i'm feeling..
resentment this morning.
i can't believe that i actually wasted so much time, trying to pick your brains, trying to understand what you did, trying to explain what you did.
whether you actually had good intentions, or.. the exact opposite.
i don't actually care anymore.
if you are really holier-than-thou, good for you. good for me.
if you are not, all i can say is, at least my conscience WAS clear. (given the situation i was put in, it would have not been difficult for people to point their fingers at me, and perhaps i could have been the reason behind the disintegration of that thing. yet i did not do so, even when i stand to gain even more from it than you.)


but you still did it. and i did not.
i honestly do not care anymore.