feel so useless nowadays. exhausted at the end of everyday. uncompleted tutorials. failed attempts to study. it's especially scary when the normally-slack ppl start to turn up at the library during breaks to study. tt sucks man. it reminds you tt u better start work too unless u want to die. i noe i have ccas. some ppl dun. but so wat if i get more PEARLS pts den them? nobody cares abt cca pts. gone are the days when ppl actualli take their ccas seriously. now? some ppl dun even have one! or they have one which is equivilent to not having any. ya so they have all the time in the world to do their work. aint tt great? ya but i'm not the kind to go home everyday straight after sch to do work. so i guess having a cca will do me good.
it's especially sucky when u dun do well for ur test. econs. didnt do well. didnt do badly either. it's juz unfair when some ppl get good grades (n tell the whole world abt it) when they dun put in effort. ok like i did. but still! (anyway jh i not referring to you ah! haha u stupid 18/25 guy! :P) watever.
anyway wat's the deal abt S papers? i have absolutely no hope of taking a single one. bio? siao. chem? still wondering how to pass. econs? originally wanted but looks like i dun have flair. maths? erm sure. but seriously is there any pt in taking? i dun wan a scholarship. i dun think i wan to go overseas to study. this makes me worried. everyone else seemed to have their future all planned out. going to other countries to study. wanting to take scholarships. i havent thought abt all this at all! juz want to take a step at a time. Uni seems so far away. even though it's juz a matter of 2 yrs. wat am i going to do then? i'm not even sure wat i want to be. i juz noe i dun want a 9 to 5 job. i still seem like a kid.
enough of all this heavy stuff. tmr's soccer match will b against RJC. according to julyn it will be a VJ. ooh good. cant wait to watch it. hope RJC gets thrashed. but tt wld mean i have to pon P.E. all the better man. i'm starting to realli hate tt cca. stupid waste of my time. there r onli two reasons y i'm still in it n one of it is for the PEARLS pts. apparently compulsory tmr. but who the hell cares. n tt duh jy. still dun wan to contact me to prac the duet with him. ok fine. i noe he veri zai. we shall see wat happens tmr in front of mr ku den.