i was pissed off, but now i think,

WHO THE HELL CARES?

why bother caring when people don't?
why bother when people treat you like crap?

you don't care , so why should i?
it'd all be just a waste of my time and energy.

sometimes i honestly wonder why do i even bother.

yeah like i said. whatever.

everyday i thank the gods that i have almost unlimited internet access here at the office. (perezhilton.com doesn't work but thesuperficial does?? is there a difference??)
oh and i also thank the wonderful invention that is MSN/webmessenger.
i think if i'm deprived of contact with my friends, coupled with the fact that the past few weeks i had close to nothing to do, i would have just gone mad.

today i have many things to do so i'm a happy girl :D
time passes so much faster when you're not surfing the net aimlessly.

the weeks are so draining that when the weekend comes, all i want to do is just to lie on my bed all day with my laptop. not going out, not shopping, not eating, not doing anything. just lazing.

Jensen Ackles, your run-of-the-mill Hollywood pretty boy. but im not complaining!




and there's the younger brother to balance it off, the sensitive, charming quiet one whose good nature is hardened by the evils that he meets.

Jared Padalecki, the one with the cutest dimples.

oh i just love them both. they make watching gory scary stuff so worth it. heh heh

anyway i'm starting to really dread work everyday.
complete waste of my time and energy.

screw it. i'm only reaching the office after 9 and i'm leaving at 6pm sharp. this is so not what i envisioned my internship to be.
I ACTUALLY WANT TO LEARN SOMETHING DAMNIT.

hallo all you working people. guess what i'm doing? no prizes.
(alright i may be slack but y'all haven't seen what's really slack alright. SHUXIAN YOU WIN. ahem. she gets paid 1k per month to work 4 days at home. INTERNSHIP LEH. at least mine i have to come all the way to this forsaken place to slack! she can slack at home!!)

anywhooo. this week has been a lovely week!
first of all, the working week started on tues, which is always good. short weeks are awesome weeks. :) and on tues, i went along for a department "meeting". department meetings rock because it means we get to leave the office early, to wherever. well, wherever is definitely better than here!
wednesday i had dinner with ber and mandy!
thursday i had another meeting at the paya lebar branch (WHY OH WHY AM I NOT POSTED THERE? I HAVE STRAIGHT BUS HOME :() which meant that i left the office at 3.30 :D later that night was dinner with ber, fai and wil! (pictures later) dinner was expensive and lousy at Blue Urban Oasis, this psuedo pub at century square. they should really do something about their ventilation system. i came out of the place reeking of stale oil.
today is apparently the annual company family day. which means, HAHA I CAN LEAVE THE OFFICE IN ABOUT ANOTHER HOUR. the entire department went for some farewell lunch which meant i have been alone in the office since 12pm. and i had lunch with chua shao ye himself. WHO MADE ME WALK ALL THE WAY TO DUNMAN, ONLY TO REALISE THAT THE CANTEEN HAD NO CHAIRS BECAUSE THEY WERE PREPARING FOR OPEN HOUSE. so we had yucky chicken rice at ghim moh.


alright it's almost 3pm. i'm still alone. heehee.
one more hour to the weekend!
i have a date with Mr Zhou. I HAVE MISSED HIM MUCH!

p.s yuexin do not try to fight with me for him.


this weekend i am going to not do anything but SLEEP! WOOHOO!!

so.. it seems like my department has a meeting every wednesday, which means that i'll be left alone for at least a couple of hours. which actually, doesn't make a difference to whether i'm slacking or not. just that now i read blogs more openly. hahaha.

it's very tiring to keep slacking alright. i struggle to stay awake the whole day! that's why today i've brought coffee.
it's not exactly fun to have nothing to do either. there's going to be a huge problem doing my PA report, which actually means i've to employ my full crapping skills again. hopefully i'd start having work to do SOON.

and it's honestly a torture to wake up at 7am everyday. actually i think i'm considered really lucky given that my working hours start at 9, and i can reach after 9 so long it's before 930/my boss is not in. but still, i'm no morning person. i can sleep the same number of hours but i'm much more awake when i sleep at say, 3am and wake up at 9. the exhaustion feels like it's accumulating at the back of my head. and it's quite terrible because as soon as i close my eyes on the train on my way home, i'll immediately concuss, and this doesnt even usually happen during school days. gosh i miss school hours, really. i miss my 4days-but-actually-i-self-declare-3days timetable. i miss my start-at-1230-school-days. :( how am i going to survive working life next time!


ooh nescafe coffee does work!
by the time i reached to this point in my entry i'm much more awake!

alright. back to doing whatever minimal work i have.
counting down to 6pm already.
counting down to the weekend already.

ok spoke too soon again. once again, i'm free and bored. i'm not sure this is a good thing :( but well i did finish up everything in the morning.. i suppose i didn't expect things to be cleared so quickly! having said that, was caught in a minor crisis just now and i nearly freaked out because the people who knew what was going on weren't around. but never mind, everything is ok now -whew- wouldn't want to screw things up during the first week of PA!
on a very bright note: I MANAGED TO GET THE TVB CALENDAR FROM MY COLLEAGUE! YAY SHE'S SO NICE! :D
i shall bring it home and hang it. :)

TGIF!
sigh. 1/2 hour more to end of work. i'm bored right out of my mind.
surfing food blogs is making me hungry.

well very soon, seems like i'd have to shut up about not having anything to do at work.
was buried with an avalanche of work suddenly at around 4pm today. and that is why right now i'm still in the office trying to figure things out because everything is due tomorrw. even my boss has gone home. that's the media industry for you. FAST AND FURIOUS. (one of the supervisors just yelled at someone over the phone for not contacting mark richmond for some event. scary) but i think i love it. this is precisely what i want to do when i graduate :) stressful? yes. but infinitely exciting and brain stimulating.

well.
am in the office now.
and as you can see, if i'm able to type this at this hour.. hahah says alot about what i have to do right.
alright to be fair, the entire dept seems to be out for a meeting ie. i'm all alone with the computer for company. but i'm terribly terribly sleepy :(
anyway i think i'll enjoy my work here. it was during a dept meeting yesterday that i suddenly realised that this is exactly what i would love to do: advertising and sales and promotions :)
be back! can't be too blatant lah. :)

aiyo. why are you so cute? :)


think i'll hire cupid ;)

on thursday, me wil and ber went over to Sentosa for the luge ride! perfect weather, really. the sun was out but because it had just rained earlier in the day, it wasn't as humid or hot as it were the past few days.

hahaha yeah the luge ride helmets were pretty darn big!
the ride wasn't bad at all! we were screaming all the way down and it was just hilarious.


the chairlift ride was pretty damn freaky though.


went over to siloso beach for some stupid photo-taking!

hahah i do love the above two photos! we look so happy! :D

dessert to cool down

sandcastle building. how very nostalgic!

lovely lovely day :)

1 more day to PA :(

my head is killing me
and i can feel the beginnings of a cough.
and PA is starting.
gosh i hate life like this now.

some people are overtly optimistic.

because they view the world through their rose-tinted glasses.

idealism is one thing.

idealism bordering on irrationality is a whole another issue.

i don't believe in doing things when i don't see the point.
similarly, i don't believe in doing things when i don't see a future to it.
if experience has taught me anything, it is that when you are about to cross the line where it's freefall all the way for a guy, you had better make sure there's either a future to it, if not, there had better be a damn good reason for doing so.
because at least for me, i know i'm not somebody who can let go easily. (jeez. what an understatement.) i will never want to make the mistake of losing your heart (and subsequently head) over a guy who will not be able to give you the committment you need, or even in the least, reciprocate your feelings, AGAIN.
yes, i can see the obvious irony here.
but darlings, i'm moving on. i know nobody believes me, but i love proving people wrong. and i also hate proving people right, especially when it comes to things like these. so rest assured i'll be doing every single thing to make sure that i'll be moving on.

anyway i digress.
do whatever floats your boat now, worry about the consequences later? yes i go by this mantra sometimes, but when it comes to matters of the heart, i firmly believe that this is one thing that will, and mark my words, WILL cause infinite heart pain later on when things don't work out. because as you continue to do these things, even with a mind set to NOT allow yourself to fall further in, you are falling deeper. who has a mind that is so strong? we are but humans. we are vulnerable. most importantly, WE ARE GIRLS. by some sick law of nature, it is dictated that we are more susceptible to heartache, to being stuck in a rut, to not being able to move on.



the mind is often rational. however, it's often overpowered by the irrationality of the heart.
the mind chooses to believe what the heart desires to believe.
perhaps it's a form of self-protection. or self-denial.
at this point of time, advice from 3rd parties can only do so much. because when differing opinions present, the mind will pick the one that the heart wants.
for me. self-protection will always come first. because nothing is worse than the feeling of having your heart ripped systematically into a thousand tiny little pieces, having it trampled on, the overwhelming wretched feeling that makes you feel like throwing up.
sometimes it's better to leave. leave quickly before you're too caught up, before you're in too deep, in something with a future that is bleak.

Dear students,

In view that Prof G**** is leaving the School, Prof Wan has kindly agreed to undertake the supervising task for your group.

The following are the contact details of your supervisor and
team members:

XXXX


Please start contacting your supervisor and arrange for the discussion on a suitable project.
All the best for your ARP and happy working together!

WOHOO!!!!! everything turned out fine in the end!! :D
we thought we were so unlucky when we were thrown from Prof Lam (214 coordinator) to Prof G (shan't say who lah. my papers are still in the marking. haha)
yet now, with a twist of fate, we have Prof Wan! yes funny Prof Wan from AB112! :D

alright alright.

Mr -"SO SLOW. LOUSY!" - jit

miss -ahem- xie ;)

mj-forced-me-to-take-this

mr-"viwawa hates me"-goh

FOO SHING!!

READY FOR PHOTOS OVERLOAD?!





READY.








GET SET.














GO!







and because i know you guys wont look at the small individual pictures in each collage closely.
here are a few carefully chosen ones to feature ;) (with others not in the collages already)

aiyo jit. don't look at me like that. i SHY. HAHA.

jiayin so cute! haha.

capitalizing on the aimei moment. HAHAHA.

what! pretty boys have their unglam moments too!

alright. a nice one okay!

ok kessie's turn. heh heh.

we seem to have forgotten about foo shing!

and...



WE ARE DONE.

gosh i'm tired.


TOO MANY PHOTOS!!





NO WAIT. I COMPLETELY FORGOT ABOUT THIS ONE!










HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA. THE CLASSIC MOMENT OF THE DAY.
THE TWO RETARDS IMITATING A CERTAIN PERSON!

hahahahahhahahahahhahaha.