my dear girl.
it's about time you realised that
times have changed.
and people have changed too.
some people are no longer who they used to be.
people who were once nice to you
are no longer this way.
great pals are no more than mere aquaintances
perhaps even less than that.
nothing more than a cursory glance
and if you're lucky, a curt nod.
it's maddening of course. sometimes even tragic.
but what are we to do. we are all victims of circumstances (thanks for the quote dom :))

it's not that you can't let go of the past.
it's merely the good times and memories that keep you hanging on.
blind hope i suppose?
that someday, somehow everything would be the same again.
sometimes you recall the special moments
and it's more than enough to make you want to cry.
and sometimes, you imagine to yourself what it would be like
to wake up and find that everything is back to what it was before
it's like waking up on christmas morning. :)
yet unfortunately, everything remains just a dream.
a dream which would most likely, never to be fulfiled.
so my friend
it's time to move on.
look back fondly, but stop clinging on to it.
it's too late for amendments.
it's not your fault. neither is it theirs.
blame it on the changing of time then.
someday, you would find others who would care for and understand you just as much.





mood's preetty blue again. even after a great birthday outing.
(happy birthday dear yuexin!)
first was the fantastic reminder that this would be the last day of fun before we all retire to our books.
god. the prelims timetable is killer. i will never ever be able to finish the syllabus, let alone be familiar with it.
next i'm down for bloody chem remedial which is no surprise anyway but i just don't like the fact that even though i didn't fail any chem tests this year, in the eyes of stupid chanks i'm still the same sucky student from last year. like it's not his fault. -rolls eyes-
oh whatever. it's just a matter of sooner or later anyway.
up next! oh. don't you just adore bio? where you study your brains out, it's still no use because when even S paper students can fail to do well for the structured qns section, you can jolly well sit tight and wait for your failure of a paper.

and gosh. i've come to realise that i've become such a cynic when it comes to friendships.
it just drives me up the wall.
people whom you once thought had the potential to be a real confidante
they change the moment once a girl comes into the picture.
oh. it irks me to no end.
or else, they just don't give you enough reason to trust them wholeheartedly.
i used to say there were four friends i could trust my life with.
out of this four, only 3 still stands. tragic indeed. and the best thing is that i don't even get to see the other 3 much cos we're all in different schools.
of course, i'm thankful for new friends i've found these days
but why can't i have the best of both worlds? whyeeeeee???
ha.ha.
cos it obviously doesn't work this way.

i've had enough of lamenting.
i can't be more weary and tired than i already am.