words that i'm hearing, are starting to get old
feels like i'm starting all over again
the last three years were just pretend.

you chased my thoughts away
to a place where i'm blinded by the light.

but it's not right

so i say,
goodbye to you
goodbye to everything that i knew
you were the one i loved
the one thing that i tried to hold on to.



yeaa. i guess that's about it.
a new month, a new, er.. beginning. (haiyo how terribly cliched)

for those in the know. YEAH. about time.


anyway today was spent pretending to be busy (when actually i was talking on the phone with good ol' wil) and eyeing mr cute. (who should thereafter be known as mr K. his surname see? -cough cough- i think i'm the most boliao person in this world)
and once again. mr K is so cute it's such a bloody waste that he smokes.
and i bet he has a girlfriend. typical.
(just a digression. mr K reminds me greatly of a particular SOMEONE, and i just realised today that this SOMEONE has an older brother with the same name as him. and so i nearly got a huge shock when i realised how small this stupid world could be. but in the end, no lah. not related. i thought it would be mr F but in the end still mr K. confused? HAHA)
life's never fair, like how i was bemoaning to mj that other day. about the general lack of fairness in life. towards me of COURSE.
"WHY LIFE SO UNFAIR? HUH?? WHY WHY WHY??? YOU TELL ME LEH WHY LIDDAT!"
oh and to lang just a few hours back. heh heh.


all in jest of course.
i'm pretty much a happy person, save for the occasional murderous thoughts towards unreasonable superiors.



it feels like i'm back to school once again when i hear people go (in the office, mind you!)
"oh my god, i think i die liao, cannot finish studying the syllabus"
i just find it so... CUTE! haha the word of the day indeed. everything is so cute.
and i'd be grinning inwardly, until i remember that i have nothing to gloat about because i still have to go back to school anyway.

ahh. time to sleep. long day ahead.



-waves hi to jingying all the way to germany!-
(it should be 4pm in the afternoon over there ya?)

in the words of miss britney..


it may seem like a crush, but it doesn't mean that i'm serious.
'cos to lose all my senses, it's just so typically me.



haha.


ahem.
such a pity really.
a tall, nice and cute guy who smokes? bah. what a waste.
A WASTE!

all but a distraction anyway.

oh it's exam season in the office. very cute :) i've forgotten what it's like to panic over stupid exams. and i've completely forgotten how to mug. die liao lah.

and there was a major bitching session over lunch today. i was smirking happily to myself to know that SO I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO CANT STAND THAT WOMAN! YES!
i nearly snorted when somebody said "just because she doesn't have a life, she expects all of us to be the same." so familiar. DID I NOT SAY THAT BEFORE?

saturday's gongyan and i seemed to not have done anything for it. (evident from the programme booklet which reflects not a single thing which i have done. damnit!)
but anyway, still something to look forward to.
YEAH DHSCO!!



wa lau. i also have forgotten how to write.

i should think that if you want to have unrealistic and unreasonable expectations of people, you gotta have to try to do it first and see if YOU can reach that.



stupid bank people. argh.

i'm at home right now because i'm having a really bad sore throat, and i refuse to go to work because i know they will take no pity on me and force me to croak on the phone.

therefore i am at home.


i like meeting up with my friends, because they give me something to look forward to in the dark bleak world of working :(
where people have unrealistic demands (MUST HIT 100 cases a day or you die. siao. blame the lousy system which lags every 5 minutes, and breaks down every 10, before you start blaming me can?), where people treat you like dirt (WOI, my A level cert better than your ******* OK. if i ever decide to come back after i get my degree i'm going to be your superior straight away HOR)
oh such is the cruelty of the working world! woe is me :(

ahem. so i like meeting up with my friends.

so i met up with good ol' mollie, mj (after work, and eric) for lunch at ljs (near my work place right? i should have known what was going to happen)
one of the (nicer) girls (from the dept that gives me work to do everyday) came to me after lunch and handed me work
"oh ya did you see me just now?"
where?
"i was at ljs also! saw you and your boyfriend (meaning mollie. TSK!)"
"no lah! my friend only!"
"orhhh. and got 2 somemore! (meaning mj this time. haha this is getting hilarious)"
"er thats why only friends ma!"

wahah. funny people.


ahem.
and then mj amused me with the usual far-fetched stories that vj people can come up with.
actually i didn't know whether to start screaming in horror or start crying while bemoaning my fate of being maligned, but i've gotta admit, the stories were just hilarious.

just excuse me while i punch mj's face.

kidding hee hee.

alright off i go.

when i read her blog, i could feel the sadness coming back all at once again.

how do you explain that when it's for somebody you are barely aquainted with?

but it was sorrow and pity all at once when i saw him lying there, looking still so perfect and flawless. it bewildered me, why would someone, with everything going seemingly so right for him, would just decide to end his life, just like that.



like i said, we can all guess and speculate, but we would never know or understand.


may he be happier wherever he is now.

minyan is mighty pleased because she saw the same cute guy she saw at TM last saturday.


eh fate hor! (cue szelang's look of incredulity)


and she is also extremely pleased because said cute guy greatly resembles good ol' (ahem) daffy who, yeah, is just about the cutest guy at this side of the country :)



and that concludes all the interesting things that has happened for the past week.

i miss my zheng days.