the things that she told me didn't surprise me, surprisingly.
i'd expected them all along anyway.
but it still doesn't stop the heartache.

she may just be speculating, but it's the same.
after all, how could something come out of nothing?
sometimes i wish that someone would just tell me the whole truth once and for all and let me grieve once and for all and then maybe finally i can be freed damnit.

i won't say my heart's broken.
cos it didn't even mend in the first place.




today was our last practice at the PT. i would really miss that lovely place.
after our concert, i'm going to type a LOOOOONG entry about CO. not now. i need to sleep.

but what i wouldnt miss, i don't think i need to type it out.
bloody assholes.
oh sorry, let me correct that.
bloody humji talentless assholes
you have absolutely zero right to make criticisms of that sort. of any sort for that matter.
you dare to say it out, you might as well say it to our faces.
but you don't. 'cos you're just a stupid pushover with no guts. (who looks to the floor after he insults others and people stare at him)
LOSER!
watch your mouth. if not we'll make you really sorry.
it is people like YOU that make me say this: YOU DESERVED WHAT YOU GOT.



alright. i'm destined to be a musician. the 16pf thing said so.
it also says that i can be anything in performing arts, writing, counselling, advertising/marketing, child development blahblah.
more than accurate actually. how did it know that i was actually considering to be a pediatrician?
aiya. don't laugh la. way before chanks told us that to become a doctor you need to study at least 15 more years and before i realised that i pretty much suck at biology, i was an aspiring doctor.
haha!
nowadays i'm more realistic.
and realistic enough to know that even though my interests lie precisely in those areas, people just don't see a future there.
siann. do the test like do for nothing. i was half hoping that it would tell me that underneath it all i'm actually a person who is enterprising and innovative (read: everything which 16pf told me i'm not)


oh yes. cheers and more cheers for me. a lovely shiny GOLD for napfa which had eluded me for the past 6 years. NO JOKE LEH.
(oh there's a double meaning behind the GOLD thingy. see if you get it? :))
obviously if i'd been getting gold for the past 5 years i wouldnt even care about typing it out.
but i haven't, so here i am! haha!
the "**co sucks!" method sure works wonders.
i desperately needed 172 for that sbj C when i only had 170 (like %*&!?@).
so i was like repeating that sentence in my head over n over again.
tada. 181. haha! (again. i must gloat. the last time i ever jumped more than 180 was in sec three lah. i suck)
AABBCC it is. can i have that for my blocktests too? A for GP la. haha. then i wouldnt care if i got a C for maths. hell i would be jumping for joy already!

okok. no talk about block tests until after the passing down.



my back hurts.
my neck hurts.
my ribs hurt.
my stomach hurts.
my tailbone hurts.
my heart hurts.
i need a doc.


oh i read my junior's blog just. (i wonder if he's reading this too, since he once mentioned that he found my blog)
well anyway if you're reading it. (ahem. the yearbook is in mj's locker)
WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?? so interesting!! i hope it's what we're all thinking about!
-guffaws-
it's good that people are happy. happy people make other people happy.