i found his blog. after linking n linking n linking thousands of ppl, i've managed to find his blog. wat can i say. i'm pretty much disgusted. he sounds like a younger version of U-NOE-HU. i guess i can say i expected this. he's no longer the immature guy i used to know back den. now he's all big ambitions, talking lots of crap. ok ppl have their dreams n goals unlike me. i'm still stuck in my kiddie land, my Neverland, still in my little girl mindset. well. this totally changes my impression of him. he is so shockingly different. such a complicated character. y do i feel so disappointed? because the seemingly perfect picture i had painted of him in my heart has been destroyed? or at least perfect in the sense tt i want it to be? so much difference, in juz a matter of two years. y havent i seemed to change? am i still immature? am i not thinking long-term enough? i have no idea y i'm feeling this way too. i'm juz glad tt i'm not harbouring any hopes. n i'm disgusted now. even though i have no right to.
forget it. i have spa tmr. i shldnt b bothered by these stuff again.
i'm so easily affected. tell me WHY do i FEEL so DISAPPOINTED??