good morning.
i definitely woke up on the wrong side of the bed today.
and when that happens, i'd be extra pissed off about things that i'm pissed off at/was pissed off at.
in particular, what i've mentioned in the previous entry.
since it's not exactly convenient to type out what really happened, i'd just have to put it subtlely.
(oh. but i would have you know that subtlety ain't my strength. so sorry :))



i do understand that the younger ones don't think much of what the seniors say
mainly because
1. they think they know their juniors better
2. some of them don't have much respect for some of us. (i didn't say ALL. don't deny it. cmon lah. who doesn't know)
3. we all know what happened when a certain senior insisted having her way and caused such a disaster.
so yeah.
i really understand!
like you, we were juniors too.
i totally loathed it when at that point of time, some people just kept pushing their own direct jrs into the com
not because they were particularly outstanding
but.. oh guess what. i don't even know why! perhaps to have more of the jrs in the com perhaps?
and if i recalled correctly
did she say something along the lines of
"why don't you give him/her a chance to try?"
-snicker-
try eh?
well guess what, i've been dying to say this a looooooong time.
NYAH NYAH NYAH. WE TOLD YOU SO! HAHA!
classic.

people tell us that we as a com, did everything correct. the only wrong thing we ever did was.. ( i shan't elaborate further)
oh but excuse me. we did it correct you know. SOME PEOPLE didn't allow us to do it correctly. the only wrong thing we ever did was that we didn't stand up for the things we wanted.
mad i was. and i vowed never to let things go wrong again.

haha. i tried my best. i argued my case. i fought for it. until i got so sickened i gave up.
you see. when people are stubborn, they do not listen to you. there's exactly ZERO point in trying to argue for it.
so i gave way. deep down. i wasn't appeased at all. but because i didn't want to look like an unreasonable demanding senior/i got so tired of wasting my time arguing, i gave way.
within a space of barely 2 months. i gave way twice.
and barely just weeks after the final decision was made.
things started to go wrong. classssic.
they admitted that they didn't feel good about their decision.
they admitted that they might have chosen the wrong one.
and now, they want us to help.
hey sorry. it's not that i don't want to help.
i would of course. but can i just say that it's your own fault?
and what's this? making us clean up the mess you've made?
i totally told you so right??

and now. i only agreed to this decision because you promised that she would be in the com too.
til today, i still hold to my view that what you've chosen is going to cost us bigtime.
i don't see how your decision is going to be able to succeed you. or anyone of us for that matter.
and since i've always been fairly accurate in making decisions of such nature
i should think i'm just a few months away from being to say
i told you so
for the third time.

oh the bloody relief. no more shit work like this in the future.




i realised that i'm not easily appeased.
i may seem so on the surface. but that's only because i don't want to kick up a huge fuss and make things difficult for everyone.
so many a time i just swallow my anger/discontentment and keep my mouth shut.


anyway i've been inspired to work hard and be a good girl.
so ciao.