Part (I)

What do I do to ignore them behind me?
Do I follow my instincts blindly?
Do I hide my pride from these bad dreams
And give in to sad thoughts that are maddening?
Do I sit here and try to stand it?
Or do I try to catch them red-handed?
Do I trust some and get fooled by phoniness,
Or do I trust nobody and live in loneliness?
Because I can't hold on when I'm stretched so thin
I make the right moves but I'm lost within
I put on my daily fa軋de but then
I just end up getting hurt again
By myself (Myself)

Pre chorus:I ask why, but in my mind
I find I can't rely on myself

I can't hold on
To what I want when I'm stretched so thin
It's all too much to take in
I can't hold on
To anything watching everything spin
With thoughts of failure sinking in

If I turn my back
I'm defenseless
And to go blindly seems senseless
If I hide my pride and let it all go on
Then they'll take from me 'till everything is gone
If I let them go I'll be outdone
But if I try to catch them
I'll be outrun
If I'm killed by the questions like a cancer
Then I'll be buried in the silence of the answer(By myself)

Pre chorus

Chorus
How do you think I've lost so much
I'm so afraid, I'm out of touch
How do you expect I will know what to do
When all I know is what you tell me to
Don't you knowI can't tell you how to make it go
No matter what I do, how hard I try
I can't seem to convince myself why
I'm stuck on the outside

Chorus (2x)



Evrythng I wan to say is portrayed exactly the way it is in this song.
Guess who’s back??
Say hi again to the old, pessimistic, jaded, paranoid, mentally exhausted me J
I have tried so long to keep the old mE down. Now it’s back. Wonderful. Terrific. Great. Thanx a lot man!
I’m so disappointed with those ppl.
I cant handle more of this shit. I’m not going to care anymore.
Bloody hell. Bunch of freaking hypocrites.

Where are you now? I need somebody to tell me, to assure me that, some ppl aren’t really like that. I want to feel convinced. I want to feel worry-free again.
Where are you? I need you.
Someone there just to listen.
Someone who doesn’t judge.
Someone to give me good sound advice.
Please?

Who’s this person anyway? Perhaps such a person doesn’t really exist. I just want some solace n comfort, which I cant seem to find.
I have been told.
I have been warned.
I have read the signs.
Yet.
I have fallen again.

Part (II)
Uhoh. It’s happening again.
Lydia dear. Please stop me before I do stupid things again!
Like.. you know.. taking walks arnd weird places. :P
Oh no..
This is going to happen again.
N I don’t think I can stop it..
Not so soon.
Maybe it’s abt time like u said?
To forget n move on.
But through this way?
It’s like stepping right back into the hole I juz crawled out of.
Haha.
But then again.
Who cares?
It’s time to have some fun. Live life!
:D


How different can I get.