may i know what's the bloody point in studying for block tests when you're just gonna fail anyway?


bloodyhellihateallthestupidteacherswhosetthosestupidpapers.


i studied hard for econs n bio okaayy.
but this kind of econs paper how you expect people to pass
siao. just came out to humiliate us and test my GP skills.
at most i get 5 out of 30. AT MOST. i'd be lucky to get that.
i hope mr ueung wouldn't laugh too hard at my answers.

and thanks to stupid bio and econs, i spent literally no time at all for the rest and hence i'm just going to flunk all of them.
yay.
i can just imagine mrs lim's face.




-grumble-
whatever. it's over now and that's what's important.




war of the worlds was good good good!! don't slam it too much pleaase. it's not meant to be an intellectual show anyway.
tom cruise is still such a hottie even at 40.
some people just look better with age.
and the movie was cool. i like big blockbuster movies where everything gets smashed up and everybody dies but has a happy ending, no matter how dumb it may be.
haha.

speaking of which so many tv shows to look forward to!
tapes of desperate housewives
that superstar show
lost!
the chan u 10pm show. (supposedly so funny that jamie's mom laughed so hard that she could hear her all the way from upstairs. haha!)

and speaking of desperate housewives.
my sister gotta be the luckiest duck
she won tickets for the premieres for both initial d and the season finale of desperate housewives.
both in the same week.
it's really not ffaaaair. :(


i think the problem with me is that i've been too conditioned in my actions, that's why it's really difficult to get rid of bad habits.
i tried.
i tried my best not to.
but i failed. darn.




anyway kbox kbox! yay!






continue to type this way and i shall not do well for GP as well.

-sighs-

GP is unpredictable.
bahh.
never mind.

i looooove class 95.
i loooooove the old old songs that they play
brings back many lovely memories of my childhood

mostly of me being chauffered around like a princess in my aunt's lovely big BMW.
and that of her nice big condo with lots of fluffy cushions.

ahh. childhood.

haha.

i had a fantastic childhood
mainly because i seemed to be smarter than everybody else. -guffaws-
yar too bad. i was a early bloomer and now my intellectual level is stagnant.
hm. had been stagnant since sec3 actually
ever since subject combinations no longer consists of 7 out of 9 subjects where you have to memorise and throw everything up again, save for english and maths.
darn.

anyway i am seriously considering dropping a subject because i feel quite stupid nowadays.
i bloody can't cope lah.
I HATE MATHS LAH. I WANT TO DROP MATHS!
we shall see how.
maybe when i get a F for maths they would force me to drop
then free i would be from all the continuous random variable bullshit!
haha!
lovely thought. but get through monday i must. sian.




i had better take a temporary hiatus from blogging because yeah i bloody well can't finish the syllabus.
if i blog again it would mean that i have finished studying..


so i guess i'd see ya next thursday.
ciao!

most peculiar, the way my mood can swing from thunderstorm-dark (pardon the analogies. i suck at them) to sunshiny-bright the next moment just because of lil things.

-chucklechuckle-

what a total turnaround.
a total change of 360 degrees!
(no wait. i musn't make that mistake again. 360 degrees brings me back to where i was before)
a total change of 180 degrees!
i'm amused by myself.

-grins-

thanks ah mj! -laughs-





hm.
the higher expectations you have of a person, the higher hopes you place on them (in? on?) to not fail and disappoint you, therefore, the greater the impact of their actions on you.
hm.

oh the wonders of playing the piano.


now i feel so much better :)


good to know that even with pseudo french-manicured fingers (haha!), some things still stay the same.


I AM GOOD! HA!


kidding. haha.



now i have to go back to something i'm not good at. ECONS BAH!!

hello!

i'm feeling particularly malicious and vicious on this most lovely sunday morning!

and you know when i'm in this destructive mood, every single thing irks me and makes me want to flare up at everything.


DARN THAT STUPID SUN LAH! WHY IS IT SO GODDAMN HOT!!

DARN YOU LAH STUPID ECONS BIO!! WHY ARE THE NOTES SO BLOODY THICK!!!

stupidstupidstupidstupid!!!!

I HATE EVERYTHING!!

JUST PISS OFF!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

BLOODY LIARS ALL OF YOU!!!

-mutters under breath-

ofallthestupididiotsintheworldjerksidiotsassholesidiotswaitaminuteisaididiotstwiceohallofyoujustgorotinhellgoddamnitarghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!


thank you i feel much better now.

in my perfect world:

1. i would be ultra smart. i would be bloody good at maths. in fact i would be so good at maths that i would be taking F maths, and hence i wouldn't be collapsing under the load of bio+chem+econs+maths like i am now.

2. every single irritant that i cannot stand would disappear from this world. HAHA. hence people like YOU KNOW WHO would cease to exist. yay!

3. so-called musicians with zero musical sense would be banned from all musical ccas. okay lah. or maybe just from CO. then i would be a happy happy girl with zero eyesores in my life.

4. all the sao baos in the school would disappear along with the irritants. (of course, sometimes it's concurrent. -smirk-) but then again, that would leave about 10% of the female population behind. so cannot lah. fat hope.

5. everyone is not smarter than me :(

6. guys would actually not be shallow. HAHA!

7. or else i can be more shallow. so i can win you. (you shallow? i more shallow than you! HA!)

8. I WOULD BE THE MARKETING DIRECTOR OF LOUIS VUITTON (or L'oreal. am not picky :D) ten years down the road and earing 15K a month.







bah. the real world sucks.

not the first and won't be the last time i regret taking this crazy-ass combi of bio chem econs maths.


siao lar. 10 chapters of bio. every single page you have to memo. then comes econs. you tell me where got time to finish maths and chem?


urgh.


okay okay.
I WILL DO WELL FOR BLOCK TESTS. YES I WILL KICK ASS AGAIN! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!


surprisingly it works. scarily indeed.
really leh. remember that bio test which i didn't study for?
haha. i passed. siao.
no lah. think the test was easy, and i was lucky.


or maybe i'm just getting smarter. yes must be.
(morale boost morale boost morale boost. i must believe that i'm smarter i must believe i'm smarter)




technologically advanced phones sometimes give you more trouble than you bargain for.
FOR EXAMPLE
-ahemAHEM!-
some tooooooot blocked my hp no. FOR FUN! and subsequently forgot to unblock it.
so when i tried to msged the toot, the toot got none of the smses, hence causing me to wonder if the toot was mad at me 'cos the smses were potentially-anger-provoking.
or maybe not.
ah never mind.
can someone please steal my handphone so i can finally get a phone with some colours?
thank you.




back to notes it is.

WAH I'M SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER SUPER ANNOYED!

WHY ARE THERE SO MANY STUPID STUPID STUPID STUPID PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD????


SUPER IRRITATED LAH!






okay let me tell you why i'm super irritated with all these idiots.
first of all i have ZERO FREAKING TOLERANCE (yes once again) with people who are SHALLOW. yes S-H-A-L-L-O-W.
and no i do not mean in the eye-candy-shallow-way, but the really-like-shallow-way.
YOU DESERVE A GOOD TIGHT SLAP MAN!!

and no i will not mention names so quit asking me.
(hm. but if you ask real nice and you happen to be the correct person then maybe i'll tell you)




arghhhh. i need a glass of water. and i need to rant to jiayin.









and i'm sad. very sad. very very very sad. times 10 to the power of 10 sad.

alright, i had better update my blog before:
1. i get distracted by stupid games downloaded from yahoo. and you know once you start, you can't stop.. well at least not until one hour is up.

2. i lack practice for GP. since i'm not eric tan (haha! sorry eric tan), i have zero idea on how to study for GP and hence the times that i blog are the only times that i actually have any contact with sentences that make sense. (i.e "renin activates a protein in the blood plasma to form angiotensin and this releases aldosterone from the adrenal cortex." like what the hell.)

3. (obviously) my brain combusts from all the biological rubbish. glycogenesis. glycogenolysis. gluconeogenesis. indeed. and you wonder what biologists do in their spare time.

4.i forget all the funny things that mj and jy can come up with. really leh. i can just sit there the whole day and watch them bicker and laugh. haha!





okay lah. i wouldn't want to embarrass poor jy. so i shouldnt type out the hilarious conversations they had. :)







anyway have realised that many funny people (funny=strange) had read this blog before.
-shrugs-
i can't possibly delete every single entry with references to CO
so who cares
besides -evil grin-
sometimes when u wanna bitch about people, you would like them to accidentally see that particular entry
and since you don't exactly mention names, they can't accuse you of slander. nor can they be mad at you for bitching about them
so it's like
"huh?? where got! i where got bitch about you!! siao lah. you think i want to waste space on my blog to talk about you meh?" -rolls eyes-
and therefore the person LOSES. and i win. then i feel really shuang. haha!



mr and mrs smith was okaaaaay. nothing fantastic. but not baaaaaaaad.
i'm awaiting war of the worlds.
oh oh! but brad pitt and angelina jolie do have sizzling chemistry. uber cool.




aiyar. sorry ah jy! i shall just type it out. i'm boreeeeed.

one fine day at mac.
mj realises that he's hungry, so all of a sudden, he proclaims

mj: "aiya. my mouth very itchy leh. (translate to chinese please. it doesn't make sense in english) should i buy something to eat?"
jy (sweetly): "mouth itchy ah. i help you scratch lor"
mj: (just as sweetly) "okay lor"

i watch on with increasing amusement.

jy: "then you move here lah" cos she's sitting at the far end of the bench
mj: "no. you move here"
jy: "nono. you come here"
mj: "nono. you move here!"

while i get more and more amused.

jy: "you move here lah! not as if i'm the one whose mouth is itchy!"
mj: "you move here lah! not as if i'm the one who wants to scratch my mouth!"


okay. that was the punchline.

not very funny in english. some things should be watched live. haha.







-broods-
i'm bored.
i hate studying.
mj = entertainment box=distraction=cannot study when he's trying to be funny and acting cute -_______________-
but tmr would be different cos he has scholarship tour! haha! let us rejoice in the fact that we would finally get work done!
haha. sorrriieee.
okays mj is a nice and funny person who is very entertaining when needed.

wa lau. i'm so bored. i'm talking about mj.
oh hello! yes i finally updated my blog! -waves-



-________-
i better get back to bio.

i'm annoyed.
-cue sense of deja vu-
(scroll down to the bottom of this page if you still can't remember.)


okay some background information first.
i was annoyed at this person (2nd june) because he was against this group of people for no apparent reason.
and me, being the protective friend/senior/what-have-yous i am,
am not very happy for some of the things he'd said.
but right now, one of these people i was previously defensive about
is being extremely childish and irritating
and now i vaguely see reason why that person has dislike for them.
(i still think he's wrong of course. because there's only one such example)


confused already?
good. then don't go on because obviously you aren't the correct target group.



to this person:
your behavior is way above my tolerance for childish people, and i can just add that i'm almost ashamed to be associated to you in any way.
it is people like you who tarnish our reputation and allow others to stereotype us.
your refusal to take on given responsibilities, your narrow-minded and rude comments about others, your attempts to spread false rumours about others
it gives me zero reason to defend you.
yes i may have known you a long time
but your stubborness and childishness had not changed at all.
i resent your comments about some of us not extending our help to our alma mater cca.
perhaps you would realise that as com members there wouldnt be any justification in us skipping practices here just to go back?
of course you wouldnt get it. you weren't one and you didn't deserve to be one.
besides, fat lot of good you did going back. i'm sure your valuable advice and comments helped them attained the GWH.
well. i'm not here to bitch about you. i do not want to stoop to your level.
i just wish that you would look at both sides of a story before drawing your one-sided conclusions about others.
and i wish you would wake up soon enough before people really start to show their dislike for you.



whew.
what a waste of time.


scary isnt it. how the true colours of people show when they don't get what they want.

i know of people who were previously close to us, chummy friendly and all, who disappear at the first instant after they don't get the posts they want.

i should have realised that people like these still exist.

now now, don't tell me that girls are gossip mongers
because guys can be just as SAN BA as girls.
-guffaws-
now that's a fact.
and i have examples.
but i think i'll just leave it as that.
-winks-




hmmm. i'd better be careful what i type these days.

so i'll just sulk and grumble and whine that stupid mj lied to me.
like this:
"huhh!!!!! you blufffffffffffffffffffffffffff meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!"
i think he got a big shock. haha.


anyways photos photos from mr teo's cam.
i had to resize 'em so they look real grainy.

gosh. damn blur. me and feli! 

my zheng girls! 

mr teo n me! grainy grainy pictures. damnit 

see the mahjong behind? haha. 

seah n me! 

it's kinda eerie
the way i want to type an entry
(but not before reading jiayin's)
then realising that she had just typed what i wanted to type as well.

haha.



sometimes i get so mad at myself
i just want to type every single thing that's troubling me here.
so what if everyone knows
sure beats having it all bottled up
i'm sickened.
ha. where do i even start.






tell me. how am i supposed to forget when every single thing around me are reminders?




nevermind about that.

thanks so much to lydia for cute purple socks!
and shufang for the french manicure kit.
and feli for body shop shower gel.
haha. love ya all. :D


chalet was a blast. now there's just the teeny little problem of having to adjust back to studying day in day out.
aranda country club is a lovely place. all chalets should be there.












bah. i'm distracted.
LOST's on tv.

there's a pain that sleeps inside
it sleeps with just one eye
and awakens, the moment that you're near
though i try to look away
the pain it still remains
only leaving when you're next to me



rather an irony of words don't you think?

but how very apt.





anyway chalet is funfunfun!
cos the place is simply loooooovely.
ciao!

alright. i'm ultra cranky right now. not to mentioned spooked after looking at the stupid poster one second too long.



since i'm ultra cranky (and no, chalet's not going to help. that would be 3 days less to study. and yes i'm a mugger not happy is it!)
i'm just going to talk about some random rubbish, and maybe bitch about a couple of people.
and yeah, maybe smirk about some other stuff too.




okay first up. i sincerely hope that this particular idiot isn't going to show up for the chalet. because whenever he/she's in the vicinity, i get really pissed off. nothing he/she can do about it, i just have a problem with his/her face.
so yeah. if he/she decides to show up (please please please don't? can?), i might just have to declare myself some study leave.



next up, i also have a problem with people with zero musical sense.
of course only applying to so-called musicians with zero musical sense. WAH. irks me to no end.
coupla things i would like to type here, but i can't. because as usual, people don't really agree with me on this point/person.
so i'll just have to rant to poor jiayin. or rather i've already done so.
WAH.
cannot stand it!


i told jiayin that one of these days, i'm just going to audition for all the external COs out there just for the heck of it.
and when i get through all of them, i'm going to turn all of them down.
HAHAHA!
nah. i'm kidding really.
who has this kind of time to waste.
besides i already have good ol' CCO. whose com meetings i've never once went. not that i really care of course. not as if i wanted that post.



crankycrankycranky.
because i spent one entire day before i could finish studying dear mr keynes and his theory of income n employment determination.
you remember mr keynes do you?
of course you do.
the guy who told us that during a recession, instead of saving, we should spend our way out of a recession, because in the process of trying to save more, you end up saving less, if not no more than before.
HA! i CAN REMEMBER!
HA!
-sulks-



jiayin bakes yummy cookies.
none for chua mj who was too vain to come out of his house without his specs yesterday. (kidding kidding. may your eyes not be so red/swollen already)
nyah nyah nyah.
now i have a tub of the yummy cookies at home. hahaha.




photosynthesis beckons lah.
i must go.
desperate housewives later.
oh it sure doesn't feel like a monday.

if you happen to be hanging around bedok central one of these days, do go to the main entrance of the indian cinema next to Mac.



there's this (almost)full length poster advertising for some indian horror movie.



and you know what they always say about japanese ghosts being the scariest of them all?




gosh. this one makes sadako look damn chio. like DAMN CHIO. like this much.



i'm not kidding you.





i think i need to sleep early tonight. overactive imagination see?

imagestation screwed up and refused to let me upload any photos.


damn it.


so that's all i have.. for now.


DAMN YOU IMAGESTATION!!!

the zheng family

me and my successors

again! haha

me lyd sean! 

xyz+gy+zz

wa lau. ultra blur. 

vjco com 04-05

ah. dhsco com!!

typical drama serial scenario:

long long time ago, girl likes guy and guy likes girl.
they stay together for a long time
then they break up for one reason or another (for example, guy involved in illegal dealings, girl is lawyer. d'oh! sounds familiar no?)
guy gets another girl
girl gets another guy
but in the end they realise that they still love each other
then get back together
then (typical of all typical scenarios!) guy's ex returns!
how?? (cos that girl gave up alot of stuff for that guy. DUH)
girl tells guy, as long as he is happy, it doesnt matter who he chooses. cos she will give him her blessings.

-rolls eyes-


typical things you would hear in typical drama serial:

"if you really love him/her, let him/her go, if he/she comes back, then you would know he/she is really for keeps"
"as long as you are happy with him/her, i would give you my blessings" and then proceed to live happily ever after as though nothing has happened.


are people really that selfless?
yeah right.



can i say, "as long as he is happy, i'm happy for him too" and mean it whole heartedly?
yeah right.







someone said recently
"don't know why he/she/they are/is so enthusiastic (about a particular project/plan/whatever)"
i can tell you why i'm not.
because i don't want to face a past which is already difficult enough to let go.
i do not need to deal with an onslaught of memories.


mj also recently said this to jiayin:
"if he makes you so unhappy, you should have let go of him a long time ago"
or something along the lines of that
if only things were that easy
then i think we would have all been happy and carefree people a long time ago.
because in the end, we're all still hopeful people.




me? -guffaws-
hopeful no more lah.
i've been stupid through and through, time and time again.
it is about time that i, erm, not be so stupid.
but i'll let you know when the time comes.





-sulks-
i hate studying. my brains are fried.

i'm annoyed.


seriously, i wonder why everyone thinks so highly of you.
they say you are extremely capable. they say you are such a wonderful and nice person.
i do not disagree. well neither do i agree.
fair enough, i do not doubt your capabilities, but why do others put you on a pedestal, that i cannot understand.
you've always been against them, and you've made it very clear. i can accept your reasons, but neither do i see you making an effort to change things.
fine. it's because they do not give you that chance.
but to go around relating false comments, that really annoys me.
you do not know him/her personally. you have zero right to make that sort of comments.
why you're just like them!
equating whatyoudon'tsee to whatyoucantdo.
i don't like you.
i don't like you for the biasedness that you have. the prejudice that has already been with you since day one.
i don't like you, for the way you generalise things. for the rude way you dismiss them.
why do the others not see this, it's beyond me.
oh i sure hope you're glad now.
you got what you wanted havent you?
maybe when things start to fall apart, would you know how wrong you've been.



you alone do not represent everyone.



well excuse me, i don't happen to care very much either.
since it's no longer any of my business.




that's it lah. i'm dead. i have no idea how am i going to start studying.
i resolve to go to mac early tomorrow so i can make full use of the whole day.
haha. i jest. i shall just try.

thanks rai n wanying for belated birthday wishes.

funny. the people you don't expect to remember do, and those you do, don't. -shrugs-

i'm beat, but since it's my birthday (LALALALALALA) i shall just post for the sake of posting, n to thank the many nice people who made my day :)



thoughtful people who msged, online or sms, me:
jamie
seah
lyd
jiayin
stefanie
zikai
weeting
bernice
hoifai
cindy
yimin
jia
toonli (such a lovely surprise!)
sueling (ditto!)
wilfred
huizhi
poh
vic
kes
primero
chrystal (wow!)
vincent
sianghan
mollie
minghui
brian
felicia
shanru
janice
eric tan
sean

(notice that i purposedly made it such that the list looks darn long. haha)


just back from study group outing :)
great time of course, and very touched by their presents and treat. thanks so much to jiayin mj huimin vincent and yuexin! am looking forward to the next outing already, which would be yuexin's birthday.
and i realised that when i said i want more clothes, i really got more clothes. which is good since it solves my lack-of-clothes problem for the rest of the.. next half a year probably haha.



anyway i have realised that i absolutely detest people who don't bother to thank you after you wish them a happy birthday.
it's not only downright rude, it makes you seem that you can't even be bothered with the person enough to thank him/her.
hence i would never ever do that to anyone, and therefore whoever does that to me, i retract my birthday msg from you.
you don't deserve that much from me a******. my handphone just happened to remind me and i just happened to be in a good mood. that's all.
as if i care enough to wish you a good year ahead.





oh yes be nice. i will not be mean. it's my birthday after all.

okay lar. i'm tired.
more about exco handover n stuff some other day.