hmm. how do i put this tactfully so tt the hc ppl wldnt be insulted?
ok juz kidding. :)
hc homecoming carnival. me n lyd were wondering wat on earth it meant by 'homecoming'. den i saw the banner. so homecoming actually meant that this carnival was for all the hc seniors n alumni. cool.
what was gd:
1. cheese puffs. absolutely yummy.
2. the weather.
3. tt i saw many of my friends.
4. sch compounds was clean.
n i wondered why so many vj ppl didnt turn up.
it's pretty hilarious actually. that even some hc ppl were embarrassed abt the carnival.
i have to say, sch spirit was pretty ok. not high though. u cldnt actually feel that they were particularly excited or what. it didnt feel like they have been looking forward to this day alot. where's the HC sprit?
food was good. but didnt understand why the ppl werent advertising their stalls. n when we stood in front of the stalls they looked at us n turned away. erm. i think u're supposed to like entertain ur customers? i was pretty turned off by tt. luckily the good food made up for the lack of customer service.
wasnt too used to the all-chinese environment again after being in vj for 1/2 yr. chinese music. chinese banners. mass dance looked like line dance. i'm sorry! but it's true. few hc peeps were ranting abt how disgusting their mass dance was. haha. shld really change the dances. u cld learn all the dances in one day. cmon. give the hc ppl more credit. they can dance more difficult ones than tt! lyd cld alr dance their couple dance after they danced once. cuz basically in every dance they repeat the all the steps thrice. n u dont move arnd much. n i cant see how u can get 'high' frm dancing those. ooh i so have to say this. i'm so thankful for vj mass dances. poor zw. what on earth r u doing there!?
we were pretty bored by early afternoon. practically had to go in search of stuff juz to spend the tickets. got really PC by then. guess the culture's really too different. i'm becoming so english nowadays. my chinese's getting worse! damnn.
overall.. not exactly the event of the century. but.. it was fine. ok. nice. good. food cheaper than tt at the viesta soleil.

well i really do know how to waste time.
instead of doing work like any other normal good student wld do on a friday night (tinge of sarcasm), i juz spent the last 2 hrs changing the template of my blog. n now it does look more pleasing to the eye. :) i'm proud of myself!
time to sleep. my eyes are closing.
damn! i just found somebody with the same template as me.
whatever. mine has a pic. it's nicer.
chIlDiSH

what a nice day to have a bbq.
yep it was nic's bdae "party" today. had class bbq at ECP juz now, along with his non VJ frens. well i have to say it's one of the more successful bbqs i have gone to. every other bbq i always end up not eating anything n paying like 7 bucks for the time i wasted. food today was gd. weather was fabulous! it felt great hanging out with the class. who cared abt tuts! the onli one who cared obviously went home already. ok tt's the final insult i'm going to type. anyway it was a well planned bbq la. n thank goodness the guys did the bbq-ing without much complaints. pretty much had a great time. oh n i bet nic wld love the prezzie the 7 of us girls got him! haha. well anyway happie bdae in advance!
oh yes i shldnt be irritated by trivial matters n ppl.
hc carnival tmr. wld b going with lyd early in the morning so tt we wont end up having to buy leftovers. but girl ah. taking bus all the way frm tampines to bukit timah can seriously kill you man. oh but then again i can show u my dream condo. maplewoods. haha. the hc ppl have said themselves tt it wldnt be as good as the vj carnival. hm. we shall find out tmr wont we?

haha vincent says i have good taste in music.
yay something else which i can add to the list of things i can haolian abt. etc. chinese. mep. my instrus. my brown eyes. oh n the way i diao ppl. *rolls eyes* mj tt's so dumb man.
i digress. so here's one of my good choices haha.
Before I Fall In Love by Coco Lee
Verse 1:
My heart says we've got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
Cuz my heart's been fooled before
Am I'm just seeing what I want to see
Or is it true
Could you really be
Chorus:
Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know
Before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now
Before I fall in love
Verse 2:
I'm at the point of no return
So afraid of getting burned
But I wanna take a chance
Oh please
Give me a reason to believe
Say you're the one that you'll always be
Chorus
Bridge:
It's been so hard for me
To give my heart away
But i would give my everything
Just to hear you say
Chorus

 

i shld b a psychologist.
i know what people are thinking. i know why they think this way n understand their bizzare behavior. go ahead. ask me! i can tell u wat their actions mean!
not that it's gd to understand anyway. n sometimes i wonder if i realli understand or am i juz thinking too much again. well whatever.
it has been such a pleasant night. it's drizzling. juz the way i like it.
well for the first time in so many months, i actually reached home before 5 today! not that i wanted to. PW is taking up so much of my time, n it doesnt even seem like i'm doing anything productive. after PW i went abt on my daily routine of going to bedok library to study n do work with mj n vincent. i'm starting to get really used to this lifestyle. after sch. go home. get stuff. go out in the evening. reach home at 10 plus. no doubt it's more productive doing maths arnd those Fmaths ppl. n the lib has a really good studying atmosphere, even though it gets a little chilly at times.
how come everyone has such unrealistic expectations of this batch of yr1s? we are totally the guinea pigs. not only do we have the usual tremendous workload, we have bloody PW n not to mention SPA. oh and now CCA takes up 5% of the university admissions. all the teachers r complaining tt we're doing badly. hey cmon! try to live this kind of life n tell me if u can do well without suffering from a mental breakdown of some sort! bullshit. we were bitchin abt this at LJS juz now before we realised that we had juz spent almost one half hrs talking non-stop. something which we have not done for a very very very long time. n why is that??
anyway i have realised that it's actually great walking in the rain at night. at first i opted for my umbrella, but later abandoned the idea n juz walked in the rain. but i didnt want to slp with wet hair in the end i sorta wrapped my jacket arnd my head. n NO. i still dun see how funny i looked k! sometimes u just dun feel like going home after such a day. because when u're all alone, u tend to think too much n tt's when the amt of work becomes overwhelming.
sighh.
looks like i'm mugging after sch tmr again.

this week is passing by way too slowly.
just three days yet i'm so drained.
i dont really feel like typing out all that has happened. but sometimes life just aint fair.
my friend's cousin passed away on monday evening. brain cancer. he wasnt even 18 yet. i havent heard abt him ever since he graduated frm dhs, n the nxt time i hear abt him, he's no longer there.
i didnt know him personally, but i knew him ever since i was in p sch. he was frm the same sch as me. i onli knew him as huimin's cousin. yet yesterday i was so emotionally shaken after going to his wake. it didnt seem real at all. the entire place was filled with JC students. it wasnt right at all. it isnt supposed to be this way! it really made me think. life's terribly fragile. who knows whats going to happen? i dont want to spend my 2 yrs in JC mugging my brains out without a life, onli to regret later on.
didnt expect myself to be so affected by it. especially when i didnt even know him. but i realised that i have the tendency to keep all my feelings to myself and try to suppress any form of emotional outbreak as far as possible. not good at all. because i become so emotionally fragile that any small thing that happens after that can cause me to break down. like what nearly happened yesterday at the library. i was trying to tell mj abt something but many times i cldnt continue because i was afraid of crying in front of him vincent n terry(i?). haha think i gave them a shock. sorry man. one of these days i'm seriously going to go mad.
i totally hate PW. it restricts our creativity. it's a serious waste of time.

i'm irritated.
no reason. i juz am.
lydia's right. i shld start another blog. where i can type freely without restrictions.
but then again.
who has the time?
organic chem. bahh. idiotic teacher. picking on me. juz because i talked during the lesson. hey i DID THE BLOODY MASS SPEC TUTORIAL OK! LAST WEEK. what. i shld do the solubilty product one oso?? hell.
okok sTOP IT GIRL.
freak. i'm so darn irritated right now.
news on chan 8. wats with the govt! raising the rent of hawkers frm 7500 to 10500 bucks every mth! ok nth to do with this, but sometimes i wonder if the fact abt natural monopolies being taken over by govts cuz they do not have profit maximising in mind being true. i reALLI wonder. but then again, i better shut up. not good to talk abt such stuff.
ENOUGH. i'm watching friends now.

Name Four Things You Are Thinking AboutNow :
1. how am i going to catch up on tutorials
2. wat a doormat i am
3. sleep
4. food
Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink :
1. water
2. yoghurt drink
3. vodka. *sarcasm* yea right. like i'm some alcoholic
4. i dun drink much anyway.
Last Time You Said 'I Love You' And Meant It?
didnt happen
Last Time You Cried?
yesterday
What's In Your CD Player?
compilation cd i burned myself
What Color Socks Are You Wearing?
why wld i b wearing socks at home
What's Under Your Pillow?
handphone
What Time Did You Arrived Home Last Night?
1145pm
What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
record-breaking 10.30am
What are you wearing now?
top n shorts. like duh.
Current Longing?
sleep.
Current Worry?
wat else????? TUTORIALSS
Current Hate?
dun wan to hate anymore
Favorite Physical Feature/s Of The Opposite Sex?
smile. :D
Last CD You Bought?
hybrid theory. LAST YEAR
Who Was The Last Person You Talked To On The phone?
dun remember such things
What Time Did You Ate Lunch ?
1 plus. wat a dumb qn.
Favorite Place To Be?
in my room.
Least Favorite Place?
where there are ppl who irritate me
Are You IN love Right Now?
i'm skipping this qn.
Are You Happy Right Now?
oh yEs oh Yes Oh yEs!! *rolls eyes*. wat do u think?? i lead such a pleasant n happy life!!
If You Could Play An Instrument?
i cAN
And What Would You Play?
i wanted to learn pipa. now i wan to learn guitar
Favorite Color(s)?
black white pink.
Do You Believe In An Afterlife?
guess so.
How Patient Are You?
not at all. especially with ppl who 1. talk nonsense too much. 2. who are so darn slow musically 3. who are damn irresponsible n push everything for others to do
Current Favorite Word/ quote?
fuzzy wuzzy
Favorite Season?
singapore has onli one season. bloody summer. i wan to go somewhere with 4 seasons
One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could GoAnd Talk To?
my pri sch best fren
Why That Particular Person?
cos i have lost contact with her ever since sec1 n til today i still cant contact her
Favorite Day?
anyday where i can stay home frm sch n slack
Where Would You Like To Go?
*how far is heaven?*
How Many Kids Do You Want?
dunnnnnnno
What Time Is It Now?
3.20pm
How Has Your Day Been?
horrible
Who Was the Last Person Who Added You?
friendster? cant rem
Do You Club?
no. i'm a gd girl. hurhurhur. com outing nxt yr: clubbing!!
Do You Drink?
does plain water count?
Do You Smoke?
tt's suicide
Who Do You Love?
my family
Can You Play Pool?
sure can
Can You Swim?
y not? not as if i nv learnt b4
Who Was Your Last Crush?
god i cant remember
Who's Dick Cheney?
the vice-president of USA. i went to check it actually... cuz my general knowledge sucks
What Song Are You Listening To?
fly away by corrinne may
What's Your Favorite Mood?
happy. but tt's like so rare.
Any Last Things to Say?
i need a nap.

20 Things I Have Learnt Today
1. Vj teachers dont trust the students enough even though we are all mature 17 n 18yr olds.
2. VJ college day isnt as fun as it sounds. it's a synonym for "waste of time".
3. it is possible to have violent mood swings, frm relatively good mood to having a foul temper in just a matter of minutes.
4. speak your mind before it's too late
5. to move on with life, u gotta : understand what went wrong, forgive, apologise, leave emotional baggage behind n be realistic. according to Her World.
6. the above could take probably forever
7. it is absolutely possible to b surrounded by all ur frens n yet feel like u're all alone in this world
8. i shldnt go out with frens when there r certain ppl who hate me
9. u shldnt befriend ppl who are too alike u in personalities. like poles repel.
10. dont talk unless spoken too. it's pointless to make stupid conversation sometimes.
11. seriously, nobody gives a damn abt u. u gotta take care of urself.
12. what didnt happen doesnt mean it wont happen
13. it's bloody tough trying to put on a happy face for others.
14. perhaps i think too much n am over paranoid
15. for the first time ever, i am not happy after a day like this
16. i need to find a form of stress reliever.
17. i am insignificant n unimportant
18. cheap food is good food
19. i hate ppl who are juz as stubborn as i am
20. spot the pattern: fuzzy-wuzzy likes raffles but not victoria. fuzzy-wuzzy likes woodlands but not bedok. fuzzy-wuzzy likes lollipops but not chocolates.

 

this is like so cool?
i went to friendster n typed my good ol' neighbour's name inside
346 results.
i clicked n clicked n clicked.
tada! i found him!!
haha this is so hilarious.
n guess wat. i'm so RIGHT. he's in bowling! ahha. i'm always right.
this is madness. i guess i was too bored.
wat am i going to do? nth la. i'm not interested. i'm juz interested in lOOKing. haha.

today when i reached my house's bus stop, i saw a guy trying to open the gate. he was dragging this suitcase along n was having difficulty opening the gate.
i was like. oh man who's this nerd. n he was blocking my way. plus he was wearing something tt looked real weird. but i felt sorry for him, so when he finally opened the gate, i held it open for him.
then i realised.
it's tt totally CUTE neighbour who lives on the 8th floor!!!
whEw.
he's tall. nice build. cool hair(no dyed hair---good boy!) those silver specs!
oh yes. n he's a nice boy. even my mother says tt. i was weirded out when she suddenly asked me one day if i remembered him, then she started praising him n all tt, wat a good-looking boy blah blah. well i was pretty creeped out cuz it juz aint normal when ur mom starts to discuss such stuff with u. i mean i agree with her n everything, but gushing abt guys with ur mom? er guess i dont do tt. haha.
n he's sucha polite guy! i took the same lift as him n asked him which level he wanted. (OBvIOUSLY i knew alreadi!) n he went "8th, thanks a lot." heh heh.
so i conclude abt tt weird shirt n pants. n tt luggage. he's probably in TP's bowling team n he's back frm training. cOOl.
wat a day of happenings! i'm beat.
sch ended at 9.20. but had college day rehearsal where i basically did nth at all, slacking arnd the backstage.
mj fiNALLY decided to cut his hair. so went PS Mac for lunch. bahh. i was broke n had to use my EZ-link. yet there wasnt enough $$ for a meal.  at one pt mj nearly died laughing when i was trying to demostrate to him the way he walked n i somehow managed to smear some tartar sauce on my blouse. gReaT. n best of all the apple pie i bought turned out to be PINEapple pie. how lucky.
den there was his haircut. haha i have nv ever seen mj without his hair all gelled, so when the stylist shampooed his hair,  i was suddenly reminded of a poodle n started laughing. n as u know once i start it's difficult to stop. so i quickly found a magazine n tried not to look at him for the nxt hr so i wldnt start again. well but anyway dun worry man, it still looks the same. n it's nice lah.
when we were walking frm PS to Taka, suddenly realised tt orchard was way too boring n we preferred to look for interesting places to go anyway. hence commenced our LONG TRIP arnd singapore.
let's see now.
we took train to chua chu kang. actually wanted to take LRT for the first time but stupidly went out of the gate. so went to Lot 1 shopping centre. juz went we were saying how we wont b seeing any familiar faces arnd, a Yr2 VJ girl appeared. she was juz as shocked to see us there as we were to see her! then before i even got over tt surprise, a DHS girl walked out of the mall. like HUH? wat's she doing there at 3 plus in the afternoon!
then the LRT trip. the original plan was to go to bukit panjang plaza, but decided it was too far n didnt want to walk anyway. so we took it all the way frm CCK to some weird stop den back again. ok so this was my 1st time ever taking the LRT n it was SO obvious. when the windows of the carriage suddenly turned opaque while passing thru the residential areas, i went "OH!!" a little too loudly. oops. n guess wat. the pineapple pie which i put in my bag n forgot somehow managed to leak. ON MY HP. WHICH I ANSWERED. WHICH CAUSED SOME OF IT TO STICK TO MY HAIR. thank goodness for the leaflets i took. the pie was in tt pile so didnt do too much damage to my bag. yeayea. i'm glad i brought so much laughter n provided entertainment for u mj.
jurong pt nxt. sighh. juz another typical shopping centre. with all the unknown sch students arnd. they were lookin at us a little weirdly too. guess they've nv seen VJ u before.
final stop. my all time favourite place. Holland Village! well by then i was pretty exhausted n mj sTILL insisted on walking there frm buona vista. cuz apparently it wasnt far n there wasnt any pt in waiting for buses. ok fine. but it was still kinda a long walk UPHILL den DOWN again. by the time we reached Holland V i was sweating like mad n had no mood to loiter too long there. so back to buona vista it was. then back on the east-west line to bedok.
juz before i got on the bus at the bus stop near bedok, lang appeared! like how often do i get to see her! so i missed my bus n it was catch-up time for us again. :)
so after tt totally eventful day, i met tt neighbour. haha. wat a nice ending.
oh n to make it even better still, jiayin called to tell me there wld b a com dinner tmr! yay. hopefully most of us wld b able to make it though. lang is always busy. it's so difficult to get of us together again. i'd b crossing fingers for the outing to b successful tmr.
dinnertime!

 

You are THE PLACES YOU HAVE COME TO FEAR THE MOST.
You feel like the people you've trusted in the
past have let you down, and you feel trapped
behind the happy face you try to put on for
everyone.  Try to keep a higher perspective and
realize that life goes on.

Which Dashboard Confessional song are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

i must type this down before i forget again.
For the girls!
frm Her World. "Learn From The Men"
not everything men do at work is perfect. but they do use some pretty effective strategies tt wld work equally well for you.
1. Men arent afraid of being dislike
The need to be liked is doubly dangerous, because it ites in with another bad habit---taking briticism personally and letting it affect confidence. Women blame themselves and accept criticism even when it may not be justified. And if it is, they tend to be obsessive about it. Successive men on the other hand, externalise criticism and are more likely to say: "I dont respect the source" or "I'll learn from this and move on."
2. Men keep their private lives private
not really applicable now. but u know wat i mean
3. Men always take credit when it's due
Women are often reluctant to take credit for their accomplishments in case they sound big-headed. Unlike many men, they assume their good work speaks for itself. But that's rarely true!
4. Men enjoy taking risks
Successful ppl dun hesitate to make bold, creative moves. Dont be afraid to say yes to different opportunities!
tt's abt it. i guess all of us girls are guilty of at least one of the above. so True.

i did the silliest thing today.
saw my bus. but didnt want to chase after it.
so took the nxt bus which goes somewhere else. yea i know where it goes. ulterior motive.
i went in search of that place. but i got off at the wrong stop. so i walked. 5 bus stops!!!
but weather was gd anyway. n i love exploring neighbourhoods. with the tiny marts. bakeries. playgrounds.
i found it. :) i forgot the exact location. but i still managed to find it.
such a warm feeling it gave me. beautiful place. was smiling to myself when i was walking thru it. homely feeling..
so. a 10min bus ride home became a 1hr journey.
but so wat.
perhaps i need more of these walks. when i have no tutorials. no sch tmr.
anyway. mr chew IS the best.
100% passes for our class! the onli subject haha. i guess good tutors realli do make a difference! hmm. 11 failures for maths. 15 ppl needing chem remedial. 6 failures for econs. 12 ppl getting below 50 for bio. hoho.  i wonder wat tt means....
full day off tmr. am going to sch. but not going out. must be the one n onli half day tt i'm not going out. helping with the college day performance. mj u better feel lucky tt i'm such a nice person!
but me n lyd wld b getting CIP hrs for this anyway. n no need to sit in the LTs watching the silly live telecast. haha. so i'm much obliged to help.
pe meeting today. cindy dragged me there. debriefing. didnt have many opinions n was feeling all grumpy cuz the weather sucked n i hated the idea tt on a nice day when i'm finally let off early i had to go for a meeting where i had no opinions. some ppl juz seemed to keep pushing away responsibilities. n why didnt chanks thank me n cindy for going back to dhs for 2 DAYS juz to sell the stupid tickets?? hey we managed to sell almost 20 ok. did anyone else manage to sell even 1/2 tt amt??
but anyway it's over. so. heck.
oh yes. promos timetable. cool. i think s2 has the best timetable. doesnt matter if we have econs late n bio early nxt day. we end on thursday when the whole world has physics on fri. heh heh. n the poor f maths ppl. end on nxt tues! i'm glad i didnt go take CL 'A' stupidly. i wld have ended on thurs tt wk.
well anyway time to do work. DRQ. n i CANNOT believe sianghan tt big slacker is ahead of me in maths tutorial.
oh my god. this is so darn weird!!
stop looking at it!!
i'M NOT GOING TO LOOK AT IT ANYMORE!!!!
hell.

  

 

wohoo. it's 11.07pm n i'm eating DInnER.
wat a long day. it started off badly n things juz started to go downhill the whole stupid day. n juz when u thot things wld get worse. wheW. bloody relieved tt i passed GP. well wat do u noe. my worst subject became my best. looks like s22 suck at everything else but ace GP haha. glad for rai who got A! yippeE. it's not potato! she was looking murderous when she realised tt she finally didnt get an A for her papers. too bAd. well. if i can maintain this for the promos, i will b eternally grateful to mr chew! not tt i'm not now, i am. this is inspiring. i'm gonna work hard for GP haha.
tt aside. today wasnt a good day at all.
so i spent yet another 12 bucks to buy a present for CO passing down. she'd better like it man! if not i'm gonna have it all by myself!
so i'm broke for the week. yay. i have no more money left! means when everybody else goes out to watch movie this friday i will NOT be watching!
ah watever. i have nothing to watch anyway. expect maybe i robot.
but then again looks like i'd b staying back to accompany the poor chairperson for college day rehearsal. ah it's ok. i have no money n i dun feel like going out anyway. sighh.
yes. me lyd n mj are going to mug at bedok lib/Mac everyday frm yesterday onwards! so it wasnt too productive today cuz the aircon was bloody cold. but we can do it man. lyd. do ur complex nos. tut ok! heh heh.
my jr yimin finally told the bitch of a mrs loke wat she realli thought of her. oh man. i'm so proud of her!! she's the only person who wld ever have the guts to do tt! hopefully she wldnt b in too much trouble for it. tt bitch certainly deserved it. i cldnt have done it better myself. good one girl!
i love the song "obviously" by mcfly.
cuz obviously he's out of my league i'm wasting my time n he'll nv be mine n i know i'll nv will be good enough for him.
 

it's 12.38am. i'm waiting for the water to boil so i can cook my noodles.
back frm pe concert. wat can i say. it's the first time i ever performed piano. all the other few thousand times are with CO. n it was great. haha. in fact the concert was beyond all my expectations. it was fab! the 3 guest performers were like whoa. i guess the 12 bucks was worth it after all!
duet wasnt too bad. i slipped a few times. but as jy said,  we are allowed to make mistakes. well yea. juz tt i dun realli allow myself to do tt. but anyway. it was better than usual i guess! hm. oh yes. claressa monteiro is so gd! oh man. her voice is so nice! u know. the norah jones-jazzy-kind, onli more powerful. dick lee is damn cool! n i nv ever realised wat a gd singer-composer he was! i was bloody impressed by all his songs n his versatility. haha.  now tt i know, i guess he was pretty much qualified to be  a singapore idol judge. n the belgium pianist. tedd joselson. wonderful pianist! haha. apparently the whole piano was shaking madly when he was playing. well. now tt we got their 3 signatures.. my programme booklet shld earn me some money shld i auction it on eBay. haha. nah. aint going to do tt. it's so CooL!!
ok wat can i say abt this whole experience. i'm happy now. i do love piano. i love performing piano. it's so different frm CO. hm. this time arnd, the PE concert was definitely better than the infusia. cant believe i said tt. haha. well in terms of quality of music, this was much better. oso maybe because infusia was with SE. heh. watever. i had fun. memorable time. happiEEee.
i'm in such a gd mood now. yes as opposed to the previous days. nothing can make my mood go away, at least for now. not even the appearance of the bitCh. not even an absolutely annoying girl.  i was grinning at myself thru the rearview mirror on the way home juz now. dad muz have thought i have gone mental. hey. gd moods rarely come my way. have to cherish this one. haha.
i guess i shall go eat my supper. n feel this quiet joy. :)
even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
i love you too much to make you stay. baby fly away..

hey wats up with this new layout of blogger! it's damn weird. n wats up with all these new fonts?
well. movie outing with jia zhiwen n hf was great! mean girls was hilarious. didnt expect much of it at first, but it's a seriously gd chick flick. it's strictly a chick flick only. dun watch it if u cant stand bimbotic shows! but it's a great stress reliever after a hell of a wk. ahh. but the best part was still catching up with the guys. haha. where wld i be without my bitchin partner jia! n my good gossipin pals zw n hf. we were sitting in LJS gossipin abt all the stuff in HC RJ n VJ, laughing abt how all the CHS guys in HC is totally cannot make it. haha. i quote zhiwen: "the bulk of the s*** are in HC. the filtered ones are in VJ n RJ." sth liddat. oh yes. n i was bitchin abt tt girl!! poor jiayin. she was caught in my tirade. we shld really get together more often. it's such a different world frm my VJ life.
wat do u know. it's pe concert tmr. stressed? nope. i'm nv stressed abt any concerts. i juz have too much experience. yEA RIGhT. haha. ok. i'm seriously not stressed, but i wld b juz a minute before my performance. but den again, i'm not playing solo. so tt's a gd thing. n nobdy really understands the music. so tt's another plus pt. it's sad tt the ticket sales are so terrible. one of the things i hate most is playing to a half-filled audience. after playing to a bored audience. all the motivation to play well will fly right out of the door. cant believe tt even dick lee's name cant bring up the sales. well. miracles do happen. like wat happened during czy. frm 200+ to 1000+ in juz a couple of days. so maybe tt'll happen tmr. well watever. i'm all relaxed right now.
 

i seem to have something against teachers nowadays. juz yesterday another one pissed me off. this is wat i wld like to say to him
why bother being for teacher-in-charge when u look down on us? u keep saying tt our morale is low n all tt, but who's the one who's causing it? u say we're lousy. do u actualli know tt we're all frm dhsco? no one frm dhsco is lousy. period. u say we lack talents. den wat do u call ppl like shuhui? like tengwen? they're lousy too? abt the performance for college day. it's not tt we lack talents so we're unable to perform. it's because we lack ppl. n why do we lack ppl? because it's teachers like you tt cause the morale of the cca to be so god-damn-bloody low tt no one wants to come. the dhsco ppl hate to see the cca in this state too. we want to do sth. but when u're arnd u're juz making things worse.
n i hate the fact tt i seem to be filling the posts of other incompetent ppl. bloody hell. if u wan to run for tt post den do ur bloody job! ok so i dun mind doing it. but hey. u're getting the pearls pts for nth.
this is a bad day. i'm in such a foul mood.
ok so wat's nxt on the list?
yes i was sick yet i came back for pe rehearsal.
i realised tt to play better, i have to get irritated n pissed off. so i sat there listening to gershwin, fuming abt the fact tt it's not me who's playing the 3 stupid preludes even though i have been playing them since forever. n they got me a distinction in higher music. watever. yea. i'm still brooding over tt. i'm such an idiot.
anyway was there really a need to do curtain calls for like 5 times? these things are supposed to b done naturally. dhs musical ccas nv do such stuff. cmon we dun even have full dress rehearsals.
everytime a paper's gonna come back, i wld b all moody the day before. i'd be praying for a pass in bio. heck. i dun deserve this. bio's supposed to b my best science until it flopped during Os. yes. so i forgot all the stuff i'm supposed to have memo-ed. yes. i shld have started earlier. there are 77 more days to promos. shld i start now? n forget everything later? bahh. why am i not smart like mj or lydia.
n i still want to slap her. like today when she walked past. grrr. i have nv ever wanted to slap somebody so much before!! damn. tt face of hers. disgusting.
on a much lighter note. sent jenyuh off yest. welll. wat can i say. the feeling's kinda weird. we werent too close to her n didnt have much time to interact with her. so i guess it's understandable tt she spent more time with her AJ classmates n sec sch frens. haha. the S22 bunch were neglected. but i understand. n it got me thinking. if i were(was?)going overseas to study, who wld come to send me off? presuming tt S22, MEP peeps n dhsco ppl wld come, i wld naturally wan to spend more time with the dhsco n MEP ppl. but den again. i'm not going, so i'm not thinking abt it.

"When will you be home?" she asks
as we watch the planes take off
We both know we have no clear answer to where my dreams may lead
She's watched me as i crawled and stumbled
As a child, she was my world
And now to let me go, I know she bleeds
and yet she says to me

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

Autumn leaves fell into spring time and
SIlver-painted hair
Daddy called one evening saying
"We need you. Please come back"
When I saw her laying in her bed
Fragile as a child
Pale just like an angel taking flight
I held her as I cried

You can fly so high
Keep your gaze upon the sky
I'll be prayin every step along the way
Even though it breaks my heart to know we'll be so far apart
I love you too much to make you stay
Baby fly away

whew. relieved. for now.
funny thing. when chris wong announced tt jh got his A for maths, everybody was clapping n cheering for him. when ms. potato got her A too, u cld hear the crickets chirping. so my pt is. wats the use of having 4As when u haf no frens? no social life=no use having 4As n 2Ds=cannot survive in working world. because u CANNOT mug forever.
well anyway went back dhs today to sell pe tixs. hey we managed to get 10+ ppl to reserve tickets, n more to come! wat can i say? me n cindy rock man. others sell abt 2. heh. we're cool!
had a nice long chat with our dear mdm ong. heard many horrible n disgusting things. poor mdm ong. i know u tell me not to tell any of the MEp students. well i'm juz gonna say here. i cant stand it! mrs loke is a bitch. a cold-blooded, no-heart, useless, onli-know-how-to-crap bitch who wants to climb the coporate ladder fast. there are no other words to describe her. hey mrs loke i sure hope u're reading this! because guess wat? u suck. n all your students hate u. trust me. they do. i speak on behalf of the MEP class'03. u're a lousy teacher n we hated u the 1st time u stepped into the class as a replacement for ms goh. remember wat u were doing? examining ur fingernails! jia was saying wat a bimbo u were. if we were to write a petition against u, 99% of the class will write their names down. n if we were to get support frm the sec2s to 4s, u wld b out of dhs teaching in some ulu sch. some replacement teacher for ms goh. know why some ppl did badly for Os MEP? cuz u taught them. know why some of us did well? bcuz MDM ONG Was THERE FOR US. huh. when u came to me on the day of the Os results, u were just concerned abt ur stupid face right? right. so u said i'm ur A student. correction. i'm Mdm Ong's A student. not urs. if u had taught me since sec1 i wld have probably gotten a C. i have nv met a more bull-sh*tting teacher den u! guess wat my jr said. she said: "mrs loke doesnt even respect mdm ong although she's her student, so why shld we respect her?" see tt? wow u're one fabulous teacher man. i'll be praying for the day when u finally get kicked out of dhs.
ha. i'm sorry i got a lil' agitated. but disgusting ppl like these juz makes me damn mad. why do horrid ppl exist on these earth to bring suffering to nice n kind ppl!!
yay. no co tmr. going to send jenyuh off in the evening. sighh. how come everybody seems to b leaving for studies overseas?
pe rehearsal today was bO-oRing. didnt even get to play the song cuz was juz dry run. oh yea. calin, u noe the damn good singer who sang during music fest? she's performing too! fly away! wow. her voice is just so good. hope she's in singapore idol. den victorians will have somebody to support!
tired.

oh man. cyndi wang must be the most talentless singer arnd. she's so damn act-cute!! pls la.. tt kind of voice. she sounds like any other girl on the street. plus she isnt even singing live! wat kind of a self-respecting artist doesnt sing live!! cmon. even britney spears who isnt like the best singer in the world sings live! i was gagging when she was singing tt disgustingly annoyingly oh-so-cutesy song. bOOo. cant believe guys are actually attracted to brainless bimbotic songs like this! where r the talented female singers?? why izzit tt the chinese music industry lacks good female singers! i'm sticking to 987 man.
oh yess. i finally cut my hair! went to the hairdresser which jam recommended. well i must say i'm pretty satisfied. fiNALLY somebody got it to look like the way i want. n value for money too. 15bucks! if u wanna try it's at tampines central. near tampines lib. haha. yay. ok maybe it's still long. n nobody cld really tell i cut it until i told them. seems like mj was the onli one who cld tell la. probably bcuz we were juz discussing hairstyles the other day. oh yea. n lydia haha. bahh. nvm i like my hair so much more now.
am going back dhs on tues to sell pe tickets. ahh. i cant even sell my own n i'm supposed to help sell theirs? watever. dun think anyone wld b buying anyway n i juz dun care. but am lookin forward to seeing the sch life again though. perhaps going back tmr oso? not sure wat it's for. mj says mr seet wants some co ppl to go back n promote VIP to the sec2s. but i guess none of us wld want to. i dun support dhsco peeps coming over to vjco n helping. wat will happen to our dhsco den! psst. all dhsco sec2s. dun come vjco!! stay there n help!!
oh. mj says no need alr. whew. haha.
oooh. vincent ng has a hot BoD!
i'm so not looking forward to nxt wk.
when life gives u lemons, make lemonade out of it

What Name Should You Have? by Lauren

ooh. i'm so tired again.
reached sch at 9 today for the VIP open hse. was supposed to perform but i think tengwen's a much better choice haha. n i'm the type who wld feel so malu n juz hide in one corner. co ended so damn late tt we actualli missed dhsco's announcing of the new com!! aarghhh.. when me lydia n jingying chionged into the LT, the new com was alr sitting there! damn..i cant believe i missed it! but this yr there's totally no atmosphere. wat happened to our yearly jiantao+weilao!! n apparently the news of the com had alreadi been leaked out, such tt many of them alreadi knew tt they wld b in the com. yucks. how cld such things happen!
well anyway. went for busking after tt. wasnt exactly wat i expected. was kinda expecting many ppl surrounding the performers watching.. but it was more like ppl taking a glance than walking away. i have no idea how they're going to raise 5000bucks. many ppl juz dun even bother to donate. ooh yes. li dan is so damn hOt!! oh man. he's the best dancer EVER. he's just so bloody natural! he's born to do this!! even a simple mass dance he can make it look so cOOl!!!! well it helps tt he's cUte heh heh. me lydia n jingying were practically drooling over him haha. n we were saying wat a great contrast there was between him n a certain SC. some vj girls behind us were saying how tt guy was juz embarrassing himself by dancing nxt to li dan. cant believe he's a chinese scholar. how many chinese scholars r gd looking n gd dancers!! on the whole.. it wasnt too exciting. u know. not tt kind where u can realli feel the victorian spirit.. where everyone wld chiong to dance when the mass dance songs came on. *shrugs* perhaps it was juz the place. too noisy n crowded. dinner kinda sucked too. cant believe the tasteless horfun actually costed 4.50. damn. n tt's the end of all my money this wk. i hate this. i hate this. i hate this!!
kinda hurt today. but all the more it made me realise how much i cannot stand her. seriously. it takes a lot for me to hate someone so quickly. she's the best man. tt's it. today's the last time EVER i'm going to be nice. my hands are itching to slap her. ok i'm sorry i said tt. but seriously. the sight of her juz irks me!! i juz loathe her. strong words huh. haha. watever.
so basically kind of moody the whole time. mj was too. he woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. (no i dun care if ur bed is against the wall!!) den we were juz kinda sian diao after we reached bedok, so we juz walked aimlessly arnd the town centre, trying to get rid of our bad moods. walked in thru one door of the mac den out of the other, up den down in ntuc, bought some stuffs frm bengawan solo (sighh i shld stop eating so much)den finally to the bus stop. it was kinda nice walking arnd bedok at night, juz talking abt anything.. yea so it didnt make my bad mood go away, but at least it helped. :D thanx mj! n i still want my ice cream u stupid 4As guy!
1st day of attempt. pretty well done. i cld get used to this. keep it up..
oh yes. muz congratulate my dear successor no. 2. weeting! i'm proud of you girl. u've matured so much over this one yr n now u're the new zheng zuzhang! well yea, maybe u werent my 1st choice a yr ago, but now, i'm positive u wld do all of us proud :) i'm sure this one yr in dhsco com wld be one of the best times in ur life, like mine. :D

before today, i've alreadi promised myself. no matter wat i wont mention anything abt results in my blog. n i shant cry when the results r back. well good for me. i fulfiled the latter n shall do the former. so i'm lousy. but so wat. i did wat i can in 2wks. but sometimes it just sucks when ppl who didnt even care half as much as u do better. watever. well, like peiying said: "u must fail to pass". ahh. tt's my motto now. this is just a setback. to make me more determined to succeed. sometimes the harsh reality is wat i need to drive me. n i'm going to do it.
ok other than tt. i must congratulate chua ming jie la. (must type his full name here to let the whole world know heh heh). he got 4As! yes. S3 fac ok. happy for u! but now u owe me a nice big ice cream ok :D congrats!
well i've got nth much to say. i'm kinda sick of everything. in a bad mood the whole day. wanted to go home halfway. but in the end decided to just stick it out. n well, i guess wat they say abt "the patient ones will be duly rewarded" is true. at least there was one bright spot the whole day! :)

living life in a daze these few days. wonder if it's the lack of slp everyday? i'm still exhausted by the end of the day.
thank goodness. returning of papers arent due til nxt wk, with the exception of maths? it's gonna be real bad. what with all the shocking marks tt the good ppl get. oh man. these ppl are supposed to get 80+ so i can pray tt i get a D. looks like i wld have to settle for an O maybe? aint thinking abt it now. i refused to mark my bio mcq. if i'm going to get terrible results i dun wanna get it in parts. n chem mcq. oh wat a joke. out of the 15mcq tt mr chanks went thru i got abt, wat, 6 correct? watever.
many many many things r coming up, n it's making me feeling all stressed out juz thinking abt it. pw. pe concert. work. promos?? argghhh. i dun like to hang arnd in sch til late nowadays.. it's just feels too weird. maybe bcuz of the long break frm sch. feel like going home early everyday. slack. maybe do a little work. watch tv. yea but how lucky can i get.
copa america cup started yest. forgot to watch! the timing's kinda weird. 6am in the morning. yea so can watch abt 15mins of the match? this is going to be so much more interesting than euros. attack attack n attack! yay. no more lousy greece-defending.

damn unlucky. halfway during the s cubed seminar today, my contacts in my left eye juz broke! arghh. it went really really dry, den suddenly half of it dropped out of my eye. i nearly freaked out. the other half was stuck in my eye n cldnt be taken out. grr. i had to travel all the way to the optician half-blind to have it taken out. thank goodness i got my replacement! whew. i Cannot go to sch in my going-to-fall-apart specs. come of think of it, i haven't went out of the hse in my specs since last yr may. haha.
well i got nth much to say today anyway. sleeeepy. tireed. n there's maths tut. sighh.
my heart nearly stopped today.

thanx bock! i got the mp3 for if we hold on together :D
sighh.. i'm listening to the part where they finally found their way to the Great Valley, n got reunited with their families again...
it's just so darn sad!!
it's amazing.. i still can remember wat happened exactly in the movie
i'm going to find the movie.

today i heard an advert on class95. sth abt NKF? cant exactly remember. but wat i noticed was the background music. diana ross's if we hold on together. i dunno if anyone still remembers the animated movie The Land Before Time? this song was frm tt film. the one abt these baby dinosaurs who lost their families during an earthquake, n together they had to make their way to this valley where they wld b reunited. sighh. it's one of my favourite movies EVER. it's just soo soo touching.. the song nv fails to bring tears to my eyes. it must have been, wat, 7 or 8 yrs since i last saw tt movie? even though i was barely 7 or 8 when i fist watched the movie, it still made me tear. i absolutely loved this movie!
i just checked it out. the movie was first made in 1988! oh my..
sighh this is the song. i'm getting all emotional..
Don't lose your way
With each passing day
You've come so far
Don't throw it away
Live believing
Dreams are for weaving
Wonders are waiting to start
Live your story
Faith, hope & glory
Hold to the truth in your heart

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i

Souls in the wind
Must learn how to bend
Seek out a star
Hold on to the end
Valley, mountain
There is a fountain
Washes our tears all away
Words are swaying
Somebody is praying
Please let us come home to stay

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
Where clouds roll by
For you and i

When we are out there in the dark
We'll dream about the sun
In the dark we'll feel the light
Warm our hearts, everyone

If we hold on together
I know our dreams will never die
Dreams see us through to forever
As high as souls can fly
The clouds roll by
For you and i

thank goodness i didnt watch the match til the end. the whole world must b left in a state of shock over last night's match. greece is now the new euro champs. who wld have thought! well all i can say of them is that: if they still concede goals at the extent they are defending, they deserve to get shot. soo..in a way, it's kinda expected tt they won last night. oh well. copa america cup!
anyway. have i been half blind the past 3 matches, or the starting lineup of the greece team has been changed?? half the team i've nv seen b4.. n thankgoodness the eyesore of a Karagounis wasnt around.
well i got this much to say of euro2008. the defending champions wld b out before the quarterfinals.

this is absolutely ridiculous! my tv blanked out on me, n the when i finally got it to on again, greece has alreadi scored! wat the hell! i missed wat may be the onli goal of the match??? well. did anyone realise tt the greece goal seems a little, hmm, familiar? bloody hell it was another corner!! n i juz realised tt greece players juz cannot attack. all their goals have come frm corners! talk abt tyco. juz as i predicted. greece is going to win this bcuz they are juz so tyco. their attacking is a joke. whnever portugal attacks, like abt 80% of the time, 7 defenders will rush back. like hello? tt's y they can nv counter-attack properly n they're juz scoring goals thru tyco shots! well seriously i cannot b bothered anyway. either team isnt deserving of the euro title anyway.
oh yes. how come everytime greece plays with watever team, tt team wld surely have injuries n have tt person substituted? it's a curse man.
well if portugal doesnt score in the nxt 20mins it's going to be all over. wat a lousy boring euro final.

new guy to add to my list of hot guys: milan baros! woHoo! why didnt czech get in???!! ArGhHhhhh....

to ah yin: haha i dun have tagboard lor! yepp n anyway i didnt go with u all to ECP with the hk ppl!! haha. yea. muz contact abt the outing thing! :D
tmr's euro finals. fast. not exactly interested. one team will b attacking all the way another will be defending. tt's wat u get when the whole competition screws up: a boring finals where nobody wants to watch. i quote frm my fren: "i'd rather watch yan can cook than the euro finals" haha. well i WILl still be watching it, cmon, i'd nv miss a final match, no matter how lousy ppl make it out to be! at least there's copa america to look forward to?
i cant believe juz last wk i was mugging my brains out for econs, n for the past few hrs, i have been basically doing nothing. ahh. i love this life. slping late. waking up late. watching tv. playing com for 5-6 hours. slping. eating. tmr, since all the 2j ppl r busy (siGH!!) i'm juz gonna slack arnd at home. watch shrek n finding nemo all over again! i just LOVE shrek. it's like one of the most hilarious animation films ever! the first one's definitely funnier than the 2nd. donKeY!! hur hur.
2 more hours til the finals! sigh. how i wish it wld b portugal vs czech. it wld have been such an exciting match.. well. yr of the underdogs i guess. neither of the teams have ever made it to the finals.
i could get use to life like this! i dun wanna go back to sch. *whines* urgh.

this must be the latest time i've ever reached home. 12.45am. i must say i'm pretty damn lucky. i took 12 frm kallang at 12.00am, reached the stop opposite TJC at 12.20, took 197, reached bedok at 12.27 n managed to catch the last 228 home. wHeW. tt's abt 5 bucks worth of taxi fare saved. well, n today must be the longest dhsco com meeting ever! n the boringest i must add. i was there way too early, at 4pm cuz i thot it was at tt time, n not the 4.30 linli said. nxt time i'm keeping the sms until the meeting's over. the whole time basically i had no idea wat was going on bcuz i barely knew any of the sec2s, n my post had alreadi been settled, so it was pretty much none of my business. but i juz stayed on. i had too anyway, but even if i neednt be there i wld have stayed.
this yr arnd, the higher posts were decided on rather quickly, which is quite a surprise. in the end we were all arguing between 3 posts, n i think many ppl were starting to get annoyed with other ppl. ah. this is to be expected anyway. wasnt too bored anyway. cuz wasnt really listening to them. me n mabel were juz sitting there talkin abt stuff while the rest argued. haha. typical. zheng ppl are always v relaxed in such situations.
the meeting onli ended arnd 10pm. by tt time many of us were ready to faint with hunger. 6 of us com members, me mj mollie k jy n hz walked the familiar route to KFC! but this was so much more interesting cuz it was abt 10.30 n the road was dark n quiet. haha. we had to cross the path behind the field, walk thru kampong arang den cross the overhead bridge.. ahh. does bring back the memories of the gd ol' days when we had to rush to kfc or mac or kampong arang hawker to grab some food b4 rushing back for co again. :D we onli finished dinner at 11.30, sitting there chatting til 12 b4 we realised tt damn! all our buses are almost gone. thank goodness for bus12.
yes well. so the new com's settled. i'm rather pleased. my fav's in! rui shld b glad too haha. announcement's nxt sat n passing down's on 24th.
can't believe we had alreadi passed down for a yr! n it was 2 yrs ago tt we first became com members! amazingg.. ok i'm getting nolstagic again!! non-dhsco-com-members proceed at ur own risk of getting bored to death! haha.
remember the JTS? haha. it was at Breeks. on the way there mj as usual chu-choued. stood up b4 we even reached our MRT stop cuz he thot it was time to get off even though the train was juz stopping halfway. haha. dinner at breeks was great fun even though it was bloody ex! me n jiayin nearly died laughing sitting with mj mollie marcus n some of the seniors. at one pt mollie n marc were holding down mj's chair so he cldnt sit down. in the end he got so pek cek tt he actualli raised his hand n told the waiter: " excuse me i cant pull my chair." oh GoD!! i think my sides nearly split. n this waiter/waitress! we cldnt come to a conclusion whether it was a she or he! n we were all thinking of ways to confirm it. haha guess we'll nv know now!
remember the our veri 1st assignment? me n hz were juz talking abt tt. taicang exchange? i cldnt really rem much abt it cuz i wasnt really involved, but it had to do with lots of running around carrying instruments. oh yes. i remembered tt someone asked me to carry some gigantic instrument n den i siam-ed. *oopS* who was it?? damn i remember it was one of the guys but i cldnt rem who. haha. den the nxt assignment. tsk. who can forget tt unforgettable incident! teachers' day performance? at some weird place which i cant rem. the standard was pretty lousy, but then again, none of them were actually listening. haha. n somebody lost the keys? dropped it into the sch drain. ppl had to climb over the gate to get it man! whoa. the com ppl were so scared at tt time. poor li n jiayin. one of the 1st assignments n one of the jrs lost the SCHOOL GATE key! well things turned out fine in the end as usual.
den came dozens of other assignements. msia trip. dhsco concert. NAC. performance for the DPM, which zheng didnt get too n got me so pissed off. oh yes our zhiwei chalet! zhiwei not-veri-successful studying outing june last yr! tt was one memorable day.. we girls were supposed to study, but in the end we got so distracted tt we juz gave up n sat there chatting. it was the first time we had a reaL heart-to-heart talk, just talking abt anything in our lives.. i came home with such a good feeling :)
den suddenly, it was alr time for us to hand over. the endless meetings, arguments, frustrations, wasted time.. rem meeting with huiling n debbie at kallang mac til 10 plus? rem meeting in tby room juz b4 the day of the announcement, when we still cldnt decide on the combi? den came the day of the announcement. hz jieying cried. i didnt at first, but after szelang came to me crying, i started too. the seniors were shocked. cldnt believe we were actually sad abt passing down. well wat do they know. the shopping trip for our jrs's presents at orchard. me jiayin li hz jieying kes n mj. walking frm orchard. to heeren. to wisma. back to far east. back to orchard. den back to far east den back again. haha all our feet nearly died! marche JTS. 30th anniversary dinner.. i remember trying to lit the dozen of candles to put on the tables in the hall n on the stage steps. jonathan was helping i think? the food sucked! n me n lang didnt get to eat much! ended at 10plus, but the new+old com, all 24 of us with the rest of CO had to carry thousands of chairs back to the classrooms. in the end had to take taxi back with hz jieying n mj. damn tired.. but tt was our final assignment....
ok so i juz spent the past 2 hrs reminiscing.
hey jiayin hope u're reading this! i got inspired by the older entries in ur blog.. so this is sort of a mini-dedication to all of you! haha. i can continue, but it's too late. 2.29am. one of these days i shall write a proper one! :D
lookin forward to seeing u guys nxt sat!

am watching the chinese version of True Courage. collapse of the Hotel New World. it's making me damn depressed.
i juz feel so.. disoriented today. not really recovering from the lack of slp. well i obviously didnt make up for the lost slp last night (n i regret it damn it!) n today i still went out with cindy n jh. we were all not really awake. like a grp of zombies walking arnd orchard haha. but after i reached home i went to slp straight away.. til now. abt 4hrs? feeling much better now. but pretty much still in a bad mood. stupid. when i shld b enjoying myself, i'm depressed. wat's going to happen when i get my papers back! ah. buck up. enjoy ur last few days of freedom.
anyway i juz found a legal non-virus alternative for kazaa. it's weird. i'm wondering why i can get the songs so easily! well. today i used the media guide frm windows media player, found the songs i wan, saved it in the system den copy to a cd! simple as tt. haha yay.
watched dhsco's 30th anniversary concert vcd AGAIN. i love watching it! it nv fails to make me think: we are juz so damn PRO! n it's amusing to see how young we look barely a yr ago. haha. some ppl ah. last time nv wear contacts, got toot hairstyle realli cannot-make-it. wink wink! when i watched us play yuefei, i remembered wat happened on syf day. when yuefei was played, ber cried, n i nearly did too. but i juz felt so damn proud. mj said the syf grand finals a couple of yrs ago, many of the seniors were moved to tears by the song they were playing. tt's the amazing ability of music.. sighh.
solitaire's such a nice song. clay's singing it damn well.

it's now 5.57am. it's raining. the sky's pouring for the unfair exit of czech, the greatest team in this tournament.
bloody good weather to slp. but i'm not in the mood la.
getting a little nostalgic in this kind of weather.
wondering where did it all go wrong. the things they observed, they said. n i cant say anything. so i'm lying. i am sad. why do things go wrong like this?? i DUN wan things to b like this. someone said it's better off this way. i dun think so. i wan things to go back to normal. is it worth it to throw away something which u fought so hard to get in the 1st place? why am i saying this? bcuz of the things they said last wk. n wat happened. i wanted to tell them where i played a part in this thing. but i couldnt. n so i shall juz suffer in silence. there's no use lookin back n wondering if things wld have been diff. Even though the moments r gone i'm still holding on somehow
wishing i could change the way the world goes round.. tt's part of a song in case u were wondering. i'm still bothered by it. it's nagging at the back of my mind. i guess things wont smooth out on their own. so i have two choices: settle it out. or let things be the way it is. i vote for the latter. i'm afraid of consequences.
the PE teacher we saw yesterday at dhs told my sis's class abt us! well apparently he was talking abt sth to do with moral values.. n SOMEHOW we were linked! haha we have good moral values for going back perhaps? funny. oh n 158 changed route! ok not the whole thing. juz the bus stop at kallang. it now stops at the stop at the MRT itself. lucky students. they dun have to walk tt long dist frm the old busstop in the blistering heat or rainstorms! i used to love taking tt bus alone. cuz hardly anybody else takes further than aljunied. it's peaceful. quiet.
oh man i'm exhausted now.

i have come to realised tt. anybody who plays against the greece team will b cursed. extra time now. czech vs greece. the czech are playing brilliantly. they shld b in the finals. but they juz have no luck against greece. n tt's the way it has been going on ever since greece beat portugal. well wat do u noe. maybe the finals greece n portugal, n greece wins? czech is bloody good in attacking. the greeks r onli good at defending. n sometimes they even make a mess out of tt. anytime milan baros makes a break for the goal, 5 ppl will rush towards him n pull him down. wat. can take him on ur own?? bah. i'm irritated. stupid screwed up euro.
oh great some asshole juz scored for greece. juz before the 2nd 15mins of extra time. i predicted correctly after all! portugal n greece at the finals. well good for portugal. at least it's not czech. wat a match. the brilliant team lost because they didnt have luck. where's the justice in tt! crap. i'm so pissed off now. i'm not going to watch the finals alreadi. wat if greece wins. how cool. the team tt nv ever made it past the grp stages got into the finals. seriously. this is the yr of the underdogs. n tt juz makes me mad. thankgod portugal's still arnd. i'm so mad now!!! i wan to rant at everything!! arghhhh!!! screwed up bloody euro!! i dun feel like slping alreadi!!! urgh. now i'm pissed off with everybody. nxt time i'm watching basketball. at least u reap wat u sow. huh.
sorry cindy but i dun feel like going out tmr. i wan go out with wil n hf. but stupid hf got lep on sat. n wil has lep stuff tmr. shucks man!
okok look forward to sat. going back to dhsco again for meetings. 2 meetings in fact. maybe we'll go out for supper afterwards. yipee. thinking abt tt puts me in a better mood alreadi.
well anyway i found the lyrics for this song i loved many yrs ago. selena's dreaming of you.
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up late and think of you and I wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too
'Cause I'm dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me
Wonder if you ever see me and I wonder if you
Know I'm there (Am I there)
If you looked in my eyes would you see what's inside
Would you even care
I just wanna hold you close but so far
All I have are dreams of you
So I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you
I'll dreaming of you tonight
'Til tomorrow I'll be holding you tight
And there's nowhere in the world I'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming about you and me
(BRIDGE)
Ahh-Ahh
I can't stop dreaming of you
I can't stop dreaming
I can't stop dreaming of you
Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I stay up and think of you
And I still can't believe that
You came up to me and said
I love you
I love you too
I'll be dreaming with you tonight
'Til tomorrow and for all of my life
And there's nowhere in the world l'd rather be
Than here in my room dreaming with you endlessly
(CHORUS OUT)
another part of song i've found. mariah carey's my all
I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
brandy's have you ever:
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything up to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It's makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It's makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever
What do I gotta do to get you in my arms baby
What do I gotta say to get to your heart
To make you understand how I need you next to me
Gotta get you in my world
'Cuz baby I can't sleep
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It's makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever, have you ever

n so after 4 days of torture. it's finally all over. whew.
this is by far the WORST exams i have EVER taken in my whole life. puh-lease. o levels was a BREEZE compared to this.
imagine this. monday i had papers until 4.30pm. both i nearly wrote my hand off. den b4 i cld even take a break frm tt, i had freaking bio on tues. so wat if chem was in the afternoon on wed. there was still no time to finish the stupid syllabus cuz everybody was obviously putting all their effort on bio n econs. n den yesterday, had to throw away all tt chem shit to absorb all the maths formula. oh god. the endless cycle of doing draining papers, mugging without a break, slping juz abt 5 hrs everyday.. i have never ever been so mentally n physically exhausted. my brain's saturated. my body's aching. i'm so glad all this is over.
the papers u ask? ha. i'll b glad if i can pass at least one of the subs. chem was a joke. it was probably taken frm RJC. no one cld do the paper. econs was weird n i was under the stupid aircon. bio sucked. i didnt have enough time n memory space to remember wat i shld remembered. maths. sigh. it wld have been easy if my maths was good. which isnt. hence the paper isnt.
well at least some good came out of this whole thing. i found a wonderful study grp! n made a couple of new frens. am veri grateful for this whole bunch of ppl. studying with them had really made me understand alot of stuff more. jiayin. huimin. mingjie. vincent. esmond: those who were always there to mug. n the occasional visitors like patrick, yuexin, wanying (izzit?), cindy and mollie! the poor F maths ppl were so tired n fed up when i visited them at our corner at bedok MAC juz now. it wld b over soon, so hang in there! heard frm cin tt poor mj was so tired tt he went home at 8, when he usually went back at 10plus. poor guy! gd luck mj vincent cindy n esmond!
the relief of finishing the papers were unbelievable. it was as if we had finished our As. even though we were juz abt 3mths away frm another round of gruesome torture. watever. i'm going to enjoy watever freedom i have left now. went back to dhs with jam mandy simin n co. today. they collected their certs n we had lunch at our canteen. wat a difference it was compared to the usual sch days! the canteen was SO quiet! n breezy. very unlike tt of vj, which was always n forever filled with ppl. we were all commenting how peaceful dhs canteen was. saw a couple of my teachers. my fav geog teacher mrs goh n my mep teacher which i refused to acknowledge. heh. i miss dhs. lookin at the lengths of their skirts. were our skirts ever so long??
spiderman after tt. it is an AWESOME movie. must-watch. even better than the 1st part. i've always loved spiderman. it's one of my childhood faves.. i grew up with it! but somehow i wasnt too enthusiastic abt watching this sequel. didnt regret it after all! action + drama. it was GOOD. effects were great. esp the part on the train n at the clock tower. n tobey maguire IS cute in a geeky-nerdy kind of way, n i cant imagine anybody else being spiderman. he LOOKs like spiderman. go catch it. 4.5/5 stars 8 days gave it!
watching the encore telecast of portugal-holland match now. portugal's thru. well it's kinda expected, them being hosts n all. their standards are not as good as tt of the dutch team though. they're damn lucky to b in the finals. czech-greece later on. i aint going to say anything anymore. so far greece has managed to kick all my faves out, so i better shut up.
ooh. i'm so tired now. but i dun care.
anyway i'm feeling rather irritated with some ppl nowadays. some ppl juz cant grow up can they? their behavior is annoying the hell out of me. i'm alreadi doing wat i can to make life easier for u all. yet ur reaction seems to be telling me tt i shld do it the other way round, ie make life hell for u. but then u wld b unhappy n tt wld b my fault right? grow up pls. u aint making life difficult for me, juz making it difficult for urself.
i found my david tao cd! after like 1 yr? totally lost it for awhile. havent listened to chinese songs in such a long time. somehow chi songs dun appeal to me. chi singers give me the talentless-impression. well except for maybe jaychou n davidtao. i mean ppl like wat cyndi jolin etc etc? they all look the same sound the same. n induces the shut-off-the-radio reaction in me.
i'm tempted to go sch tmr. hee hee hee.