspired by xiaxue)

Things from people's blog that totally IRKS me:
1. people who loveZ to addz on alphabetZ to the end of evErYz singlEz worDz even though they serve no purposez and makez no sensez. very fun izzitzz?? hahax.
2. pEopLE WhO tYpe In thIS wAy tHRouGhOuT thEir EntIre blOg, cUz it'S juSt Too BoRinG wiTh oNly SingLe CapS! LeT'S sPiCe Up Our LIveS wiTh a MiXtuRe Of cAps And smAll aLphAbeTs bEcAusE it'S so DaRN aesThetiCally pleASing!
3. people who use singlish like there's no tomolo lorr. haiyox, so difficult to type properly in english u noez? singlish is the way to go la.. hehex
4. girly girly pinky pinky websites with their oh-so-cutesy cursors
5. whoever starts a private blog with 'dear diary'???

mental block. shall stop here.

 
posted by mian at 11:12 PM | Permalink |
imagine this
blogger is so darn slow.
or maybe tt's my computer's problem
whatever

anyway i just had this funniest thought which happened to pop into my head.
random thoughts
imagine there's this guy? tall good looking and is a musician. ok he sings?
then there's this girl? who's like wildly infatuated with him?
so after one particular school concert where he sings particularly well, the girl goes up to him, wide-eyed, breathless, and says, "oh my god, you were so wonderful!! so inspiring!!" (imagine high-pitched act cute sweet little girl voice, at the same time flashing her big peepers and fluttering her eye lashes)

*Vomits blood

if i WERE that guy i would have given her a "yea whatever you stupid bimbo" look
unfortunately guys are stupid and shallow and so subsequently they would probably fall in love and ride off in the sunset (cue happily ever after music)

weird random thought of the day.
but i do think ahem, some people would get the hidden joke behind this.
yea i don't care what you think man!
the thing i heard today is still disgusting and i still wanna puke!!

anyway i'm wasting space on my blog.

 
posted by mian at 10:34 PM | Permalink |
spent the last few hours reading xiaxue.blogspot.com again??
she's freaking funny man.
for the thousandth time i wish i could write like her.
then maybe i wldnt be giving a damn about failing subjects because i am better than all of you little people because i can write better and i can secure a job in the future MWAHAHAHA.

siao.

anyway. i'm still feeling annoyed with everything right now.
my contact's poking my eye.
the mp3 is screwed.
a yellow banana skin is sitting right in front of me and it looks disgusting being oxidised.
oh yes. there's school tomorrow. *sighs
another reason why i'm feeling so irritated.
because i have no idea whether to believe it or not.
and then i feel stupid.
for doing stupid things as usual.
hey she's wROnG in the first place. so why shld i even give a damn?!
just in case you know.
never mind. nobody ever understands what i'm trying to say in the first place.
high level inference skills needed. that's where your SS skills come into good use.
but whatever. you just won't understand unless i explain.

sod it. i'm blabbling again am i?
i'm so BORED. somebody entertain me please!!
i'm going to play chopin's revolutionary etude NOW!!
hey if people can go on n on about getting As for promos then i can go on n on about playing pieces YOU can never ever play cant i???
shut up girl.
anyway i can basically play about two pages of that song.
*pulls hair in frustration
 
posted by mian at 9:41 PM | Permalink |
pissed
i don't believe in using profanities on people, on my blog, anywhere else.
but some idiots really deserve to have a few hurled at them. straight at their faces.

don't try to change the truth
cuz you can't
liar liar pants on fire

seen somewhere: a sudden windfall does not equate to eternal success without consistency and hardwork.
*shrugs

i'm just really pissed off today.
please don't ask me how i did for the promos. because i'll just tell you i cant take S papers.
how very sarcastic.
but anyway i really can't take any.
i'd love to take econs S, blame it on my slow brain for not being able to do well for other subs then.
i'm just making myself more n more irritated by the moment.
some people are just so darn annoying and cocky.
look at em! with their oh-i-did-so-well-for-my-promos-i'm-gonna-take-3-S-papers, nose-in-the-air attitude
i'd like to see You survive with all of them then.
do i sound like a sore loser? perhaps. but their attitudes could do with a little cleaning up.
i still want to go to a music school.
face it i can't excel in sciences. for the millionth time, what the heck am i doing in science fac!!?
but poh says, my character n personality doesnt suit the arts fac. what does tt mean?
but anyway i think tt's true.
ok why am i even thinking abt this? i can get promoted nicely n i shld b grateful for that.
think i'd go bang on my piano for awhile.
chopin's ballade in g minor op. 23
*sticks out tongue at annoying people
i AM being childish.
 
posted by mian at 5:09 PM | Permalink |
Monday, October 18, 2004
so after those particularly suicidal sounding entries last night, i can say i'm much better. heh.
i can't say my results thrill me to bits
but at least, AT least, those which i put effort into, paid off. n i'm glad. n i'm satisfied :)

n although i felt like i could never ever be happy again, i am.
today. just for that very moment.
i was thrilled.
i practically bounced to poh. haha bet he thought i went crazy.
n jamie! was screeching to her on the phone. :)
i was in such a fab mood, tt's why i decided to go visit mj.
haha. kidding boy.
anyway u knOW i can never stay mad at you for long
which isnt good actually, cuz he's forever getting his way. blehhhh.
but for goodness sake, please please listen to me for once. i'm never wrong remember? :)
anyway this guy's gonna owe me a drink frm coffee bean
85 for chem?? 85 for phy??? 90+ for maths????
poof there goes my morale down the drain
haha. but i aint complaining. cuz he's in an easier combi
denial!
owells. it's proven ppl in my combi do the worst, so i comfort myself with that thought

oh dear i'm hungry now.
don't look at me! i had dinner at 5!

this is like one of my favourite songs of all time?
back from '99.

brandy---have you ever?

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything up to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It's makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It's makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep

Have you ever loved somebody so much
It's makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
 
posted by mian at 10:52 PM | Permalink |
oh boy.
in case u were wondering, that previous entry was by the ever childish and stupid chua ming jie.
me, being the sweet kind friend that i am decided to go visit the poor guy who was apparently sick.
of course he isnt. he just ponned school to sleep at home.
*oink oink!
haha n vincent had the same idea as me.
so now i'm still stuck at his house.
the stupid guy just doesnt want to do his written report, hence depriving his poor sister of a chance to do her work
tsktsktsk.
well anyway i gtg home.
do your work la pig!
 
posted by mian at 8:01 PM | Permalink |
hihi
Hey i am a pig!! at shuai ge's house now!! Today i pon school to go bugis! I am bad, very bad!! He is good, very good!!
 
posted by mian at 6:42 PM | Permalink |
i'm gonna do some reflections now.
weird innit?
at this time of the day?
for goodness sake girl, u got school in another 6 hrs??
whatever. if i dont do it now, chances are i wont be doing it tmr either after the shock of the results.

okay.
i'm 17.
i can be self centered sometimes but mostly i put others before myself.
n that's when i get myself hurt.
but i shouldnt go into that.
i aint that clever, that's why i dread school tomorrow.
my results suck, but i know i don't excel in this area.
i admit i'm musically inclined. n i do so proudly. sue me?
(tt's the only thing i'm good at)
i can pick up any instrument in 2weeks. challenge me?!
have i made any great achievements?
besides those in co? which arent that great anyway.
so i was a part of the committee of the best CO in singapore.
yes. syf gold twice. nmc finals yada yada. concerts blah.
anyone can match that.
i have wonderful friends. (who make up for the tons of fake people around)
those all across the jcs in singapore.
hoifai jia and wilfred.
those back in dhsco. need i list out? my darling jrs. my fellow dhsco-vjco com pals. seah n lyd!!
my study grp mates.
jam n mandy. poh. the two TCHS idiots. heh.
some of the peeps from 04S35 whom i'm so amazingly comfortable with.

i'm not the best and i don't aspire to be.
i try to love life as much as possible because life's short.
i try to ignore the shit around me but sometimes it gets too much.
i have yet to have a real aim in life.
i'm not sure what i want to be when i grow up (that sounds absolutely juvenile but you get the gist)
i would love to have a job which either involves food, writing articles or music.
which brings me down to either nutritionist, writing for magazines or being a piano teacher.
i had actually wanted to be a paeditrician (bahh. what's the spelling) but thanks to chanks i gave up on the idea.
during the very first chem tutorial this was what he said: "those of you thinking of being doctors, be prepared to study for another 15 years"
i was like, ok i give up.
that's how easily i give up on dreams sometimes.
i over analyse everything.
sometimes i think i can be a psychologist but that's a doctor too.
i think too much. sometimes i'm wrong, but most of the time i'm right.
call it a gift or a curse.
(girls are always right. guys are shallow)
i know it's irrelevant here but i love linkinpark.
not just for the heavy metal.
but because their lyrics make absolute sense.
not like some soppy love song which everybody can write anyway.
n there's a limit to which one can endure love songs.
i don't regret coming to vjc.
for the fun. the sch spirit.
sometimes i wonder if i'm actually good enough for the school.
maybe i shld have went somewhere else.
then i wont be floundering trying to survive.
but vjc had always been my dream school since pri. sch.
i had my future all planned out then. dunman. vj.
but now. the future seems unsure.
forget it.

sod it. i'm off to sleep.


 
posted by mian at 1:32 AM | Permalink |
Sunday, October 17, 2004
reality's finally starting to set in.truth's hitting hard. real real hard.
and it's so painful.it's so damn difficult you understand??
right now, i feel like i can never be happy again.
i can't start bawling in front of the computer.
my family wld think i have gone totally mental.
i've held on for too long, n when it's ripped out of your world just like that..
i can't take it.not now.not so soon.every single little thing depresses me now.
pw. the thought of having to go to school. pearl habour.
how am i going to get back my results tmr without suffering from a breakdown.
life goes on.but right now, it seemed to have come to a total stop.

guess what. i'm signing off.
don't get me involved in stupid SHIT like this cuz goddamnit this is the 2nd time i'm getting maligned for nothing.
WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME
WHY????
ok so hear me loud and clear.
i DON't GIVE A BLOODY SHIT.
don't tell me anything? i don't care. seriously. i DON'T CARE. REMEMBER THAT.i
t's not worth attracting trouble for myself. maligned!! of all the things in the world!!!!
hoo boy. so this is all the bloody thanks i get for being a good friend.
whoever said it pays to be a good friend should be shot and flogged.
good friend? bullshit.
no more friend.
i DON't GIVE A DAMN

as you all can see.
the world just collapsed around me.

i LOVE this sONG. it's so kick-ass

Verse 1
It's after midnight and she's on your phone
Sayin' come over 'cause she's all alone
I could tell it was your "ex" by your tone
But why is she callin' now after so long

B-Section
Now, what is it that she wants
Tell me what is it that she needs
Did she hear about the brand new Benz
That you just bought for me
'Cause y'all didn't have no kids
Didn't share no mutual friends
And you told me that she turned trick
When y'all broke up in `96

Hook
Whatcha gon' do when you can't say no
And her feelings start to show
Boy I really need to know
and how ya gonna act
How ya gonna handle that
Whatcha gon' do when she wants you back

Repeat Hook

Verse 2
There's no need to reminisce 'bout the past
Obviously 'cause that shit did not last
I know how a woman will try to game you
So don't get caught up because baby you'll lose

B-Section
Now what is it that she wants
Tell me what is it that she needs
Did she hear about the brand new Benz
That you just bought for me
'Cause y'all didn't have no kids
Didn't share no mutual friends
And you told me that she turned trick
When y'all broke up in `96

Repeat Hook - 3X

Bridge
Tell me why she on the phone in the middle of the night
Tell me why she in your life trying to get what's mine
She don't know me, she's about to know me
I'm in your life that's how it's gon' be
I seen her photo, she ain't even all that
So if you want her back, you can take her back
Cause game recognize game, I can do the same thing
Get it right, change or take back this ring

Repeat Hook - 3X

read the HIGHLIGHTED PARTS CAREFULLY.
it's a msg for some people out there.
n i do emphasise highlighted bits
 
posted by mian at 11:21 PM | Permalink |
breaking into a million pieces
it's starting.
the breakdown.
everything hitting me all at once.
i just saw the advert for the rerun of the final episode for friends.
such a small thing
n i start to cry.
because.
tt's really the end you know?
no more no more no more
it's so final. it's so DAMN FINAL
not that i'm actually referring to Friends..
n there's all these shit people out there.
i'm not afraid to admit that i've been the best friend i could ever be
i hate it.
i'm afraid of going to school tomorrow.
i don't want to cry in front of everybody.
my heart's breaking.
i'm choking
 
posted by mian at 10:28 PM | Permalink |
Saturday, October 16, 2004
vjc open house
what i have learnt today

1. SE teachers are bossy annoying irritating disgusting and love to use CO people for free labour while their own students slack happily. i wld have gladly snapped at her given the chance. what a b***ch.
2. vj really goes all out to portray the fun cool hip image. erm. making waves?? but i'm grateful for this culture, this life. i wldnt want to be stuck in some boring school with no school spirit whatsoever. vj is a great school to have fun!
3. i think our new co teacher in charge is much better than the previous one. at least he bothers about us and doesnt criticize.
4. the biz club sausage roll is really damn good. YuMmy!
5. daffy's jersey number is my favourite number. sWooon!
6. some people should seriously practise singing more before they destory everybody's eardrums by screeching tunelessly into the microphone. forget it. there's NO chance u can carry off a song by maroon5 or aerosmith, so please, PLEASE stop singing, ever again. we're all innocent people who dont wish to be wearing hearing aids so soon. oh. but i do give credit to people like these. u sure provided much entertainment. a whole room of laughing SCs and cringing people all across the canteen. i dont wanna close my eyes.. i dont wanna fall asleep.. ... tap on my window knock on my door..i wanna make u feel beautiful... oh do shut up already.
7. my sight reading skills are superb.
haha. kidding!
8. when u're already bloody lousy at your instrument, instead of thinking you're forever right and having that damn i'm-so-good attitude, you should think of quitting before we kick you out. there's really not much hope for you. don't worry. we won't need you. in fact, we wld be much better off without you messing up all our songs. for goodness sake. we practiced that sAME part over n over n over n OVER again yesterday and you STILL CANT get it right today? and YOU STILL CAN KEEP UP WITH THE BEAT. n still continued to play YOUR WAY. i take my hat off to you. you're officially the worst dizi player around. i aint criticizing your skills, i criticizing your attitude plus your astonishing sense of rhythm. for someone who can mug so well, ur lack of the most basic sense of rhythm leaves me speechless. i pity your sectional leader in every single way for having to put up with all your nonsense.
9. i walked four bus stops today. beautiful weather. the tampines neighbourhood is another nice place to walk around.
10. a person's expression, words and even eyes can lie. but actions do not.
remember. action speaks louder than words. you just blew it.
 
posted by mian at 6:44 PM | Permalink |
Friday, October 15, 2004
all these work for open house better well be worth it tomorrow!
actually i see no point in slogging over these things. if the ppl wanna join. they wld, regardless of fun sun or whatever they see in VJ. n if they dun want, they wldnt even turn up.

mj is such an idiot.
oh like thanx a million for scaring the hell out of me just now! i TOLD you i can't take it man! *glares
n ur departing sentence sure made an impact on all three of us.
if u don't see us for open house tomorrow u know where to find us. hiding at home.

finally! justice has been served!!
jerry ong is OUT OUT OUT! n about time!
next on the list is chrissypoo. then finally we wld have a bunch of relatively talented singers.


i want to cry. but my heart has apparently froze over.
have i ever been mentally prepared? i thought i had been. it is inevitable.
well. it could have been worse.
i cant say what i want to say becausestupidbloggerdoesntallowpasswordprotectentriesdamnit!
i cant deal with it now. i'm exhausted.

 
posted by mian at 10:28 PM | Permalink |
Thursday, October 14, 2004
do tell me if u can top this.

i travel all the way back to school because there was an exco meeting abt the open house n there's co practice..
WHICH
nobody told me about.
nooooo. everybody as usual FORGOT there's still me!
not the fault of those who were not supposed to pass the msg to me though.
i didnt know until vic asked me. CMON man. even SHE knew there was a stupid com meeting
i could have pretended i knew nothing n stayed home.
but i didnt! whY?
because i'm responsible unlike some who just dont bother to turn up.
i rushed there. WHY? because i thought i was late.
bUT NOOoo. instead some ppl were even later n the meeting cldnt start until then!
during the meeting i did nothing but stone.
u all don't need my opinions. i don't have opinions. besides, my post is NOTHING.
one hour later, i found out that tengwen aint turning up.
which MEANS
i DONT HAVE THE SCORE. n WHY? because some responsible ppl just cldnt be bothered.
so i stayed.
i CLD have left.
but i didnt. WhY????
because i thought at least somebody wld accompany me for dinner. n i wanted to go buy a book
in the end.
i got my book. but i went home starving.
nope no food at home.
n at least somebody cld have told me that dumb prac lasted 2 hrs??
oh i forgot. they didnt even bother to tell me abt the prac.
so i effectively wasted 2hrs doing absolutely nothing. thanks a lot. seriously.
best thing. her face just irks me all the more.
five quotes from 8 days which i can totally use now.
1. "You! Get off my planet!"
2. "I can already imagine pasting a duct tape across your mouth"
3. "It doesnt mean that if ppl can't understand you you're an artist"
4. "whatever look you're trying for, you missed."
5. "are you trying to be stupid or does it come naturally to you?"
i thought of the last one myself.
so applies to some.
 
posted by mian at 9:22 PM | Permalink |
mom forgot to wake me up today.
so it aint exactly my fault that i'm at home right now eh?
see jam! i KNEW my mom wld forget.
hm. why's that?? besides the fact that i have not been going to school since... last friday?
haha.
oh exactly one week ago i was staring at the clock in the hall wishing time wld pass quickly so i cld finally get over n done with the stupid exams which i so evidently screwed up.
i bought the Sims2 for my sis birthday!!
haha now i'm the one addicted to it. seriously addicted. i reached home at 9.15 yesterday n i only stopped playing at 12.15.

poor jiayin. she hasnt been feeling well since tuesday n yesterday we still dragged her out to make brownies at mj's house! poor girl. guys. next time control your craving for brownies!!
i didnt have anything to do after pw on tues. so after getting the present with poh n mandy, me n mj went to vincent's house to stone. n stone we did.
n we continued to stone until jy arrived.
then we waited for vincent to bathe. for AN HOUR!
oh boy. even I don't take that long. but he was apologetic. heh.
dinner was at marche. funny. four of us. three plates of food. n we cldnt even finish.
just yesterday we went to mj's hse to bake the stuff.
bought the wrong brownie mix booooo.
me jy n mj ended up slaving in the kitchen while the two guys slacked in the room. what century is this already??
n they left before the cookies n brownies were done.
it looked rather terrible at first. but after cooling, was much better. okayyy i guess.
then that was when jy looked quite sick!
the strong smell of the chocolate didnt exactly help either.
hope she's better now.

have to go back for CO later??
sighh. open house. what a screw-up. it's like this saturday n we have nothing done??
n i seriously dun wanna see her face...... *whines.
oh whatever. i'll just have to do the *see no evil*thing which i have been doing quite regularly actually. whenever the eVViiLL monster pops out!
which reminds me. yesterday when mj said "i wanted to...(i cant say what he wanted to do)" i nearly spat out the cookie in my mouth.
never mind i'm not making any sense.
i'm off to play the sims!
 
posted by mian at 10:09 AM | Permalink |
Sunday, October 10, 2004
blehhhh
i was disgusted for just a teeny tiny moment today. just that lil bit.
then i realised. i have done similar things.
so i was like, alright forget it man.

okay. so i finally piereced my ears!! nice little diamond purple studs yay.
do i seriously look like i shld have at least three or four piercings by now??
my mom wld freak out anyway.
oh n i got my hair cut!!
judging frm mandy mj n vinc's reactions...
i shld think it was pretty good :D just that i got a shock when i saw myself. looked like i lost a ton of hair. haha.
poor mj!!! his poor foot nearly got run over by his dad's car. *arghhh. ouch. instead it got dragged n his foot got scrapped pretty bad. poor guy. hope jy's cream n bandages do their job.
boooring. i wanna go back to sleep.

 
posted by mian at 6:13 PM | Permalink |
Saturday, October 09, 2004
sugar rush
overdose of chocolate!!
today was *yummy* brownie baking day at jam's house! n we whipped up a delicious batch of brownies, if i do say so myself. heh. vincent n mj can gurantee that.
we also watched two vcds while waiting for the food. the faculty where josh harnett is oh-so-drool-inducingly-hot. n X2. but i nearly fell asleep cos jam's sofa was way too comfy.
jam's hse is like crammed with food?! everywhere there's food. i'm jealous man :P
oh n her dog really doesnt like me n mandy la. sighh.
i brought the delicious brownies proudly to Mac for the F maths guys to sample.
then they ignored me over maths. *glares
haha kidding. they cldnt stop eating the brownies. had to stop them before all disappeared.
my Mac Boy's finally there!!! n jiayin's Ah Boy!!
mj must have been in a good mood. walked me all the end of the interchange. haha good boy. :D i shall go accompany you tmr morning then. before i go get my haircut n my ears pierced!! finally!
i need to buy another book. it's getting boring at home.
ooh. more brownies waiting for me!
do i sound HIGH or WAT
 
posted by mian at 8:43 PM | Permalink |
Friday, October 08, 2004
i have been rather high today. like some idiot who got overdosed on sugar.
must be all the release of stress.
i have finished reading digital fortress! all in abt 5 hours. i'm such a fast reader.
it isnt as mind boggling as da vinci code nor chilling as angels n demons. but the ending was great. it just made me turn each page faster n faster. go buy it!

anyway why is jerry ong still in. good grief.
well like they say. never underestimate the power of the prayer.
i finally watched all the tapes i recorded of SI. olinda's rendition of Can't Take My Eyes Off You was rather superb.

Can't Take My Eyes Off You

You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off you
You'd be like heaven to touch
I wanna hold you so much
At long last love has arrived
And I thank God I'm alive
You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off you

Pardon the way that I stare
There's nothing else to compare
The sight of you leaves me weak
There are no words left to speak
But if you feel like I feel
Please let me know that it's real
You're just too good to be true
Can't take my eyes off you

I love you baby and if it's quite all right
I need you baby to warm a lonely night
I need you baby trust in me when I say
Oh pretty baby, don't bring me down I pray
Oh prettybaby, now that I found you, stay
And let me love you, oh baby let me love you, oh baby

 
posted by mian at 11:52 PM | Permalink |
Thursday, October 07, 2004
who says if u study hard u wld get good results?
let's see just how badly i'm going to do shall we?
i shall just accept the fact that i'm stupid n i shldnt even be in this bloody combi in the first place.

that aside.
i'm So bloody thankful promos are finally TOTALly over!!!
now i can finally do all the things i want to do.
we all have been working towards these stupid exams since july n now we deserve a long break!

what a terribly long period of studying. all the days at bedok Mac. wrapped in our jackets because of the cold wind frm the aircon directly above. meal after meal at the hawker nearby. me n jiayin's Mac Boys!! those annoying pingyi girls who come in day after day to look at mj. *rolls eyes* sneaking in naps between notes. coming into mac at 8am, only leaving at 11pm.
that place has practically become our 2nd home. come to think of it, we spend even more time there than at home. n i have deprived myself of all the usual stuff!! no SI, no books, no magazine.

but NOW I'm FREE HAHAHA. earlier than all the other S1 S3 S4 A5 and S6 people!
n that's the reward the S2 people get for having four straight papers in a ROW with econs in the evening n bio early next morn.
so today was a pretty fun day.
halfway thru the maths paper i cldnt wait for it to end. but we shldnt go into that.
when the teachers were collecting the papers the S2 classes were already buzzing with excitement.
then when we were released. whoo. it was like a total sense of relief.
how long have we not stepped onto orchard rd! without worrying about exams??
lunch was at marche. curry chicken + sambal stingray. n the whole thing didnt even cost more than 6 bucks for the three of us!
oh yes i saw jiayin yuexin n co at cine too. haha n just the day before we were talking abt seeing each other in town! yes ah yin. WE SURVIVED!
watched wimbledon. typical dumb plot. but it was pretty cute. nothing much. watch it if u really have nothing to do for the next, oh, 6days of break. *gloats
jiayin how cld u have missed it!! great big chance n u missed it!!
haha well it's okay. someday somehow.
come to think of it now. actually my mAc boy doesnt really look the same.
n where the heck are they now!

i bought digital fortress n Her World!
n stupid jh got Sims 2. jealous!!
i'm so going to enjoy myself before PW rears its ugly head again.
tmr is vcd day. sat is brownie baking day. sunday maybe i shld go get a haircut. n get my ears pierced finally!! oh then maybe i'm going to buy another book, accompany the poor F maths guys at mac.
anticipation!
actually. i wld miss studying at mac.
i have gotten so used to the routine that now once the cycle is broken, it feels weird.
we have made friends with one of the managers there who loves jiayin. haha.
then there's eric the armani. jiayin's qingwen n my friend's lookalike dennis.
wahaha.
n i'm going to miss the HC people! when wld u have the chance again to spend so much time together!
well never mind. we shld go out one of these days.

ok. shall go read my book which i have been so looking forward to.
2 more papers Fmaths peeps!



 
posted by mian at 9:31 PM | Permalink |