Why do I constantly have so many things I want need to buy?! I am pathetically broke this month, no thanks to certain events. WHERE'S MY PAY I NEED IT NOW.

So yesterday's media tour of Sentosa's Spooktacular might be the most fun thing I've been on since the beginning of this job. Not the one with the most tangible benefits, mind you (coz helloooo, makeup vouchers and free products cannot be beat) but definitely the most interesting and well thought-out.




Yeah definitely one of the times where I hate being such a wuss

So I am probably the most childish person on earth (and I don't give a shit), but every time I hear people I know talk about things like applying for flats, getting married, having kids, all I want to do is to run screaming in the other direction. Talk like this never makes me feel like I should grow up. Instead it makes me want to regress. Preferably to a time where we are too young to be worried about things like that, and when we already don't have to fret over stupid shit like school work and exams. OH WAIT. THAT TIME IS SUPPOSED TO BE NOW.

Let me put things into perspective. You basically have been tied down the moment you were born till the day you graduate from university by the lack of freedom, whether it comes from your parents or school, or in most cases, both. The moment you graduate, for the first time in your life, you are a fully fledged working adult. Sure there are bills to pay and money to give to your parents, but for the most part, you're living life for yourself. Your money's yours, you can splurge on stupid shit, you have fun, you live life. OR THAT'S WHAT I THOUGHT PEOPLE OUR AGE ARE SUPPOSED TO BE DOING. Instead, what I see is a vast number of people rushing, seemingly in a bid to outdo each other (sorry, it just seems that way) to the altar, to do the exact things that are going to tie you down for the rest of your life, when YOU HAVE JUST GOTTEN FREEDOM.

Sure, I don't doubt that there are the few rare cases where it's a case of love conquering all (lol actually I do), but for the majority of these people, no offence, it just looks like a competition. Holy shit, XXX in the office just got engaged today. MUST. HINT. TO. BOYFRIEND. TO . APPLY. FOR. THAT. BTO. IN. SENGKANG. Yeah, they're really not kidding about Kiasuism being the culture of Singapore. And what happened to the my generation of people? Why are they suddenly all acting like people from the 50s, with nothing but marriage on their minds and wanting to get tied down before the age of 24?! GOVT, YOU SURE ABOUT THOSE MARRIAGE AGE AND BIRTH RATE STATS?

It's funny to me sometimes, except that it's not, because I swear everytime I hear talk of applying for flats among people who are NOT EVEN IN THEIR MID 20S YET I shudder. The point here is not that I don't approve of what they are doing, because I don't care. I don't want you to feel bad about doing something that clearly gives you joy, but rather, I am questioning the motives behind the actions, because right now, the main motivation behind all this seems more to do with the fact that it' a fad, a trend, that it's the in thing to do, and less because of love.

And also yes, FREEDOM. Yeah maybe I'm just idealistic, or childish, whatever, but I honestly thought now, right now, is the time where we can be selfish and live our lives for no one but ourselves. Clearly I'm in the minority with a thinking like that. Whatever. Excuse me while I not grow the fuck up and continue to have fun with life.

I LAUGHED SO HARD OMG. CLASSIC MISTAKE.

"Even someone like me, someone that has recently come into some success in his career. I'm touring the world, I have a CD out, I do music videos, I'm living my dream. Even I get bullied. You look under any comment section on any article, and there's bullies in there telling me that I'm a f----t, that I'm ugly, that I'm gross — 'Ew, gross, nasty, he's a girly' — all this crap. I'm singled out and it's all 'gay, gay, gay, gay, gay,' even though there is so much more to me than just who I choose to sleep with. ...

"So the thing at the end of the day is, ladies and gentlemen, that you are so much more than your orientation,"

"You know it and I know it. So don't let those bullies and those ignorant, fearful, small-minded people prove you wrong. You have to be strong, and you have to pay attention to the positive. And in doing so, you will push through and you will rise up and you will live your life to the fullest. It gets better, but it's up to you."


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I'm totally the last person who should be allowed to judge these people but OMG WHY IS IT STILL SO FUNNY. HAHHAHAHAHAHHAA.

Okay so I'm not a brand whore. TOTALLY NOT. But if there's ONE bag that I'd be spending big bucks on, it'd be this

For the record, the bag I'm currently carrying is a Balenciaga-inspired (TOTALLY UNINTENTIONAL BTW), and it cracked me up so much the other time when I went for an event and the PR person asked me excitedly if I was carrying a Balenciaga. YEAH I FUCKING WISH.

EL-OH-EL. Oh I miss Friends.

None of it is a competition. Not consciously, not willingly anyway.

I need a break. This funk is ridiculous.

I wonder how many people still read my blog. I count three, including me. On one hand while this does absolutely nothing for my incessant need for attention (ha), it feels good to be able to bitch talk freely about people that might otherwise read my blog.


It happened innocuously enough. I was on MC at home hacking half a lung out lying most pathetically on my bed when I got woken up by my friend calling me.

Okay, I really need to get my mojo going, because this writing drought has been going on the past couple of weeks and it's killing me. I have a shit ton of things to blog about, not to mention, you know, my work actually depends on me being able to write.

Writer's block. /o\

Wow I used to be word vomit all over the place. What the hell happened there?