Someone Asked Me Recently


"are you very irritated with something or somebody?"

no. why do you ask?

"because you seem flustered occasionally. and when people talk to you, you don't seem to be listening much sometimes"



oops.

well, but i should probably get this clear.
i'm perfectly un-irritated.
as for the not-listening-much incidents,
i'm distracted.
by mostly dread and gloom.
and sometimes when i talk to people, i may actually be thinking
"damn. how much more do i actually have to study??"
and so i may just want to shut up and gloom myself.

and of course, as much as i don't want to be affected by other things, i'm sorry to say that i have far lesser willpower than that.
-GLOOOOM-
difficult. too difficult.
too many things. way too many things.

trivial matters.

and yeah. i'm on hiatus actually.
i like to be in denial. which i am in most of the time.