this week is passing by way too slowly.
just three days yet i'm so drained.
i dont really feel like typing out all that has happened. but sometimes life just aint fair.
my friend's cousin passed away on monday evening. brain cancer. he wasnt even 18 yet. i havent heard abt him ever since he graduated frm dhs, n the nxt time i hear abt him, he's no longer there.
i didnt know him personally, but i knew him ever since i was in p sch. he was frm the same sch as me. i onli knew him as huimin's cousin. yet yesterday i was so emotionally shaken after going to his wake. it didnt seem real at all. the entire place was filled with JC students. it wasnt right at all. it isnt supposed to be this way! it really made me think. life's terribly fragile. who knows whats going to happen? i dont want to spend my 2 yrs in JC mugging my brains out without a life, onli to regret later on.
didnt expect myself to be so affected by it. especially when i didnt even know him. but i realised that i have the tendency to keep all my feelings to myself and try to suppress any form of emotional outbreak as far as possible. not good at all. because i become so emotionally fragile that any small thing that happens after that can cause me to break down. like what nearly happened yesterday at the library. i was trying to tell mj abt something but many times i cldnt continue because i was afraid of crying in front of him vincent n terry(i?). haha think i gave them a shock. sorry man. one of these days i'm seriously going to go mad.
i totally hate PW. it restricts our creativity. it's a serious waste of time.