what we do during BM212 lectures. :)

yes that's my eye candy. courtesy of peisee. who doesn't think he's all that cute because she doesn't go for the huge-pecs-and-tall-type and instead prefers the short-and-cute-and-flabby-types. hahaha.

a quote from Sex and The City. (really awesome show by the way. FABULOUS storylines that one can totally relate to)
"in love relationships, there is a fine line between pleasure and pain. in fact it's a common belief that a relationship without pain is a relationship not worth having. to some, pain implies growth. but how do we know when the growing pain stops, and the pain pain takeover? are we masochists or are we optimists if we continue to walk that fine line? when it comes to relationships, how do you know when enough is enough?"


i think there's a masochist in everyone of us, just based on the things that we subject ourselves to, sometimes. i know i am one. i constantly subject myself to more and more crap, sometimes even when i know i AM going to get affected by it, just to see how much more of the crap i can take.
but indeed, it brings about growth, and immunity. because each time, the pain hurts a little less, and eventually it numbs. and soon you'd learn to not feel, and not care anymore.
and that's why i want to find out things, i NEED to know things, and i WANT to know. i want to know every single detail that i know would hurt me, because i know the hurt is only temporary, before it gives way to indifference. masochistic? maybe. but all part and parcel of growth - i welcome it.



and speaking of masochistic, i don't know what's coming over me lately but it seems like i'm starting to develop a stubborn rebellious streak (which is about 6 years too late!!) which has me entertaining thoughts of getting a 3rd hole in my left ear and a 2nd in my right. yes so damn passe can. but what can i say? the inner ah lian is itching to come out HAHAHAA. :P


or maybe, i just want to become somebody i know you'd dislike. :)

cant believe i actually i had to suppress my feelings about what i liked just because you expressed dislike. wtf man.