yes, it may have been ages ago.
but nothing could have stopped that white hot flash of anger.


and boy was i mad. furious, pissed off, upset, you name it.
but before the anger could start eating me up from inside (AGAIN), as quickly as it came, it disappeared.
and so all that was left was indifference.
i guess guys have the right approach sometimes. seriously now, who gives a damn?



you know what they say about people who constantly put down other people.
three words for them
INSECURE
JEALOUS
and have LOW SELF-ESTEEM
therefore having the need to demean other people

idiots.


i may not be able to match up to you in certain areas, but it does not mean i'm supposed to be lousier than you in every single aspect.
and yet, that's the way you seem to act. i'm supposed to not be better. you don't like the idea that i can be better.
it's all obvious, in the way you act, the words you speak, the haughty aura you don't used to have, but are having now, the not-so-subtle putdowns.
i don't suppose that i'm overreacting, or thinking too much.
because it's that obvious.
i was upset at first
but i've decided that bo-chup-ness is the way to go. and of course my three-word mantra.
JEALOUSINSECURELOWSELFESTEEM.
thank you.


i'm sick of trying.
i no longer like you much, hence i don't see the point in trying to act chummy with you anymore.

i don't like people who judge too much.
and by that i mean people who don't even give you a chance to explain,
who don't even listen before they starting sprouting moralistic advice.
"you SHOULD blah blah blah. you SHOULD NOT blah blah blah"
and then they go around and do exact opposite of what they've just preached.
oh god it makes me so MAD.


forget it. unlikely that i'd ever see that person again unless i ever feel the kick to feel demeaned.

and so funny. somebody really fell for the trap, head over heels.
did i not expect that?


as i always say,
做贼心虚.