Why I Love To Write


because there's nothing more satisfying than putting into words what you feel, instead of acting on it and creating trouble.
for example. if you wanted to curse some random asshole, you most probably would not go up to the person and curse him/her straight into his/her face. rather you'd bitch about the person until what you'd deemed satisfactory on your blog, and meanwhile enjoying the fact that you probably would not get into half the trouble you wld have incurred if you had done the former.

there.


anyway my GP did not let me down after all.
but i will not talk about it.
i am, after all, not haolian.

-pauses-


many troubling issues i'd like to address.

ahem. disclaimer.
situations are purely hypothetical. if you realise any resemblance, it's not you. so please don't come whining to me about how i'm being mean and rude.
(i'm being rude now because i had a crappy and tiring day.)


firstly,
hands up those who've said this before
"aiya. he/she is smart/clever/brilliant/good-looking/talented what, got the right to be haolian"
-frowns-
is it me or is there something horribly wrong about that sentence?
i admit that i've made the very same comment before.
it's only when you're standing on the other side, when you're complaining about a certain haolian kia, and people reply you with that comment, will you realise
how bloody warped the whole concept has become.
so you're good at something, does that give you the right to be boastful about it??
if that's the way people should act, i think we would never hear the end of things.
and at this very present moment when you're reading my blog, you'd probably be seeing things like
"I GOT 70 FOR GP LEH! A2 A2 A2!! HAHAHA!! I'M SO DAMN PRO!!!!"
(well obviously i did not. i got 5 marks lower than that. oops. i just did it didn't i? anyway that's not the point)
don't you realise that by making that comment, you're actually giving the person the right to haolian when in actual fact he has absolutely no right to do so?
and how would that help your self-esteem may i know?
the next time your friend is being haolian, i suggest you either 1. ask him to shut the hell up or 2. ignore her the whole day until she realises that she's being overly haolian.
and as for what i mean by haolian,
random little joking remarks about how she/he is good is fine.
unasked for, overbearing remarks about how he/she is good, coupled with downright rude and condescending remarks about how you are not is not.

and anyway to illustrate my point a little further, let me quote some phrases from one of my favourite songs by my favourite band.
(oh the power of a linkin park song.)


"There are just too many times when people try to look inside of me
Wondering when I think of you but I protect you out of courtesy"

"Afraid to say what's on my mind
Afraid to say what I need to say"

"Too many things that you say about me when I'm not around
You think having the upper hand you gotta keep puttin' me down
But i've got too many stand-offs with you
it's about as much as I can stand
So I'm waiting till the upper hand is mine"

"So concerned with what you think to just say what we feel inside"

"All i know is that all i want is to feel like i'm not stepped on"

"there are so many things you say that make me feel you've crossed the line
What goes up will surely fall and i'm counting down the times"

"But what goes up has got to fall"


highlighted ones are my personal faves.


pressing issue no. 2
why why why do people only see the wrongs (or wrong doings whatever you prefer to GP vocab section question 1 -grins) of others and not of themselves when they themselves so blatantly exhibit the very same characteristics?
and once more i'm guilty of the above.
it's a classic case of "don't practice what you preach"
for example, you can go on and on and on about how wrong this person is, but then u go around and make the exact same mistake. and to make things worse, you don't even realise it and in most cases you may still be defensive and think you're in the right what.
and when other people try to tell you and help you with your mistakes, you just ignore their goodwill and instead turn around and snarl that the people "don't understand you" or say "if you're my friend you shouldn't try to change me" or maybe somehow argue your way out and make your friends give up in the end.
you win. i lose. savvy?
classic.


pressing issue no.3
some people are just not very good liars. and when they attempt to do so, the efforts are just shoddy and laughable.
cmon lah. you can't possibly beat me.
pressing issue? no. but it's just irritating me.
i've been in the same situation before, i obviously know what you're thinking yeah?




alright. anyway it's not a good day.
and i'm feeling nauseated.