i know sometimes you guys can tell i'm not okay
it's not that i don't want to tell you what's going on
but when there's a matter of time constraint.
i can only give you the gist.
and it just sounds insincere i know.
and also, i'm terrified of breaking down in front of you.
and the way it makes me feel so vulnerable with my cover blown wide open.
so i rather just keep quiet
and hope that all these things will just pass by quickly
i'm not used to not being able to understand what i'm feeling
and it just irks me.

perhaps running is a good form of escape.
the strain on your body gives you something else to hurt




it would be good if i'm still hurting tomorrow during the mock napfa.

ha. ha.



anyway thanks for the sincere gifts from jam mandy sianghan junhong rach+co. janice+co. and the class guys. oh yes and cindy and simin+adel for the yummy cookies.
ah. my mortal for giving me exactly the same thing what i gave him. haha.
and jingying whose present i know i would surely love even though i have no idea what it is. hey man you know me!


cheers all.