yes it's one of those days again.
when all the dhs ppl gather together n start to talk abt the old days, tt's when u realise, you REally do miss ur secondary sch. all of it. including kiw. where wld dunman be without him!
mj jingying n i juz had a 2hr talk-cum-thrashing abt things in vj.
dont get me wrong. i love vjc. i love the vibrant culture. but sometimes..
1. when i seem all happy in class. am i REALLY happy? then why do i feel so empty after that?
2. am i happy in class because i'm really so or because others are..
3. the ppl arent as simple as they seem to be.
4. my brain is working overtime trying to figure them out.
5. i really do miss the all-chinese speaking environment. whatever. call me cHeeena. i was brought up this way. my family is 100% chinese speaking. i came frm a chinese pri sch n chinese sec sch. what do u expect! sometimes i resent the fact tt ppl stereotype all the chinese sch ppl. we arent some stupid geeks. it just so happens tt i cant see how is it possible for some to just forget their chinese roots totally.
i have heard things like this. when ppl hear we're frm dhs, the first thing tt comes out of their mouths is "cheena sch full of muggers." do we seriously portray tt kind of image? i have always pride myself as having a balanced mix of both chinese n english cultures. at home, it's 100% chinese. in sch it's abt 75%. other than tt, the things tt i enjoy, the books, tv shows, music, are all western. does tt make me a cheena person too?

i'm digressing already.
no wonder they say the best friends u wld ever make are those frm sec sch.
dhsco is always first. takes priority over everything single thing.
i know what some wld say. u're alr not in dhs. get on with life!
i AM getting on. i AM doing fine. i LIKE vj life.
unfortunately it's just tt some ppl arent making JC life so pleasant n smooth sailing.
not just for me, but i speak for the majority of us. n i mean everybody.
but i take these annoying little pests in my stride. cliched as it sounds. this is life experience.
so jc life may suck. but it has taught (already!) us some valuable experiences.
there are still some who refuse to acknowledge the fact tt indeed it's a darn complicated world out there. still living in their own sheltered world, thinking everybody n everything is nice n shiny.
i hope they wont get too shocked when the real world hands them a reality check.
so life in vj is actually a first round of reality checks.
i may come off even more cynical than i already am, but at least i'm mentally prepared.
n i realise. my real friends are all in dhs.
so mj u made a gd point.
it's because we are all so close to each other, conflicts (as in real conflicts, not behind-ur-back-bitching) wld occur. but we wld try to resolve them because we treasure all our friends so much.
who knows what's going on here?

i wld like to dedicate this entry to my fellow-dhs-mates.
1. as usual it's to the dhsco com first. li jy mollie lang rui zhi kes jieying yujia marc mj!! may we come together once again during eastzone camp!
2. dhsco com/vjcco com. ah it's the two of you guys la.
3. dhsco/vjco com. lyd jingying candice.
4. ex-4E.
5. ex-2J01. jia wil hf especially!
6. jam mandy simin py adelyne janice n nina!

well this is also to jingying n mj. u guys inspired me. whether in a gd way or not i'm not sure because i'm kind of in a depressed mood again. haha.
dun worry seah. u got us always! :D
dhs may not have any sch spirit to speak off. yet it's the familiarity of the environement tt bonds all of us together. n i wldnt trade tt for the world.
always remember. cheng xing yong zhong.
cheers.