You Win. I Lose.


a couple of realisations.


one.
rumours are convincing. very convincing.
if one person tells you something, you would listen, but part of you would still hold back and wonder if there was any truth in it.
but when more than one person tells you the same thing, you're more inclined to believe it.
and as it goes on, the effect is cumulative.
and before you know it,
the whole world is convinced about that thing.
and they're so convinced that, even though they probably do not even have the slightest idea about what's going on, they're so caught up in their own self-important opinions, they just have to believe that it is true.
and then they would most probably just spread it on.

nah. am not going to roll my eyes.

in fact, perhaps i could say i have been guilty of similar mistakes.
so i can hardly get angry that people just like to gossip can't i?

she's just lucky that i'm no longer mad at her.
but seriously, the things that people do when they're at loggerheads with each other.

i'm more of amused than anything else.
people are just so convinced.
they're so convinced that what they hear is 100% true.
and others are so convinced that once a girl dislikes another girl, it has to be because of a guy.
what happened to "i just plain kan bu shuang her" or "i can't stand the way she acts"?
anything wrong with those?
which in actual fact, were true?

now if they were convinced about something that's actually true
i'd probably be more worried.
in fact, once upon a time, i would get so pissed off, i would probably have declared loudly on my blog that
NO IT'S NOT THAT PERSON FOR GODS' SAKE, IT'S (well you know what i mean)
but right now, i would just shrug and shake my head.
got point meh? and as if it's that big a matter anyway.


people, people.


my friend got me in a bit of a mild panic when she told me (ominously) that i should call her asap, preferably when i was in a good mood.
i was like
"oh dear. what now?"
but after i heard all of the above,
i was really quite amused, more than anything else.
like, hi? get over it. it has been almost a year since the person made the comment, and now you're still talking about it?

oh sorry. i probably should not have said "get over it".
people react negatively towards that.

yes yes say whatever you like. you're entitled to your own gossip.



ahem.

well for realisation no. 2
my dear pal wil is probably the one person who has the uncanny knack of knowing what i'm thinking of.
like yesterday when i was asking him to guess something, he went, almost accusingly
"you're only asking me to guess because blah blah blah blah RIGHT?"
i blanched.
(okay lah. not so serious. nothing he doesn't know anyway)
but i was pretty shocked to realise how readily he can make me admit something which i don't even like to admit to myself.
even though i hurriedly chided him for even thinking that was what i was thinking,
inside i was going
"damn. that guy's sharp"

(haha. i hope he's not reading this.)


and then i remember the times back in those MEP classes during which we would play the silly name games,
he and fai were so convinced about this thing (and this time around, it was actually something true alright?)
they would repeat it to me over and over again
and write it on my notes.
(jeez. i still have those vandalised notes with fai's favourite word -________-)
and even though i've never ever even breathed a word about it to either of them.
they just knew it all along.

it's eerie. o_o




have you ever wondered why people do things that they know would surely annoy themselves, yet they still go ahead with doing it, no reasons whatsoever?
i just did that.
by reading somebody's blog.

can someone pleeease explain to me since when has "my" become "mai"??
Eh?
if it serves as a short-form, i get it.
but "mai"?? "larx"??
it does nothing but conjure up images of prepubescent chao ah lians trying to aCt kAwAiI.
please don't do it. it's disturbing.
and it's even more disturbing when the blog belongs to someone you know, and previously had a good impression of.
and now, she's not any different from one of those ah lians whining about the same things that ah lians like to whine about.


well since today is going to be the last day of freedom and enjoyment, i'm going to be childish and play a game which all prepubescent ah lians and bengs like to play.

maple story. -grins-