So I haven't been near the piano in maybe almost a year, and I frankly, I no longer remember to. But whenever I go back to listen to this piece, it makes me want to cry that I've more or less given up on something that's more been part of my life for 12 years.

And then I go and listen to this and it just makes me even sadder



BECAUSE THERE USED TO BE A TIME WHEN I COULD ACTUALLY PLAY THESE SONGS, AND PLAY THEM WELL. It's almost enough to make me want to cut off my finger nails (because yes, it's physically impossible to play the piano with them at this length. That's how long they are) and take up lessons again. Almost, because I just don't have the time.