i'm not somebody who cracks easily under stress. whether doing projects, during exams, or juggling CCAs back in vj and dhs.


in fact, sometimes when i'm under extreme stress, i tend to outperform myself (like during o level mep and a levels econs)
(oh and i'll have to tell you about the time before the o levels mep paper where i tore up my music notes and threw it into the dustbin and declared to SIX people that i'd treat them all to marche, 50 bucks each, if i got A1 for mep. luckily nobody remembered to claim :P. and yes i really did tear up my notes. poor haydn.)

there's just one time in all my years of examinations, where i broke down completely and finally had the feeling of complete hopelessness. that was last year, just before the prelims. (now you know why i shudder at the thought of the a levels. i respect anybody who can go through that again)
which is why it was horrifying when i had that same feeling again yesterday night.
it was as if a wave of depression just swept over me, and after that, i felt like doing nothing but sitting there and cry.
WEIRD. no it aint pms.

and watching whose line didnt help either. it made me happy for that mere half an hour and after that the sinking feeling at the pit of my stomach just got worse.

the emotional outburst finally happened just before i got to sleep
and to make matters really worse, all that adrenaline caused me to feel wide awake
so i didn't get to sleep until 3.30am, and i had to wake up at 5.45, thanks very much.

combine the lack of sleep, plus the residual feelings of depression from yesterday, i thought i was going to puke outside the exam hall today.
NEVER HAPPENED BEFORE. NOT A LEVELS, NOT EVEN PRELIMS! (yeah because during prelims i had pretty much accept the fate that i was going to screw up everything)






yeah so anyway after that long grandmother story, i still have no idea what happened to me, but i'm feeling much better thanks.
there wasnt time to do the ob paper completely, but who has? (if you have, you're weird and please go away)
and i'm rather used to writing half-arsed answers for econs essays anyway. HAHA.


right!
your whoseline segment of the day then :)

colin: "you know, one of my favourite singers was van gogh .............................. but he didn't sing alot did he? (realising his mistake)"
ryan: "no he didn't. isn't he deaf?"
colin: "yeah.. oh no you're mixing that up with beethoven"
ryan: "ahh......................................."
ryan: "loved that dog"



HAHAHA.